I looked at the clock, it read 5.45 am! I was getting up at 7 to get ready to go shopping at 9 I hated waking up before the alarm but I need to a drink, so I forced myself out of my borrowed bed and walked to the kitchen in the dark, only the moonlight shinning through the windows helped me, I didn't know where light switches where and didn't want to fumble around and wake everyone. I walked to the kitchen and noticed the light on and Monica sat at the table with her head in her hands a cup of coffee in front of her. She looked up when she heard me walk in and smiled at her.

"Need a drink," I told her.

She smiled at me weakly and stared back in to her coffee. I made myself a glass of milk thinking of how I could spark a conversation with her. I could almost guaranty by the way Jesse and her made eye contact that she knew the team and if she was a friend of the team then she was a friend of mine and I wanted to let her know that. But just coming right out and saying it would maybe scare her or something so I had to chose my approach carefully, shit I already sounded like a cop!

"So how long have you and Brian been together?" I decided that this type of questioning would work out better then coming out and saying why or how do you know Jesse.

"It's been about 6 years now." Monica said softly.

"Cool, so do you work at the garage too?" I asked her wondering what she did if anything for a living.

"No, I don't know more then how to change my oil and change a tire." Monica told me with a little chuckle.

"You have been with Brian that long and don't know shit about cars?" I laughed hard at this one. My dad would have been pissed if Letty was this way.

"They all try, but I could care less, there ain't nothing in a garage that can keep my interest enough to want to learn to fix it up." Monica told me with a smile on her face.

"I kind of know what you mean, like I enjoy it all but I don't want to do it all my life. I think my dad needs a son or one day a grand son that can take over for him. I have bigger and better plans for my life." I don't know why I was opening up like this, but I guess it is that she probably won't ever talk with my dad to tell him this.

"Sounds like you know what you want, but what I don't get is with you being raise by the great Dom Torreto how could you not want to do that type of work?" She asked in a tone that seemed genuine.

"Funny dad said basically the same thing to me, He then told me that I wanted to be just like my mother with all my cop shit as he so kindly put it." I still am not sure why it is all coming out like this but ohh well, to late now.

"Cop shit?"

"I am the first and newest member of the LAPD cadet program, lets just say that dad is beyond pissed." I told her still opening up and still not sure why.

"I heard LAPD was going to start that, when do you start with them?"

"The 3rd of January."

"We are looking at starting a program like that with in the FBI but we are not sure how well it would work, so we are going to wait and see what some of the major law enforcement agency do first." She told me.

"So your FBI?" This was interesting, I wonder if Brian is still a cop then. He was when he was trying to take in my dad and the team I wonder if he is now.

"Yes, It took a long ass time to get here, but yes I am." While Monica told me this I could see some pain in her eyes, I wonder why.

We sat there for about 2 more hours talking, about the team back home, the team here, my goals in the department and all of that. I finally looked at the clock and decided that I would address the situation of her saying she would take me shopping.

"I really appreciate you saying that you would take me shopping today and all, but you don't have to, I can get one of they guys to take me." I told her softly.

"There ain't a way in this world that any of these guys would take you shopping, I can't speak for Jesse but I know my guys and they would never take you. "

"I bet you 100 I can talk the hardest one into it." Come on I am from a family that bets for money.

"Your on, you have to talk Roman into it. And everyone has to witness it." She tells me. "I can promise it wont happen thought."

"We will see about that."

"I however would love to go shopping with you, me and shopping are good friends just ask Brian and his credit card." She told me with a smile on her face.

"Ask Brian and his credit cards what?" Brian asked as he walked into the room. Then getting a puzzled look on his face he said, "Oh shit I told you that you could take her shopping didn't I. Damn it."

"I don't know about her but I can tell you that my dads credit card is going to feel this one." I told him with a smirk.

"And your ass will feel it when he gives you a good ass beating when we get back too. Hell I might even feel it for letting you go." Jesse said as he came into the room.

"Ohh well, I think I will manage, how can anyone say no to this face." I told them with a chuckle while I put on my best sad puppy face and batter my eyes.

"Hey guys, no one cooked yet?" Roman said walking into the room.

"Damn boy, we been up like well not that long and you already are tying to get us to cook for your ass. I though you were staying somewhere else last night. Girl gets what you were trying to do?" Monica told him with a smirk.

"No love no love." Was Roman's reply back?

I then stood up and went to the fridge to see what I could whip together, thanking God that Mia taught me how to cook and not Aunt Letty.

"You don't have to cook for them, me and you have plans, Brian here can cook ok." Monica told me as she got up and was now standing next to me.

"Watch this." I whispered softly.

"Hey Romey, what you doing today?" I asked turning on the charm.

"Hell no girl, what ever it is hell no. Those eyes will not work with me."

"But you don't even know what I want you to do." I smile knowing he was starting to creak.

"What do you want?" He asked kind of playful but kind of hesitant.

"Monica has to go into work this morning and I was really hoping to go shopping now," I told him while walking over to him and giving him a small hug, I then pulled back and looked into his eyes they way I have seen Letty use with my dad. "Please, will you take me."

"Sure, but I am back her to finish the car Tej is going to have my ass for." Roman said caving. "And your ass is going to cook me Breakfast."

"Monica, you better pay up." I said smiling and laughing.

"I got to give you props that was hella good. You need to teach me that." Monica told me while pulling out Brian's wallet from his back pocket and handing me 5 20's.

"What the hell?" Roman said mad.

"She said that I couldn't talk you into taking me. I proved her wrong, she had to pay up, but I will make you that breakfast. It will be ready in about 15 minutes, everyone go get ready." I said while pushing everyone out of the kitchen. Jesse stayed; he looked like he wanted to talk with me.

"Hey Jesse what's up?" I asked as he slid up onto the counter top.

"Not much, just got off the phone with you dad." He said to me while looking at the floor.

"And?" I questioned him knowing he was trying to hid something from me.

"And nothing, we talked and we don't have to go back till you're ready. But…" He trailed off looking off into space.

"But what?" I asked with a hint of anger in my voice. When my dad and Jesse talk and Jesse gets spacey like think I know something is going wrong, and generally it involves something to do with me.

"I had to promise that I wouldn't introduce you to your mom." He said this so quick I wasn't t sure that I heard him right, but then when I looked at the guilt in his eyes I know I heard him.

"YOU PROMISED ME SOMETHING THAT I HAVE WANTED SINCE I WAS LITTLE AND NOW YOU ARE SAYING NO?" I yelled this so loud at him that I am sure the neighbors heard me.

"Listen baby, sweetie… Kira Angelina Torreto, look at me now." There was just something about Jesse using my full name that always no matter what made me look up at him. He was going to get one hell of an attitude with this though.

"WHAT." I half yelled at him. Hot angry tears were now spilling down my face.

"Angel, I had to. There was no way around it. It was promise him or lose my job and my family. I didn't want to lose you. I know it's wrong, but I'm sorry." When he finished telling me this I was wrapped in his arms.

"What you are saying is he gave you a choice, and you went with what's best for you. I can respect that, but I am never going to meet her now. You were my only hope and you gave up on me." I said this in a way to make him feel guilty but also to tell him that I understood.

"Your dad said when he is ready he will tell you all about her and their relationship, and then if you want to he would take you to meet her. A promise I will keep no matter what is if that hasn't happened by the time you are 18 then I will make it happen." Jesse pushed me away from him before he said this. I knew he was being truthful with me and would keep this one cause he pinky promised and Jesse has never broken on of them.

"You better go wash up before the others get here and you don't get to eat." Smiling at me he was out the door running to the bathroom.

Shortly after he left Roman came in.

"Hey chica things cool in here." He asked softly while helping me hold the bowl to put the eggs in the pan.

"As cool as they are going to get. Thanks for checking." I was happy he was over being pissed off at me for the bet.

"Gotta look out for the great Torreto's daughter you know." HE said this with a huge smile on his face.

"Damn you. You know what, for that you are not going to get to eat any of my cooking." Smiling at him I they yelled, "Guys it's ready come eat."

Everyone came into the kitchen ready to eat, I served everyone, but Roman.

"Damn dude what'd you do to piss her off?" Jesse questioned softly.

"I was joking with her and then she does this shit." Roman said pissed. I could tell he was pissed by the way he was looking at me.

"Umm guys hate to break it to you but I am right here. I warned everyone at the shop, but tell you what you get me a Simi – amateur quarter mile no NOS race and use of the shop for a little while and I will let you have this." I smiled holding a plate of food.

"You ain't got a car." Roman said back kind of questioning.

"Don't need one, well that is if you guys think Tej will let us use the shop for a few. I'll even pay him."

"Only cause I'm hungry, I will get you the shop, free of course, you can use my bay. Getting you a race will be a little bit harder."

"Consider it done, I don't want to hear his ass wining about being hungry later on." Monica said softly. "Tej will do anything for me."

"all right here you go Romey," I added a small smile as I gave him the plate.

"this is damn good. What's all in here and where did you learn to cook like this." Brian asked with his mouth full.

"Don't ask, if it's anything like home, you don't want to know."

"Gee thanks Jesse. It's just some of the leftovers and some new stuff. And Aunt Mia taught me to cook. Lord knows if Aunt Letty did you all wouldn't be living." I smiled laughing at the last memory of Letty cooking. "Monica When should we leave?"

"It's 8 now, most of the good stores don't open till 10, but we can go where ever you want to."

"If you don't mind I think I'm gonna take my morning run, shower and then I should be ready around 9:45ish. Is that cool?"

"That's fine by me. Stay close to the beach and you wont get lost, but if you do just ask anyone that looks cool where Tej's is." Brian added that last part finishing her sentence.

"Cool. I'll be back soon."

"Aren't you eating?" Roman asked.

"I had a protein shake for breakfast, helps me with my run." I smiled and started to walk out of the room. Turning around before I was completely out I addressed Jesse, "Hey Jesse, can you get dishes?"

"Sure thing babe, have a good run." He told me smiling. He then winked at me and started to clear the table.

I ran upstairs and threw on a black sports bra, then a blue tank top that stopped just above my belly button, showing off my abs and belly piercing. I then put on some short buttie shorts, my socks and tennis shoes. I pulled my waist length dark brown hair into a bun and secured it with my favorite hair tie.

Walking back down the stairs I went into the kitchen.

"Thanks for cleaning my mess." I told Jesse while I grabbed a water from the fridge.

"Sure you cooked."

Roman walked into the kitchen when I closed the fridge door.

"Damn Chica, you are Hella Fine,"

"Why thanks Romey," I smiled and then kissed him on the cheek. Comments from people I don't know too well are always nice.

"How in the hell you let your woman out like this?" He questioned Jesse.

"I'm not his woman, isn't that right Uncle Jesse." I regretted saying this after I saw the look of rejection and hurt in his eyes.

"Right." He responded and then turned around to go back to washing the dishes.

I waved roman to leave us alone. When he left the room I walked over to Jesse and wrapped my arms around him from behind.

"I am so, so very sorry. I didn't mean for it to come out like that. I am so very, very sorry. I love you Jesse you know that, But it's more of an older brother love then anything else. I'm sorry if that hurts."

"I'm sorry for being so stupid. I know that we can never be, Hell you dad would kill me, but some times I feel like we have more."

"I know I feel it too, but like you said my dad would kill us both."

We talked for a little while longer and got our feelings out and straight. I then went for my run. I needed to clear my head.

I don't get to meet my mom now, Jesse pretty much proclaimed his love to me, Roman said I was hot and then there is the ultimate anger I have towards my dad for not letting me meet my mom and for mom for not being here. Maybe I should just give up and start looking toward Letty as the mom I never had.

While I was out running I ran into Tej.

"Kira right?"

"Hey Tej, how's it going?"

"Not bad just making some money, what you doing out here alone?"

"Running." I told him with some sarcasm, what else would I be doing running down the sidewalk?

"Ok stupid question."

"Monica was going to talk with you, but since were here. I want a Simi armature no NOS quarter mile race. 3G buy in." I smirked at his facial expression.

"For you?"

"No my sister." I told him pissed.

"Chill, we really only do circets."

"So do this for me, I can't and won't run a circet in my Jeep. I promise the financial aspect of it will be worth it to you." I smirked, "Just put the word out that the king of LA street racings daughter is the racer and I'm sure you will have some takers."

"Sure, I'll let Monica know what I come up with."

"Thanks," With that I was off to go back to Brian's, shower and change.

Then it was off to spend a hell of a lot of money courtesy of my dad.

A/N Bold is Stacey, Thanks so much for the help. Cheer thanks for being there, and hope everyone like this. Review and let me know what you think and what should happen.

Rana