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A/N: This is right out of my diary with as few alterations as possible. The biggest one is when she talks about Quidditch, but I won't say anything incase one of my friends are reading this! Please review!-Cole


When I look in the mirror, what do I see?

To be honest, when I look in the mirror, when I take a good, hard look at myself, I see a hypocritical, cynical, lying bitch. I see a girl who says we should do what we want and not care about what other people think, a girl who tells the world that she does what she wants, whatever she wants, but that is all a lie.

The truth is, if I always spoke my mind, I would be playing Quidditch. If I was completely honest with everyone, I would have told Myra and Millicent that they are the biggest pozers I have ever seen, I would have told Leah she's a prep, mum would have been labled a bitch, and my teachers and my friends would hate me. I wuld have screamed at Dumbledore and thrown his pity in his face, and Draco would know I have a major crush on him.

If I showed the world the true me and stopped hiding in this façade of lies, my hair would have black streaks in it, I would have a stud in my nose, I would not get straight A's, except for Potions. I love Potions, it's the only thing that allows me to be me.

The truth is, I would be so much different if I could be the real me. One day I will be, one day I will be Pansy Malfoy, but not now. For now I am a Parkinson, teacher's pet and angel extrodinairre.

But you never can tell, what an angel can do.

-Pansy