Wednesday, March 9
Garet was gone for the day.
I sighed, trying to find some meaning to a meaningless day.
I walked outside, an empty gloom over my head. A messanger stood at the end of my walk way. I ignored him. Garet wasn't home to send a message... so I didn't really care.
I hunted down Isaac, or maybe Sheba, my two best friends, maybe they could keep me entertained.
'I just hope I'm home when Garet gets home'
The hours went by and Felix took me out shopping for the Djinn.I instantly sent a messager on the way home. When I DID get home I rushed to Garets, knocking visously until he opened.
"You're home!" I jumped up, happy again.
"Yeah, we didn't go anywhere... I was home alone all day"
"Awww! Poor you." I smiled a little, even if I did feel him pity.
"I was good. Ilied"
I jumped up, suddenly feeling stiff. "What. did. you. do"
"Nothing!" He said, with a small voice following.
"Garet..." I whined. "What. DID. YOU. DO"
"It isn't that bad! And they made me mad"
"Garet"
"What"
"No"
"You don't even know what I did"
Just that Sunday I'd slapped him for asking what would happen if he died.
"No"
"It isn't even that bad! It's only under the armlet"
'Armlet's go on your wrist, stupid...' "No"
"It's only like, four scratches and it made me feel better"
"No"
"Are you gonna cry"
Long silence.
Kay and Mrs. Jerra had been fighting, Garet's Psynergy had dropped and Kraden Kicked him out of school, so now he was training under his dad for mayor and failing- angering his dad... I could see his life falling apart... I could see the one I cared for most in pain and everything falling apart around him... what was I supposed to do?
"But... they yell at me everyday, they won't let me spar, and they said I couldn't see you anymore! They left me alone all day- andthis made me happy! Please don't cry"
I could feel my very soul curl up in the dark corner of my mind.
"It isn't that bad, it isn't worth crying over"
"Yes it is"
"You've done it too"
"When I was, like, 14! I lost my brother, what do you expect"
"Isaac's done worse"
"So! You still did it! If the knife makes you happy, where am I needed"
"But I did it cause they said I couldn't see you"
Silence.
'why'
"Jenna, don't cry"
"I should slap you so bad"
"Meep! No. I promise I won't do it again" He slammed the door, peeping through the window at me. "Don't you trust me"
"After what you did?"
"It isn't that bad! It's four little scratches, Isaac did worse" A slight clicking sound came from behind his back.
"What is that." I demended.
"Just... knife... flicking. open, closed, open closed..."
"Throw it away"
"Why"
"throw it! Put it down! Get rid of it" I turned my back- leaning against the closed door so he couldn't see me cry- just in case.
"There's three others, this one doesn't even work that well"
"Get rid of it"
He threw it away.
"All of them..."
"They're all gone, but one of them, but it's special"
"As long as it isn't blood stained"
"Don't worry, I wiped all the blood off." He sounded cheery.
But that didn't help one bit. I cringed, biting back tears the best I could.
Blood... his blood... the one I loved most, his innocent blood...
Isaac cut because of his dad, Mia cut because of Alex, I cut because of Felix, Ivan grew desprite sometimes of being an emotional fool infront of people, Sheba grew frusterated at a 'meaningless life' without a right past, Picard Loved Lemuria but was put in exile, and Felix felt like he betrayed everyone.
Garet... you were the only one who hadn't spilled innocent blood, you gave me a reason to stop the act, but now... there's no innocents left.
'There aren't any angels anymore.'
