Chapter 9: Dream
a/n: HI YA! :) any who, chapter nine is up and ready to be read. Again thanks for you reviews and insights! I think I'll still keep Black Silk Red Roses going, in the the meantime I was thinking of taking on a new project. Want to venture the dark side of human nature and romance. My mind is everywhere! Alrighty chapter nine.
"...Shuichi...it's me Yuki. Yuki Eiri." Yuki said placing his both of his hands on Shuichi's arms.
"I'm sorry, Mr. Eiri but I honestly do not know who you are, or this Shuichi." I said. I don't know who this guy is or what he's talking about. He really does look very much concern about me, I wonder if he might be telling the truth.
"Do you know why you are here? Do you know where your house is?" Yuki asked frantically.
"The doctor said I was in here in an car accident I ran across the street. How foolish of me. My house, I...don't know." I said. This man says he knows me but in my mind I have never seen him ever. I thought that maybe he is telling the truth, that he really did know me when I had my memory. My head started to hurt again and I closed my eyes and clenched my fist.
"Yuki...Shuichi isn't feeling very good, so may you please leave so he can rest?" The doctor suggest and politely show Yuki out the door. The doctor closed the door behind him as he left.
Yuki was stunned he didn't know what to do, how is he going to prove that Shuichi and him knew each other. They never took pictures together or kept any memorabilia of them. All seems hopeless for Yuki. It was all going to fast for him. The world were Shuichi and him used to live in shattered. Shuichi doesn't remember him, but then Yuki decided that no matter what he is going to make Shuichi regain his memory even if it takes a great deal of time, and never returning home to Japan. He called the Japanese embassy when he got back to the hotel and extended his stay for Shuichi and him. Yuki, sat in a chair that sat across from the bed. He reminisced about that night, and the short days that he felt Shuichi's warmth and love. His head started to ache, he took two pills of aspirin and went outside to smoke a cigarette and watch the sunset. Shuichi too in the hospital sat on his bed, his head rested on his arm which was held up by his knees. He stared at the moon and tried to remember who he was or what he was in store for him, and this mysterious Yuki. He didn't know his name, but he decided to call himself Shu, he couldn't take the full name Shuichi because he might not be Shuichi, until he remembers who he was, he will temporarily call him self Shu. Shu stared at moon and thought of how lonely he was in this cold hospital room. All he could hear his the harsh rustling of the Sakura trees and the wind the blew without haste. He then thought that he's not really lonely because somewhere out there, Yuki too is lonely because he lost someone dear to him, together, he thought, we both can be lonely...together. Yuki back in his hotel room, took the white blanket into the terrace and sat in the chair and bundled himself up and quietly looked up at the moon, then closing his eyes and imaging Shuichi in his arms. Yuki and Shu woke up the the early rising American Sun and both noticed they slept uncomfortable in the position they were in last night. Yuki got ready to go see Shuichi, and Shu got ready for his morning check up.
Shu's doctor suggested that I take a morning walk to get some fresh air, instead of being cooped up in my room. I smiled at the idea and in my hospital clothes I went out to the adjacent park and went for my walk. Shu doesn't know that Yuki asked the doctor to suggest to Shu to go for a morning walk so Yuki can talk to Shu. Shu walked around the fountain and peered inside. He looked at his face. He took his right hand up to his face and touched it. In his mind he asked himself, Are you...am I...Shuichi? He hoped that his reflection would nod or say yes, but nothing happened. Shu went up the stairs and through narrow path of Sakura trees on both side. The Sakura trees knew what Shu has been through. They sway their branches side to side, and when the wind blew through the branches the trees sound like they were wailing. They showered Shu with their pink leaves, weeping for Shu. Shu doesn't know the tree knows, he took at the sign that the tree were happy to see him, and he walked through the passage, smiling, thinking that the trees were swaying in happiness. Shu doesn't know that Yuki in on the other side of the passage waiting for him. Shu walked slowly to the other side, he didn't want to leave the trees, the trees didn't want to pity Shu anymore so they stop swaying and showering Shu with their leaves. Yuki greeted the surprised Shu with a smile. Shu was shocked that Yuki knew he was coming but then again happy that he was able to bump into Yuki.
"Hi Shuichi, I thought that we could talk for a bit." Yuki said.
"Mr. Eiri..." Shu said.
"Call me Yuki, please." Yuki interrupted.
"Yuki, please don't call me Shuichi, I have no right to be the person you think I am. For now please just call me Shu." Shu said looked away from Yuki and stared at the silent Sakura trees.
"Ok Shu, that's fine with me." Yuki said, sounding disappointed. They both walked to a nearby bench and sat there. They were silent for while, just like they were back then, but this time it wasn't awkward silence for Shu, it was awkward for Yuki.
"Umm...yesterday I decided that...I'm going to help you Shui...Shu try to regain your memory." Yuki said and took a deep breath and sighed.
"Oh....Yuki, I...I don't want to a burden to you." Shu replied, he was shocked at what Yuki said to him.
"Shu, please may I ask you of this favor. Please let me help you regain your memory." Yuki silently pleaded looking straight into Shu's eyes.
"I don't know Yuki. I personally do want to remember who I was, but I fear that I don't I will hurt you greatly. And even I might hurt myself." Shu said.
"That's a risk I'm willing to take." Yuki bravely said.
I stared at Yuki for a minute, something inside me told me to trust him but my brain says otherwise.
"Please I beg of you this." Yuki said.
" Yuki...I think...that your favor is very selfish but yet honorable. I will agree if you promise me this." I said staring at my feet.
"Anything." Yuki said.
" If...I don't regain my memory...Can you then please let me go?" I managed to whisper. My heart was beating fast, very fast I could hear it on this quiet morning.
It seems like five minutes has past and still Yuki hasn't still answered. I decided to take the initiative and looked up at Yuki.
" Can you promise me that Yuki?" I asked again.
Yuki looked into my eyes for a moment Then he turned away.
"I promise" Yuki uttered.
I miss you, I miss you
To the point where I hate myself
I want to cry.. I want to kneel down
And if only everything didn't happen..
The memories where I loved you crazily..
Those memories haunt me
But I cant hide from this love any longer
I shouldn't do this
But I miss you to death
