Chapter 12: Evanescensce
a/n: Hey guys sorry for the long hiatus I had so much going on in my life I couldn't even keep track of time. Well here's chapter twelve! I had a hard time coming up with plots and such. Hopefully I still got it! All right I'm shutting up. Ja Ne.
"Hmmm… It seems to me here that Shu is starting to regain his memory, that would explain the severe migraine and the flashing images he sees." The doctor stated still keeping his eyes locked on his clipboard.
The doctor continued, "It seemed like high level of stress and mental fatigue is to blame. Is anything bothering you Shu?"
"Me? No nothing from what I usually think about." I replied.
"…Right." The doctor skeptically retorted.
"Doctor does Shu have to stay overnight at the hospital?" Yuki asked. Yuki face genuinely expressed that he was concerned about. I couldn't help but force a small smile.
"No, that's not necessary. He just needs some rest and to take it easy in the head. But…there is something I need to talk to Shu in private about." The Doctored said to Yuki.
Yuki understanding that it was a matter that doesn't concern him slightly bowed and took his place outside. I was beginning to get worried that it's going to be bad news.
The doctor made sure that the door was finally shut and that it was just Shu and him in the room that he begun to talk.
"Shu….you starting to remember might cause some issues with your current mindset. When the car hit you it caused blood clots and cerebral hemorrhage in your central lobe. That would explain the amnesia, but now that perhaps you're slowly starting to heal that part of your brain that was affected is starting to rebuild it self. So in the meanwhile it created a temporary psyche that's what you are now."
"Doctor, No offense but what the hell do you mean?" I asked blatantly.
"Sorry, What I mean is…that you might start to remember who you are, Shuichi. But Shu might be erased from your brain. You will not have any recollection of Shu or what happen after the Car accident and revert back to your past self." Doctor said.
"Oh, well that's good…isn't it?" I questioned. My heart sank as I heard that my current self will be forgotten. What does that mean? Will it seem like I, Shu, never existed? What would Yuki think?
"Well…it is but there is also the chance that you will not regain your past self and also…" Doctor hesitated.
"…and also what?" Shu asked.
":Sigh:… Your brain is rebuilding itself, repairing the hemorrhaged tissue with that said it will rebuild itself entirely and you will start to loose all of your memory. It's like how a computer reformats itself…slowly one byte at a time…and by time you will totally loose all your memory. And if it gets worst to the point that your brain goes into atrophy than…you can die." The doctor took a deep breathe and revert his eyes back to his clipboard pretending to be intrigued with what's on the piece of paper.
"What…what are you saying…that I might loose my memory…and die also?" I uttered feeling my noses flare and my eyes swelling.
"But... but that can't be…I have to remember…I need to remember…how…how can this happen?…I don't understand." I babbled out. Thinking about the worst…thinking about loosing the only thing that I care for so much, Yuki.
"I can prescribe some medicine that either will slow down the process or have no affect at all." The doctor said.
"Can… Can I have surgery? There's a way to fix it right?" I pleaded, feeling the tears finally unleashing onto my face and my nose runny.
"I'm sorry…that sort of brain surgery even if I send you to the best brain surgeon there is only a 15 percent chance it will be successful." The Doctor replied and continued, "Well, I'm going to write up the prescription right now so if you will excuse me." With that he left and closed the door quietly.
I quickly dried my eyes and runny nose, and thought of happy thoughts. Two minutes later the door opened and a golden hair man came in with two foam cups. He pulled a chair up to my bed and handed me a cup. I looked down and saw that it was hot Coca. I looked up and smiled and took a sip.
"Thanks Yuki." I said still smiling and sipping the warm drink. He just smirked and stared at me. Oh no…did he find out? Did the doctor tell him?...Thoughts were rushing through my head like wildfire. I started to get worried; I don't want Yuki to know. That would devastate him.
"So why were you crying about you big baby?" He asked
"What I wasn't I just had something in my eye." I replied back sipping at the cocoa.
"Hmm…well whatever happens now or whatever happens in the future as long as you and I have faith we can overcome it even if it means letting go." Yuki whispered to me. He was looking down and his hair covered the top part his face. I didn't know if he has his eyes closed or he was crying or what… Yuki reached over to me and placed his hand on my face.
His hands were cold. He brushed my face seemingly liking to rub my face.
"You're warm…" He muttered looking up into my eyes.
His cool yellow eyes were soft and direct. My eyes started to water up again. I quickly urged myself to stop crying, I don't want Yuki to speculate anything is wrong if he didn't know! But soon Yuki put his arms around me and the hospital room disappeared. All I saw was the dim outline of his shirt and body and all I can smell is his scent. The aroma triggered something in me and I couldn't hold it in anymore. Soon I found myself crying so hard that my tear duct isn't producing enough tear to match the pain inside of me.
Yuki held me closer to him I felt the warmth of his Body and arms all over me. I felt time stopped and everything with around us stopped I couldn't hear a thing see any light. It was just the two of us on the bed together. Sitting…waiting…for hope. And outside It slowly started to rain.
Yuki…there's an eraser in my head…Soon this moment and the many others I shared with you… that Shuichi had with you will be nonexistent. So today until then, I will try hard to make you happy and to remember you…and to love you…only you.
