Chapter 5
"James Potter! I hate you! Arg…this is stupid. Repertulla!" screamed Lily. With her spell, she forced the huge stag into the twitchy form of James Potter.
"Lily, Lily no do not take it like that! I was just roaming around, and I saw you, and um…ok this isn't going well, and I don't have a good excuse. Just yell at me or whatever you're going to do," said James in a defeated voice. He realized that this was stupid no matter what he said she was still going to be mad at him, and there was absolutely nothing he could do about it. When Lily decided on something she followed it, unfortunately James was the victim of the wrath of Lily today.
"Potter! How could you deceive me like that? And since when are you an animagus? And is Sirius and Peter animagi, too? I'm sure Dumbledore would love to know that wonder boy Potter blew his trust, and has been changing into animals in his spare time. Are you running around with Remus when he changes? That's really dangerous, and I'm positive Dumbledore would love to here about that. Oh yes, I'm sure the ministry and Dumbledore will be very happy to know there are like three unregistered animagi running around," yelled Lily, she was so mad she could explode. "Speaking of blowing trust. What about me? You led me on to think you were a freakin' animal, and of course I started talking to you like you were an animal. If you didn't want to change in front of me why didn't you just run off into the forest, it's not like I would have questioned a 'wild' stag running away. James, I told you stuff no one was supposed to hear. How could you? Why would you do this to me?" Lily was yelling furiously at James, but to his surprise James was starting to get mad.
"Well maybe if you talked to me and even somewhat treated me like a person we wouldn't have this problem!" yelled James. "All I want to do is talk to you damn it! So the only way I could get close to you was to turn into an animal. I wasn't originally trying to get info out of you I just wanted to be around you, Lily. God you make me so angry some times. Do you see how low I go for you I punched my best friend because I thought he had hurt you, and I turn into a freakin animal for you! Don't you realize I would never think about touching a hair on Sirius's head for any other person?"
"Oh no, don't you put the guilt trip on me, Potter. I never asked you to hang around and save me. It's not like we have a connection. We have no attachment to each other. And oh yeah let's recall the rude comments earlier. Hmm yeah, that wasn't exactly the actions of someone who wants to be with me," snarled Lily sarcastically.
"Lily what is wrong with you! What is it today? Let's see how badly we can hurt James day because if it is you are sure celebrating to the fullest. For once Lily, try to look around and notice everyone around you, the world does not revolve around you, Lily!" yelled James angrily. They were really close now only about a foot apart yelling in each other's faces.
"Revolve around me! Hmm that's funny considering it came from your mouth, Mr. I'm-God's-gift-to-women and you should worship the ground I walk on. James you don't care about anyone else. All you care about is winning Quidditch games and boosting your popularity. You say that you care about me, but you don't you are rude to me, you don't listen to me or anyone else for that matter. James, you don't care about me or you wouldn't act like you do," said Lily. She was much quieter now because she was tired of fighting with him. It wasn't getting them anywhere, and Lily was losing her energy to continue to yell at him. Tears were now streaming down Lily's pretty face, she didn't want to hurt him, but she was tired of his attitude.
"Lily, I…I'm sorry Lily. I, well, I don't know what to say because you kind of summed up everything, but you were wrong on one point. Lily, I do care about you. I know I don't show it quite as thoroughly as I should and I know I can be a bastard sometimes. But you have to believe me when I say that I do care about you, I might even love you but I can't tell because you won't let me close to you. Lily you have to believe me, please," pleaded James. This was the decisive moment for James, was Lily going to believe him and let him in or was she going to runaway and leave him forever. If she left he would never know if they could have had something together. You never know if you have something until you take a chance and play your cards, and James was throwing all the chips down.
Then Lily did something that shocked both of them, she leaned in and kissed James lightly. James slid his arm around her waist and deepened the kiss, while Lily curled her arms around his neck. 'I want it to be like this forever,' thought James. Finally, James broke the kiss and simply pulled Lily closer into a tight hug.
Lily felt oddly safe in his strong arms as she buried her tear stained face in his shoulder. They fit, just like a pair of worn jeans – just right. They stood like that for a long time while the snow fell all around them. It looked like someone had shaken a snow globe, and plopped James and Lily into its winter wonderland. "Look, Lily, I don't know what kind of feelings you have for me, but I want you to know that if you ever need someone to talk to Prongs is always waiting," smiled James kissing her forehead.
"Thanks…Prongs," said Lily looking up at him and smiling. "Hey I think we should go back inside, it's a little cold out here. Don't you think? And, JAMES! It's 12:30 we're never going to be able to get in safely. Oh no, I can't get in trouble it's only the 2nd month at school," whined Lily. Lily wasn't one to get in trouble, and she wanted to keep up that reputation.
"Lil, don't worry, I have a couple tricks to get us in without a problem," said James calmly because frankly it didn't matter to him if he got caught, what's another detention? They started to make their way around the lake to get to James's bag, that had the invisibility cloak, and he thought, it had the map too. "Where is it? I know I brought it with me. It can't be gone we spent too much time on that thing to lose it. Oh they are going to kill me if it's gone," moaned James.
"Looking for this, Potter?" asked Lily as she held up the map for James to see.
"Where did you get that?"
"I snuck into your room one night while you were sleeping and took it. No, you dropped it while you were running out to the grounds. Clever map you have here," said Lily matter of factly.
"How do you know how to work it?"
"Well it's not really a problem when the map it still showing. You should be more careful with such things."
"Come here get under this, and we can get in without a problem," said James as he held up the invisibility cloak for Lily to get under.
"Why do you have all of this stuff?"
"How do you think we pull off all of our pranks? I mean you can't just walk up behind Snape and dump spaghetti on his head now can you?"
"Oh that was you, was it?" Lily even laughed as she remembered when the bowl of spaghetti had fallen on Snape's head. No one knew who had done it, and the very memory of Snape spinning in circles and lashing out with spaghetti stuck in this long greasy hair was one of the funniest things in all of Lily's years at Hogwarts.
That night Lily and James both returned safely, as promised, to the Gryffindor common room. "Night Lily," whispered James lightly kissing her forehead.
"Night."
While James got into bed, all he could think about was how perfect that moment was with Lily wrapped up in his arms. But he knew that when he woke up tomorrow morning it would all go back to the way it was before. Lily would hang out with Topher, he would hang out with Abbey, Lily would be slightly unfriendly, and he would be conceited. But for one night everything felt like it was going to be alright in the end.
James drifted off into blissful sleep, and before he knew it he was at a wedding. His wedding. He was wearing a tux, and he turned around to see Sirius beaming next to him as his best man. James looked down the aisle to see whom he was marrying, and to his astonishment, and happiness, he saw bright green eyes staring back at him. Lily was walking down the aisle towards him. The ceremony sped up and James heard Lily and then himself say 'I do.'
Then James was in a hospital room holding an infant baby with bright green eyes and whole head of black hair.
James was being thrown forward into another room where he could hear Lily screaming bloody murder. He watched as he saw himself only older, yelling for Lily to run away. Then he saw Lily in the corner trying to hide the baby, as she fought with a wizard screaming, "Please not Harry," but James couldn't figure out who the wizard was. There was a blast of green light and James watched as Lily fell to the ground motionless – dead.
When he tried to get to her James found himself spinning through the air and when it stopped he was watching what looked to be himself, only the boy had Lily's eyes and a lightning scar on his forehead, diving through the air in pursuit of the snitch. When he caught it the announcer was screaming, "Harry Potter catches the snitch! Harry Potter wins the game and the cup for Gryffindor!" 'That's my son,' thought James. Then the boy was holding up the Quidditch cup.
James was sent spinning through the air again, and this time he landed in the shrieking shack. Harry, a red haired boy, and a girl with bushy hair were standing with their wands pointed at a man on the ground. The man looked like he hadn't eaten in years, his hair was long and greasy, and his robes were torn. "You killed my parents," snarled Harry at the man on the ground.
Then another man was in the room, "Forgive me Remus," said Sirius to the other man, Remus. "And you will, in turn, forgive me for believing you were the spy?" (Rowling, Prisoner) said Remus.
The scene changed again now there was a small man crawling on the ground, "Hello Peter," said Remus. "This piece of vermin is the reason you have no parents," said Sirius to Harry. "I know but I don't reckon my dad would've wanted you to become killers – just for him," (Rowling, Prisoner) spat Harry. (a/n: I know that's not the exact quotes, but I don't have the book in front of me. It's something to that effect. Sorry.) Then Sirius was talking to Harry, "I don't know if anyone ever told you, but I'm your god father."
Then James was standing in a graveyard, Harry was tied to a tombstone screaming in pain – Crucio. In front of him was a small man with a robe and a little creature in a cauldron. The little man was slicing Harry's arm. Then there was a group of wizards in robes and Harry and an odd looking creature who looked to be half snake was standing in front of him. James could hear Harry's thoughts, 'I'm not just going to kneel down at Voldemort's feet. I'm going to die like a man, fighting like my dad' (Rowling, Goblet).
Then Sirius was talking to Harry, "Harry, your father was the best friend I ever had."
James turned around and he was in a room full of people fighting and dueling. He saw Sirius dueling with an older form of his cousin Bellatrix. Then Sirius fell through this odd looking veil, James knew he was dead. "SHE KILLED HIM! I'LL KILL HER!" (Rowling, Order) bellowed Harry.
Finally, James fell onto the Hogwarts grounds and he was watching Harry roaming around. He looked depressed and lost. James could almost feel his emotions, and he knew Harry had lost everything.
James woke up sweaty and shaking all of the images he had just seen came flying through his head like a slide show. He could remember every tiny detail, the emotions, the words, every characteristic of the people, of his son. But James couldn't forget the form of Lily dying in front of his eyes, trying to save their son. He couldn't forget the look on Harry's face when he realized Sirius was dead. Suddenly a thought ran through James's mind, 'I must be dead too.' If he wasn't dead Sirius wouldn't need to be taking on his godfather duties, and James remembered Sirius's words. "This piece of vermin is the reason you have no parents." 'No parents. Lily and I are dead,' thought James. James climbed out of bed and walked down to the common room, shaking and scared. The images that ran through his head were unnerving even though they were all just in a dream.
Odd feelings were running through him, he was feeling proud of his son. The son he didn't have, had never seen, may never see, and only saw in a dream. But he had never been so proud all the same. He sat down in his favorite armchair, by the fire and recalled the dream. His son played Quidditch, he married Lily, someone was hurting Harry, Harry was brave, someone was betrayed, Sirius was dead, some guy named Voldemort was trying to kill Harry, Lily died, Harry was depressed about something, James kept running the dream through his head. 'Get a grip, James, it was just a dream and dreams aren't reality, right?' James stayed in the common room for a long time trying to calm himself down, and get a grip on himself.
Meanwhile in the girls dorm Lily was lying awake staring at the ceiling in her bed thinking about the pretty much awful, but great day she had had. First James had won the Quidditch match, then he punched Topher, then he was flat out rude to her, then she kissed Sirius, then James punched Sirius, then she went outside, then he came outside, then she talked to the stag, rode the stag, fought with James, kissed James, and had been thinking about James for the last several hours.
But Lily was pretty sure that this was a rare day, and that when she woke up tomorrow James would be his conceited self. Then there was her new dilemma with Topher, she had kissed two guys today while she was going out with him. Sirius had meant nothing, but James was a little different; although, she still wasn't fond of him she had an odd sense of security kissing and hugging him. 'What if Potter tells someone and they tell Topher,' wondered Lily because she didn't want to break up with or hurt Topher. 'I'll figure it out in the morning,' thought Lily as she drifted off to sleep.
Hey guys, I know this is a little sad because James is feeling pain due to the dream, but without the bad you can't fully appreciate the good. Plus, he gets to feel feelings he's never going to get to experience, like fatherly pride. Anyway, I like the fact that he can look into the future and see what his son will accomplish. Thanx, you guys rock. r/r
