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*****This chapter is rated R for sexual content and really strong language. You have been warned now enjoy *******
Lexie lay in her hospital bed and tried to sleep. Robert and John had taken Max back to the hotel so the little guy could attempt to get some sleep. Robert had wanted to stay but she knew that Max had created some weird attachment to him and would only cry if he weren't with him. John had offered to stay all so but Lexie knew that he hadn't had any sleep in more than 24 hours and he wouldn't get any good sleep in a hospital chair.
The hospital staff had been given strict instructions that if Landon showed up to call the police immediately. They had her registered under a false name and a guard was stationed outside her door just in case. Robert wasn't taking any chances this time. Lexie tossed and turned and sat up when there was a gentle knocking on her door. The guard came in first and Jason followed.
"It is fine." Lexie said to him with a smile. She had missed Jason over the years. They had always been close friends and with the exception of one night a few years after they had met, they had never been anything but friends. They had never talked about that night either. It was a moment of weakness on her part. It was during their internship and although her memories about the night were slightly foggy she had pieced it together over the years since. Seeing Jason in front of her now brought back the memories of that night.
"Dr. Romano, you are wrong about his diagnosis and you know it!" She screamed at him.
"GET OUT OF MY SIGHT OR SO HELP ME GOD THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME YOU STEP FOOT IN THIS HOSPITAL!" He screamed at her and she threw the chart she was holding down on his desk.
"FINE!" She screamed back and slammed out of the office. Jason ran to catch up to her as she walked out of the ER and headed for the street.
"Lex, don't do this." He begged.
She stopped and looked at him. "I can't take it anymore. He is a sad little man who is slowly trying to kill me. And you know what Jason I don't care anymore. Fuck it, he won!" She turned and walked towards the street, hailing a cab. Jason debated if he should go with her and figured he would risk the punishment.
They ended up at a small bar that most of the college kids went to and Jason sipped his beer as he watched Lexie down one drink after another. He knew she was pretty drunk and the few times he had tried to cut her off from ordering more drinks she had made it clear that he could go fuck himself. "I just don't get how someone like him could possibly be a doctor." She slurred as she took another drink. They had been at the bar for an hour and the conversation had been a one sided rant about Romano and Jason was getting sick of hearing his name. He liked her, really liked her. But he saw what everyone else did, it was only a matter of time before Romano and Lexie would be together. He wasn't stupid, he had seen the longing looks that Romano gave her when he thought no one was looking and the glares that he gave Jason whenever he touched Lexie. Jason had started doing it on purpose just to piss him off. And it always seemed to work. He had felt the tension anytime they were in a room together and it hurt. He had tried to let Lexie know that Romano was not good for her and that she should give someone else a try, someone like himself. But he was always too subtle about it and she missed the meaning.
"You know what? I have half a mind to go over to his house and tell him what I think of his so called teaching methods." She said in an angry slur. Before Jason could react she leaped off the stool and headed for the door. Jason ran to catch up to her but the bartender grabbed him.
"There is a pretty big tab to be settled." Jason grabbed his wallet and gave him his credit card. It seemed to take forever for him to run it and by the time he got out to the street she was gone. He sighed and tried to hail a cab. He knew where she was going and had to stop her before she made a huge mistake. One cab passed after another and he turned and kicked a light post next to him. "DAMN IT!" He yelled.
She pounded her fist on his front door until he opened it. He had been engaging in the same type of drinking marathon she had and was as drunk if not more that her.
"Carter." He simply said.
"I have a few things to say to you Dr. Romano, and you are going to shut up and listen." She said and walked in uninvited. He closed the door and crossed his arms. He knew this was dangerous. He could see she was drunk and he knew that his resolve was very low.
"Ok, go ahead." He said and didn't move. She walked over to him and stood inches away from his face.
"I am not going to quit."
He grinned. "I never asked you to."
She glared at him. "Than why do you insist on being such a prick? Are you afraid I will surpass you? Make you look like a fool? Well don't worry; you are the last thing that is on my mind when I am trying to save someone's life. You are a sad, pathetic, sadistic man who has no joy in his life other than thinking up ways to piss me off. So you see, you are nothing to me because I see right through you."
He dared to step a little closer so his warm, scotch filled breath was on her face. "If I mean so little to you than why are you here?" He said in raspy voice. Their eyes were locked and the tension was stifling.
"To let you know that you don't scare me." Her voice was a quiet calm. Neither dared break eye contact as both heart rates sped up.
"I don't scare you huh?" He hissed and she shook her head. She bit her lip as his hand went to her face and she closed her eyes as his finger trailed down her cheek to her neck. She opened her eyes and met his again as his hand ran down her chest to her clothed breast. "This doesn't scare you?" He hissed again and she stood her ground.
"No, nothing you could do would scare me." He grinned a sadistic smile and his hand moved down her body and ran around to her ass, pulling her body to his and his mouth touched the exposed skin of her neck.
"I bet I could scare you Dr. Carter." He hissed into her ear and she closed her eyes to try to get her body under control. She knew she was playing with fire but she was determined not to let him take control of the situation.
"Give it your best shot Dr. Romano." She said in a husky voice that sent a shiver down his spine. Her body betrayed her as her head fell to the side to allow his tongue to trace her neck and his teeth to bite softly on the sensitive skin behind her ear. A soft moan escaped her lips and that only pushed him deeper into their game.
"You want my hands on your body don't you Dr. Carter?" He hissed as his hand pushed her ass with merciful precision to his body, pushing his erection harder into her. "You want my mouth to taste your skin, to feel me thrusting into you. You are begging for it. Begging for someone to fuck you like you deserve to be fucked. To have you begging for more and wanting it never to stop." His lips were on her neck again and he knew he had to stop but he was finally indulging in a fantasy that had become a part of his daily life.
She stood with her hands at her side, desperate to touch him, to feel his powerful hands on her body. To experience all of the things he has said to her. But she wouldn't let him win. This was more than a sexual conquest, it was a power play. The dance had begun months ago and this was the final showdown. She would win or she would never be able to face herself again. He knew he had control over her and even though that should have made him happy all it did was make him want her more. To hear her moaning his name as she begged him not to stop. To feel her lips on his body, her tongue exploring his skin. And although she put up the tough act she wanted nothing more than to relinquish control to him. To know that she was at his mercy and would do anything he asked.
A pounding on the door broke the moment and they locked eyes again before he walked over and opened the door. Jason pushed into the room and grabbed Lexie's arm, pulling her out with him. Not a word was spoken as he took her home and put her to bed. She had never been so turned on in her life and as Jason stood to go she grabbed his hand. He knew that it wasn't him she wanted but he wanted her enough for it not to matter. She closed her eyes and as the orgasm ripped through her it was Robert's face she saw behind her closed eyes. After he left she passed out. They had all pretended that it had never happened. And now Lexie actually blushed as she looked at Jason, 10 years older, but still the look of love shown on his face when he looked at her.
"How are you doing?" He asked and sat on the corner of the bed. She nodded.
"I feel fine, a little sore but fine." He nodded and wrote a note on her chart.
"I see no reason to keep you here more than a day or so." The truth was that he wanted to spend some time with her. It was obvious that she was with Romano now and he would take whatever time he could get with her. She had always been his "what if". His wife hated Lexie and had never even met her but she knew that Jason secretly wished that it were Lexie he had married instead of her. That had been one of the contributing factors for the divorce. That and the long hours he spent at work had driven her into another man's bed. Jason smiled at Lexie.
"Are you truly happy Lex?" He whispered and looked away.
Lexie nodded. "Yes, I really am." Jason nodded.
"Ok, I will come by and see you in the morning." He dared to lean down and kiss her on the cheek and left. Lexie felt badly, she knew that he had always had feelings for her but it had never been there for her. She had loved one man for most of her life and she had to follow heart even then.
"Dr. Carter, you are looking far to beautiful. You are going to make the staff go crazy and accidentally kill patients." Robert smiled at her from the door.
"Who is with Max?" She asked concerned. Robert rolled his eyes.
"Well I missed you too." He walked over and kissed her. "He is fast asleep with Carter. I got them both coco and cookies and made sure they both brushed their teeth before I tucked them into bed." Lexie smiled at him.
Robert walked over and she moved over so he could lie down next to her. Jason walked back into her room to see her one last time and his heart sank when he saw she and Romano asleep, his arms wrapped protectively around her. Although it broke his heart he knew that she was where she was supposed to be.
*****This chapter is rated R for sexual content and really strong language. You have been warned now enjoy *******
Lexie lay in her hospital bed and tried to sleep. Robert and John had taken Max back to the hotel so the little guy could attempt to get some sleep. Robert had wanted to stay but she knew that Max had created some weird attachment to him and would only cry if he weren't with him. John had offered to stay all so but Lexie knew that he hadn't had any sleep in more than 24 hours and he wouldn't get any good sleep in a hospital chair.
The hospital staff had been given strict instructions that if Landon showed up to call the police immediately. They had her registered under a false name and a guard was stationed outside her door just in case. Robert wasn't taking any chances this time. Lexie tossed and turned and sat up when there was a gentle knocking on her door. The guard came in first and Jason followed.
"It is fine." Lexie said to him with a smile. She had missed Jason over the years. They had always been close friends and with the exception of one night a few years after they had met, they had never been anything but friends. They had never talked about that night either. It was a moment of weakness on her part. It was during their internship and although her memories about the night were slightly foggy she had pieced it together over the years since. Seeing Jason in front of her now brought back the memories of that night.
"Dr. Romano, you are wrong about his diagnosis and you know it!" She screamed at him.
"GET OUT OF MY SIGHT OR SO HELP ME GOD THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME YOU STEP FOOT IN THIS HOSPITAL!" He screamed at her and she threw the chart she was holding down on his desk.
"FINE!" She screamed back and slammed out of the office. Jason ran to catch up to her as she walked out of the ER and headed for the street.
"Lex, don't do this." He begged.
She stopped and looked at him. "I can't take it anymore. He is a sad little man who is slowly trying to kill me. And you know what Jason I don't care anymore. Fuck it, he won!" She turned and walked towards the street, hailing a cab. Jason debated if he should go with her and figured he would risk the punishment.
They ended up at a small bar that most of the college kids went to and Jason sipped his beer as he watched Lexie down one drink after another. He knew she was pretty drunk and the few times he had tried to cut her off from ordering more drinks she had made it clear that he could go fuck himself. "I just don't get how someone like him could possibly be a doctor." She slurred as she took another drink. They had been at the bar for an hour and the conversation had been a one sided rant about Romano and Jason was getting sick of hearing his name. He liked her, really liked her. But he saw what everyone else did, it was only a matter of time before Romano and Lexie would be together. He wasn't stupid, he had seen the longing looks that Romano gave her when he thought no one was looking and the glares that he gave Jason whenever he touched Lexie. Jason had started doing it on purpose just to piss him off. And it always seemed to work. He had felt the tension anytime they were in a room together and it hurt. He had tried to let Lexie know that Romano was not good for her and that she should give someone else a try, someone like himself. But he was always too subtle about it and she missed the meaning.
"You know what? I have half a mind to go over to his house and tell him what I think of his so called teaching methods." She said in an angry slur. Before Jason could react she leaped off the stool and headed for the door. Jason ran to catch up to her but the bartender grabbed him.
"There is a pretty big tab to be settled." Jason grabbed his wallet and gave him his credit card. It seemed to take forever for him to run it and by the time he got out to the street she was gone. He sighed and tried to hail a cab. He knew where she was going and had to stop her before she made a huge mistake. One cab passed after another and he turned and kicked a light post next to him. "DAMN IT!" He yelled.
She pounded her fist on his front door until he opened it. He had been engaging in the same type of drinking marathon she had and was as drunk if not more that her.
"Carter." He simply said.
"I have a few things to say to you Dr. Romano, and you are going to shut up and listen." She said and walked in uninvited. He closed the door and crossed his arms. He knew this was dangerous. He could see she was drunk and he knew that his resolve was very low.
"Ok, go ahead." He said and didn't move. She walked over to him and stood inches away from his face.
"I am not going to quit."
He grinned. "I never asked you to."
She glared at him. "Than why do you insist on being such a prick? Are you afraid I will surpass you? Make you look like a fool? Well don't worry; you are the last thing that is on my mind when I am trying to save someone's life. You are a sad, pathetic, sadistic man who has no joy in his life other than thinking up ways to piss me off. So you see, you are nothing to me because I see right through you."
He dared to step a little closer so his warm, scotch filled breath was on her face. "If I mean so little to you than why are you here?" He said in raspy voice. Their eyes were locked and the tension was stifling.
"To let you know that you don't scare me." Her voice was a quiet calm. Neither dared break eye contact as both heart rates sped up.
"I don't scare you huh?" He hissed and she shook her head. She bit her lip as his hand went to her face and she closed her eyes as his finger trailed down her cheek to her neck. She opened her eyes and met his again as his hand ran down her chest to her clothed breast. "This doesn't scare you?" He hissed again and she stood her ground.
"No, nothing you could do would scare me." He grinned a sadistic smile and his hand moved down her body and ran around to her ass, pulling her body to his and his mouth touched the exposed skin of her neck.
"I bet I could scare you Dr. Carter." He hissed into her ear and she closed her eyes to try to get her body under control. She knew she was playing with fire but she was determined not to let him take control of the situation.
"Give it your best shot Dr. Romano." She said in a husky voice that sent a shiver down his spine. Her body betrayed her as her head fell to the side to allow his tongue to trace her neck and his teeth to bite softly on the sensitive skin behind her ear. A soft moan escaped her lips and that only pushed him deeper into their game.
"You want my hands on your body don't you Dr. Carter?" He hissed as his hand pushed her ass with merciful precision to his body, pushing his erection harder into her. "You want my mouth to taste your skin, to feel me thrusting into you. You are begging for it. Begging for someone to fuck you like you deserve to be fucked. To have you begging for more and wanting it never to stop." His lips were on her neck again and he knew he had to stop but he was finally indulging in a fantasy that had become a part of his daily life.
She stood with her hands at her side, desperate to touch him, to feel his powerful hands on her body. To experience all of the things he has said to her. But she wouldn't let him win. This was more than a sexual conquest, it was a power play. The dance had begun months ago and this was the final showdown. She would win or she would never be able to face herself again. He knew he had control over her and even though that should have made him happy all it did was make him want her more. To hear her moaning his name as she begged him not to stop. To feel her lips on his body, her tongue exploring his skin. And although she put up the tough act she wanted nothing more than to relinquish control to him. To know that she was at his mercy and would do anything he asked.
A pounding on the door broke the moment and they locked eyes again before he walked over and opened the door. Jason pushed into the room and grabbed Lexie's arm, pulling her out with him. Not a word was spoken as he took her home and put her to bed. She had never been so turned on in her life and as Jason stood to go she grabbed his hand. He knew that it wasn't him she wanted but he wanted her enough for it not to matter. She closed her eyes and as the orgasm ripped through her it was Robert's face she saw behind her closed eyes. After he left she passed out. They had all pretended that it had never happened. And now Lexie actually blushed as she looked at Jason, 10 years older, but still the look of love shown on his face when he looked at her.
"How are you doing?" He asked and sat on the corner of the bed. She nodded.
"I feel fine, a little sore but fine." He nodded and wrote a note on her chart.
"I see no reason to keep you here more than a day or so." The truth was that he wanted to spend some time with her. It was obvious that she was with Romano now and he would take whatever time he could get with her. She had always been his "what if". His wife hated Lexie and had never even met her but she knew that Jason secretly wished that it were Lexie he had married instead of her. That had been one of the contributing factors for the divorce. That and the long hours he spent at work had driven her into another man's bed. Jason smiled at Lexie.
"Are you truly happy Lex?" He whispered and looked away.
Lexie nodded. "Yes, I really am." Jason nodded.
"Ok, I will come by and see you in the morning." He dared to lean down and kiss her on the cheek and left. Lexie felt badly, she knew that he had always had feelings for her but it had never been there for her. She had loved one man for most of her life and she had to follow heart even then.
"Dr. Carter, you are looking far to beautiful. You are going to make the staff go crazy and accidentally kill patients." Robert smiled at her from the door.
"Who is with Max?" She asked concerned. Robert rolled his eyes.
"Well I missed you too." He walked over and kissed her. "He is fast asleep with Carter. I got them both coco and cookies and made sure they both brushed their teeth before I tucked them into bed." Lexie smiled at him.
Robert walked over and she moved over so he could lie down next to her. Jason walked back into her room to see her one last time and his heart sank when he saw she and Romano asleep, his arms wrapped protectively around her. Although it broke his heart he knew that she was where she was supposed to be.
