MasterFranny: Mmmh... long wait until update, but here it is. I know, hope you will read and review.

Thank you to be always with me.

Annnd... can someone tell me which color are Bryan's eyes? Clear isn't such a good thing. They're light azure? Today... Bryan confronting Tala and Kai!!! He can't be that down forever!

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RATING: PG-13

SUMMARY 01: Ray and Bryan are in love with Kai and Tala. One day Tala and Kai say they have to tell them their love... Yaoi

SUMMARY 02: Now that Tala and Kai are together, that doesn't mean it's all okay. And Bryan and Ray seem not to work out together that well... Yaoi.

WARNINGS: well... no one I think. No lime in this one maybe in next, just ask if you want...

DISCLAIMER: I will never, shall never, could never own BeyBlade. Or Kai. Or Tala. Or... you got the idea, ne?

"talking"

'thinking'

" talking into other languages "

""""""dreams sequences, flashbacks, memories""""""

JUST SAY IT...

CHAPTER 03 ... and fixing part of them

Kai sighed shifting slightly in Tala's arms, looking with a pout to his koi. The red haired teenraised one eyebrow and looked quizzically at him, earning another glare in return.

" You can't seriously be still angry at me for not telling you Tyson and co were coming " Tala finally said, exasperation filling his voice.

Kai only huffed, turning his head away. He was so cute that Tala leaned towards him and kissed him on the cheek, which made Kai blush slightly. " They are... were... my teammates " Kai growled. " Why didn't you tell me? "

Tala smiled sheepishly. " We were busy " he said with a sly smirk. " Besides, the Dickinson man told me only yesterday morning ".

Kai rolled his eyes but accepted Tala's second kiss. When the two parted, Kai rested his chin on his koi's chest and looked up at him, calm crimson eyes meeting glacial blue ones.

Tala didn't know what attracted him about the teen; he only knew that they had become very close friends when they were at the Abbey. Tala was the reliable one, while Kai was the hearted one. None of the Blade Breakers would have bet on it, but Kai was the one who always endured the worse punishments, so his friends would remain untouched.

He was always one step before the others, trying to protect them, no matter if they were older or younger. He was the one who accepted all beatings for his friends. Tala used to feel like a coward because Kai was one year younger than him and still he protected him.

Kai liked sharing his happiness with them all, all the good things that happened to him, while instead he kept his pain hidden inside his heart, helping the others with their own. Tala admired that, but at the same time he knew Kai would be scared for life if he kept keeping all inside himself.

It took Tala ten years, but at the end, he managed to make Kai open with him, he managed to get the younger boy tell him all he endured during his childhood, freeing him from his pain.

And now the said teen was in his arms, looking up at him, sharing something with him that was more important than care, or friendship. They shared their love. A feeling that was still blossoming, no matter how much Boris tried to erase it, no matter what they went through in the past. They loved each other.

" When Tyson and the others will arrive, they will be very surprised to see us together " Kai murmured, his face now buried in Tala's shirt.

Tala widened his eyes, looking down to reply at these words, but in the exact moment Bryan entered the kitchen, his face still darkened by his last thoughts. Kai turned to him, glancing at the lilac haired Blader with slight worry, and stood up from Tala's lap, sighing at the loss of warmth.

Bryan didn't even acknowledge their presence as he walked towards the coffee maker, grabbing a mug and filling it with the said liquid. He then gulped it down in one go, proceeding into pouring himself another one.

" Bryan? "

The Falcon was still deep in his thoughts, and at the sound of Kai's voice he was startled ever so slightly, turning his head in a sudden movement towards the two teens.

" Oh. Hi, Tala, hi, Kai " Bryan grumbled, sipping his second coffee.

Tala narrowed is eyes in contemplation and smirked. " You seem like... worn out " he teased. " Have had a busy night? "

The words triggered in Bryan's mind another painful feeling of guilt and he twitched looking away.

Tala was about to tease him again like he loved to do but Kai, sensing something was wrong, placed his right hand on the other's mouth, shutting him up. Crimson eyes met clear ones as Kai looked emotionless at the older teen, waiting for something. Bryan looked away again, even more guilty, and Kai knew something was definitely wrong.

Bryan never looked away like this.

" Bryan, what happened? " Kai demanded stepping towards him, arms crossed. " What's the matter? "

The Falcon turned towards him, while Tala reassumed again a serious expression; worry and confusion clear in his eyes. Kai was right, something happened.

" It's Ray? " Kai continued, his voice calm and low. " Ian told us he and Spence' saw both of you at the restaurant, kissing ".

Bryan, as if he wasn't already feeling guilty, felt his heart sank even deeper. How was he going to explain his behaviour to them, to Ray, to himself?

This was simply wrong.

Kai frowned, his perceptive eyes catching some small signs in Bryan's acting, in the way the teen was moving, and his mind did the rest.

" You and Ray " he stated.

Bryan blushed under Tala's surprised and confused stare, while Kai wasn't sosurprised.

" I was right " Kai mused. " So that happened last night, huh? You and Ray... hmmm... spent quality time together ".

For the whole time Bryan had remained silent, leaving to Kai all the sorting matter. Now he sighed aloud and flopped on the nearest chair, his face in his hands. It felt so good to have someone to talk with... it was so damn complicated.

He never had to face things like these, love, or lust, or what the heck it had been, wasn't easy for someone like him, and Kai always was the one who can sort things out.

Tala blinked twice. He didn't understand. Bryan and Ray kissed, went together, remained together all the night, so why on Earth the Falcon was so down? It was as thought he didn't like or want it. It was like he was trying to deny what happened...

Kai was on the same trail of thoughts, but as he was a faster thinker than Tala, he reached the conclusion in almost no time. Besides, by the way Bryan was acting, by the way he hung his head low, leaning his tired and white face in his hands, breathing deeply, things were too easy to understand.

" Hmm... " Kai reached Bryan's shoulder and placed his hand on it, comforting his friend. " You were drunk and you feel guilty ".

Bryan's head snapped up at him in disbelief. Okay, he was a quite good observer, but how in the Hell did he knew THIS?!

Kai sat down besides him, while Tala just remained shocked into one corner, eyes widened in astonishment. " You were his first, and you don't remember a thing, and by the way you came back this morning I believe you left his room before he woke up didn't you? "

Bryan leaned on Kai's arm, his body giving up finally from exhaustion. He needed to sort things off now, but he hadn't the strength to do that now. So he remained there, leaving to Kai the work.

Kai accepted it without complaining. Bryan was his friend, and he needed to be helped now; Kai knew that the Falcon wasn't a bad person; he was just the most scarred from the Abbey.

While Kai, Tala, Spencer and Ian went under Boris' wrath when they were seven, Bryan was already in there since he was four. The director used him like a lab rat and tested on him allhe wanted. Besides, Bryan was abandoned by his parents and never knew love or friendship all his childhood, finding the second only with the rest of the Demolition Boys.

When at the championships Bryan almost killed Ray, Kai was sure that would haunt him forever. Boris carved the falcon's mind to believe hurt people was the only good thing he could do, convincing the young teen that he needed it in order to feel happy. But Bryan never realized that he didn't like it.

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Kai ran towards the D-Boys waiting room, his eyes turned into slits, his face filled with determination.

Ray was on the way towards the hospital by now, and the Phoenix left the other Blade breakers in order to talk with the cause of Ray's almost death: Bryan.

Kai was sure Bryan couldn't and wouldn't kill anyone, not even for the power's sake, but here it was, he had almost killed Ray!

The slate haired Blader knew that it was risky to go in the opponent's waiting room, if Boris or Voltaire knew it, they would just take him back to the Abbey in no time.

But he was for once lucky: right out of the room there was Bryan, curled up on the floor with his head in his arms. He was such a depressing sight that Kai felt his heart subside.

" Bryan " his rage was somehow vanished, his voice sounded sad and worried." Look at me, Bryan ".

The falcon complied, and Kai could see the despair in the older teen's eyes.

" I liked it, Kai " he whispered in a dark tone. " Boris is right, I'm nothing but a war tool... "

Then his eyes closed and he stood up, shaking slightly his head, and he left; Kai sighed deeply and turned away, walking towards the exit door.

'You didn't like it, Bry' Kai thought, gritting his teeth. 'You're just under Boris' hands. He carved you all these years to think you like to hurt people, but you don't. If you really liked it, how could you feel so desperate now?'

He turned back, to look at the spot in which Bryan was sat few seconds before, his crimson eyes determined and hurt. 'I will help you, Bryan. I promise you'll be free'.

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Kai closed his eyes and hugged Bryan slightly, knowing how much he would have to work on him to help the falcon. He was still guilty from his acting after one entire year, and Kai was desperate now to help him.

Every time one of his friends was hurt, he felt like a stab in his heart. Why all that crap happened to them? They never deserved it...

Tala narrowed his eyes in sadness looking at his lover and best friend: Bryan was relaxed now; his eyes closed while Kai soothed him with soft words. He was even more sunk in pain now, and they had to find a way to help him. They had to...

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Ray put on his jacket, knowing how cold it would be outside with those huge black clouds lingering above the city, and closed his and Kai's house, putting the key in his pocket.

He wanted to go to Tala's, because he knew Bryan was there, and he needed to sort things out. Why did the Falcon fled before the Neko could wake up? It wasn't one of Bryan's usual acts. So something was definitely wrong with the lilac haired Blader and Ray was determined to find out what.

Glancing up at the sky he thought there was going to be a snowstorm soon, because in that season it was common. Some little snowflakes were already falling down, first to warn the people of the imminent storm.

Ray started to walk fast, his feet moving with no sound on the streets almost empty, his ponytail moving behind his back from the wind blows.

Cold wind blows.

" Ray! Hey, Ray! "

The Neko-jinn turned and saw Ian and Spencer walking towards him, completely unfazed by the cold and the upcoming storm; but that was common for them, they endured much worse than a simple storm, after all.

" Oi " replied Ray, smiling. " I'm going to Tala's house! "

Ian's mouth turned into a sly smirk. " Mhh... the tiger's going to meet his love? "

Spencer punched him on the side with his elbow, resulting in the shorter teen to fall ungracefully on the floor.

" Ooops " Spencer said, raising an eyebrow in mirth.

Ian stood up again, cursing under his breath all the bigger people, and looked at Ray, who was chuckling slightly, with a soft blush on his cheeks.

" Nothing to be ashamed of " Spencer said with a warm tone. " We saw you at the restaurant! "

Ray blushed more but smiled nonetheless. " You came from Tala's house, is Bryan in? "

" We didn't see him " commented Ian, leaning on Spencer's side. " Would you come to greet your friends at the airport? "

" Who? " asked puzzled the white tiger.

" Mr. Dickinson is coming with the rest of the Blade Breakers " answered Spencer.

" YAH! " yelled Ray, really happy.

He was anxious to meet Max, Tyson and Kenny again after one year that would be really good!

So Ray, forgetting he wanted to talk to Bryan -since Ian told him he wasn't at home- he followed the two Russians to the airport.

" Excuse me ma'am " Spencer told to the receptionist. " Is flight from Japan already here? "

The woman, who had black shoulder-length hair and brown eyes looked at them with mild surprise, recognising him as being part of the Demolition Boys team. " No, I'm sorry, but the storm is already going some miles away, and the flight will be slightly late ".

Disappointment dawned on the three teens, but Ray cheered them up saying it wasn't that problem, they could wait there for the aeroplane to land.

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" Bryan, I want to talk to you ".

Kai's voice was really serious, and the Falcon looked up at him, his eyes clearly revealing his inner turmoil. He wasn't in the mood to hear Kai rambling about what he had done, he knew himself it was wrong.

He didn't needed someone else to tell him that.

" Tala, please, sit down " Kai pointed to the chair near the one Kai and Bryan were onto, and the Wolf sat down, his face serious too, knowing well what Kai wanted to do. Bryan was now on the edge of loosing his mind and heart forever, and they needed to help him. It was gone too far, Bryan needed a normal life like they all too, he was the one to need it most.

" Bryan, look at me " Kai lifted the lilac teen's face with his hand. " We know you're still guilty because of what you did one year ago ".

The words hit Bryan like knives. And here he thought he had been clever in hiding his feelings...

" We believed you would cease this self humiliation since Ray forgave you " This time it was Tala's time to speak. " But it seemed we were wrong. You need someone to talk seriously to you, and that's why we're here ".

Bryan was about to stand up and curse them leaving, but he felt Kai's strong hand block him on the chair. He turned to look at him with anger, and was astonished by the hurt and sad expression his friend wore. It was like instead of two eyes the teen had two burning wells.

The sight froze Bryan. Looking to Tala he found a similar expression lingering in the wolf's face.

" ... Why? " Kai asked in a soft voice.

" Why what? " Bryan's voice trembled slightly without him knowing.

" Why did you keep it all in yourself? " Tala answered, leaning towards him with a hurt expression. " We are friends, Bry, you know you can trust us ".

Bryan turned his gaze from Tala to Kai, at loss of words.

" Don't you understand that Boris made you became what you are? " the slate haired teen held regret in his words. Regret for himself for not being able to help his friend. " You don't like hurting people, Bryan, this what Boris made you believe. If you really liked what you did to Ray, then why are you still feeling guilty because of it? Why, after an entire year, you're still so depressed for that? "

The Falcon shook his head in denial, his mind refusing the idea of him being still under Boris' will: he was free now. Free.

" It was my will " he replied, a cold edge in his words. " I did what I wanted ".

" Think it back " this time it was Tala's turn. " Boris' fault, Bryan. He manipulated you and he still is, though he's now in jail. "

" He made you think you liked to hurt people because you were more malleable, so he could use you like a puppet " continued Kai, not letting Bryan one second to reply.

" That's not true, I'm not Boris' puppet! " roared the lilac haired teen, completely astonished, confused and furious.

Kai's eyes flashed with anger.

" You are Bryan " he hissed, narrowing his eyes. " Because I was one too ".

Bryan suddenly felt really ashamed. He knew Boris controlled Kai with the power of Black Dranzer not once, but twice, making him do things he wouldn't have done in other situations. Boris taught Kai he was alive only to reach perfection, only because he craved power. And Kai believed it.

Was Boris controlling him as well?

'No, that can't be' he denied to himself, his eyes widened. 'I refuse to think someone as bastard and insane as Boris could control me that way. I'm stronger than this, am I?'

" Bryan, you're not strong " Tala whispered.

To the Falcon it was a real shock.

" A real strong person is someone who can live after what we survived, someone who can forget what happened and still be normal " Kai's voice was trembling slightly. " You're still sank deep in your past. You can't ever be free until you accept that what happened to us it's the past " then, in a lower voice, he added, so soft that both older teens had to strain their ears to hear him " That applies to me too, it seems ".

Kai's eyes filled with pain as he looked away, suddenly fascinated by the wall patterns. Tala knew how hard it was for him, and hugged him tightly. Kai shook his head; it was not him that needed to be soothed.

" You can't deny that if you don't talk with Ray now, to sort out not only what you did to him back then but also last night, you will never find release from your agony " Kai's eyes were burning with fire again. " You know that you can free yourself from Boris, and deep inside,you know you're better than this ".

With that Kai stood up, and walked away, as a sign that the conversation reached an end. Tala looked at him and stood up too, staring hard at Bryan.

" We are your friends, remember that, we know everything you passed through by first person. You can't hide like a pathetic squirrel when the storm comes in, because that's not you. And that's not you to be indecisive and drowned in guilty and self pity ".

Tala clenched his fist and punched Bryan hard on the chin, sending the teen on the floor.

Tala was before him, his arms still at his sides, on his face an expression of sadness so intense it was almost painful, and he was looking at him straight in the eyes.

The falcon was up in a millisecond, and he was ready to strike back in defence, when he understood.

Kai and Tala were right. He was hiding like a coward, and he was not one. Besides, deep, deep inside, he knew he didn't like hurting people. Boris forced him into doing it, making him believe he needed it. Because maybe, hurting others would ease his own pain. But he regretted each blow, each injury he inflicted to someone, each yell of pain from his victims. He wanted to stop this, but he was never strong enough to do that.

He wanted to cry now, like he never did before, he wanted also to yell and punch the wall, and he wanted to say to Kai he was sorry, and that he was right. And even more deep inside, the desire of having Ray at his side forever.

That was the strongest.

" I must go in search of Ray " Bryan muttered, wiping the blood from his broken lip.

Tala nodded, like nothing happened and it was a normal sight, and watched him turn towards the door.

" A last thing " Bryan whispered with a soft voice. " Say to Kai I'm sorry, and ... thank you. Both of you ".

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Ray sulked while running under the snowflakes, wrinkling his nose when one of them fell on the top of it. He wanted to remain at the airport, waiting with Spencer and Ian for the Blade Breakers to arrive, but the cold forced him to return home and wait them there. The sky was now completely covered with dark and grey clouds, the snow falling down mercilessly on him, who was slowly freezing. No matter the jacket, no matter he spent a whole year in that damn cold place, he was still a Chinese in Russia.

China was always sunny and hot, most of all dry except in some periods, and it never snowed. But here, the climate wasn't the right one for him. He loved Russia and the breathtaking pictures of the mountains and trees, but it was so damn cold most of the time...'I'll go home and wait for the storm to end, then I'll go to Bryan' he decided, and sure about his decision he speeded up his pace, reaching the door of his house. Finally warm in his house Ray breathed contently and leaned forwards, where the fireplace was, his nose tickling from the fast change from cold to warm. Closing his eyes he allowed himself to think about the wonderful night, his cheeks tinged in red not due to the fire, and the soft creak of the wood burning in the fire lulled him into sleep.

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MasterFranny: so that was the third. It seems it will continue with at least another chapter, maybe two who knows?

WARNING, AUTHORESS RAMBLINGS ABOUT FLAMES!

I don't understand people who flames a story. Until now I never received a flame, just very good reviews that helped me greatly to fix my errors, but I feel sorry for the poor authors who receive flames.

Flames are just scum, because if you don't like a fic just for the plot or maybe the pairing or you hate yaoi or shounen-ai, or horror fics, then why you have to read the story and tell that to the author, that he/she writes bad and he's nothing but a stupid? Just change story, if you don't like, then don't read. I hate Tyson/Kai pairings and I just can't stand them, but I will never read a Tyson/Kai story just to flame the author because I hate the pairing. It's really a cruel thing to do. Giving helps to an author (like "you missed the spaces, repost it better" or "your spelling is awful, do something to fix that!") it's as if you say "I have interest in your fic, but it would be even better if you just follow my advices". Flames instead just spat crap all over something I know author work onto hard. That's why I'm against flames. Advices aren't flames and they're good, but bitching a story for stupid reasons is really wrong.