Lexie sat on one side of the small crib in the PICU and Robert stood on the other, Lexie softly rubbing Will's tummy as Robert held his little hand. Viral meningitis, that is what the tests showed and both Lexie and Robert thanked God that it was viral and not Bacterial. This could be easily treated with Pain meds to keep him comfortable and an anti-inflammatory medication. The only risk was the possibility of brain damage but there was no way to tell if that had occurred for sometime. All they could do was wait, but he was going to live and at that point that was all that mattered to either of them. William would spend the next two weeks in the PICU. Lexie felt guilty because Robert's words kept echoing in her ears "Ok Lex, but when our son comes down with small pox or malaria I am blaming you.". She shouldn't have let anyone come close to her baby. She was supposed to protect him and not let anything happen to him and she had basically given him a life threatening disease.

"Lex," Robert whispered and she looked up at him. "Come on, lets go get a cup of coffee. He is going to be asleep for a while." Lexie debated if she should leave him, what if he woke up or what if, God forbid, something went wrong? Robert could read her hesitation. "It is just down to the cafeteria; we both have our pagers and can be back up her in under a minute if we need to be. Come on, we need a break." She nodded and leaned down and kissed William on the forehead and Robert did the same and they walked out of the room and down the hall to the elevators.

They got their coffee and sat out on the back patio so Lexie could smoke and hopefully they could have some privacy. "I am so sorry Robert." Lexie choked out.

"For what baby?" He asked with concern.

"You were right about letting people hold him. We should have made them all stay away."

Robert remembered his comments and closed his eyes, feeling like a horrible person. "Lex, I'm the one who is sorry, I shouldn't have been such a jerk."

"But you are so good at it honey." Lexie said with a slight grin.

He pulled her onto his lap. "Neither of us could have known this would happen and as a doctor you know that there is very little you can do to prevent it. He is going to be just fine. Believe me?" She nodded and laid her head on his shoulder.

John and Luka came over and sat down uninvited. "Hey," John said quietly and Robert nodded and Lexie smiled at both of them.

"So it looks like he is going to be just fine." Luka said with as much cheerfulness as he could muster.

"Yeah, as long as there isn't any brain damage that is." Lexie said quietly.

"Hey," John said and took Lexie's hands and pulled her into his embrace. "He is going to be fine. Between the Carter blood and Romano blood in that kid he is a fighter like no one has ever seen. I bet he ends up graduating top of his class from med school." John kissed the top of her head and Lexie laughed into his chest.

"Great, that is all we need around here, a mix of the two of you running the place." Luka joked and everyone laughed.

"I want to go back up now." Lexie said and leaned down and kissed Robert, kissed John on the cheek and smiled at Luka, "Oh I wouldn't forget you." She joked and kissed his cheek and then walked back inside.

"How is she?" John asked Robert.

He shook his head. "Not good, she blames herself, that and the postpartum she is experiencing, I will be honest with you, I am worried about her." He hated reveling so much of their personal life to them but he was feeling overwhelmed at the moment.

"Listen, why don't you take her home and I will go sit with the baby." John offered.

"She won't go. This is the first time she has left his side since we brought him in." Robert was exhausted and really needed sleep but his need to support his wife was stronger. He knew William was going to be fine so his concentration was on Lexie right now.

"Why don't we have her shrink stop by? Maybe she will talk to him." All three men were equally as worried about her.

Robert nodded. "I will give him a call."

Lexie sat next to Will's crib singing softly to him and Dr. Fitz walk in and stood looking at the baby.

"He is beautiful Lexie." He said quietly and Lexie smiled without looking up.

"Yes, he is. Thank you."

"Lex, can we go somewhere for a few minutes and chat? Just right into the parent's room over there, you will be able to see him the whole time.

Lexie thought about it and nodded.

Robert and John sat next to the crib, glancing over at the window to the room Lexie and Dr. Fitz had been sitting in for over an hour.

"How do you think it is going?" John whispered and Robert shrugged.

"I have no clue." He said looking back at his wife.

They finally came out of the room and John and Robert made an excuse of getting something for them all to drink so they could get a report on her condition. Lexie was too out of it to suspect anything and sat next to William again.

"So?" Robert asked.

"Well you both know that I can't really tell you much but I am concerned. She is suffering from postpartum mania, a condition that is a step above regular postpartum depression. I will be frank with you both; I am going to recommend that she be admitted for observation." John and Robert looked each other then back at the doctor.

"You think it is that bad?"

"Yes, I do, I am afraid that she is a danger to herself. She blames herself for this and has said that she doesn't deserve to be a mother."

Robert shook his head. "She will never agree to it."

Dr. Fitz held up a consent form. "She already has. She is going in on her own tonight. It will just be for 72 hours and then we will go from there."

Robert and John were shocked. "I had no idea it was this bad."

"Don't worry about it Robert, the fact that she agreed to it says a lot. She wants to get better. I am going to go start the paperwork and I will need her up in psych in about an hour." He smiled at both of them. "She is going to be fine."

Both men nodded and looked at Lexie through the window to the PICU. "I hope so." Robert muttered.