Chapter 12,

*Sometimes I feel

Like I don't have a partner

Sometimes I feel

Like my only friend

Is the city I live in

The city of angels

Lonely as I am

Together we cry*

Haley moaned as she felt Lucas kiss his way down the curve of her breast line to her stomach. She was a true virgin and Lucas knew it. Haley took a minute to get lost in the moment. She closed her eyes and thought of the whirling thoughts running through her head. She forced herself to look up at Lucas, it was her first time and she wanted to remember it. Lucas kissed his was back to her neck, and then kissed Haley hard on the lips. They were starting to get the hang of this kissing thing Haley thought with an almost giggle. She placed her hands behind Lucas's neck and pulled him closer deepening the kiss.

*I drive on her streets

'Cause she's my companion

I walk through her hills

'Cause she knows who I am

She sees my good deeds

And she kisses me windy

I never worry

Now that is a lie*

Haley looked up at the face she saw. The dark feature with black hair and brown eyes. In every way she wished it were him; she could picture it all. Her vision came into focus and she saw it was Lucas. The guy she had dreamed about so many times. The same guy that she had told her secrets, her dreams and hopes. She had told him everything about her. He was there when she felt invisible to the world. When she fell into pieces he would pick her up and she knew it would always be like that.

Haley ran her hands down Lucas's back and felt him sink into the bed more. She tried to hold the words flooding out of her mouth but it was too late, "I love you too."

Lucas stopped kissing Haley and stared up at her face. "Do you really?"

Haley put her hands on Lucas's shoulders and bit her bottom lip. "Lucas I need you now.of coarse I love you. Make love to me Lucas now please?" She ask with a desperate look in her eyes.

"Haley I can't. I won't do this not with you like this. You don't love me for real do you?" He asks moving off of Haley.

Haley draped her arms around Lucas's back and kissed his ear. "Lucas I do care about you." She said softly.

Lucas turned around to look Haley in the eye. "Then look me in the eye and tell me you love me, more than Nathan."

Haley's expression turned and now she was anxious. "Lucas just shut up please I want you now." She said pulling him back. She spread kisses over Lucas's lips tempting him with ever breath-taking kiss. She laid him down in front of her and tried to take off his boxers.

Lucas brought his hands down to his sides. "No Haley no like this." He said pushing them away. But Haley insisted sitting on his lap she shook free from his grasp and moved her hands down.

Lucas moaned when she hit that certain spot. A few seconds later after he had gotten a hold of him self he pushed Haley off. Haley hit the bed with her fist and started crying.

"I'm never going to feel real love! I'm never going to have a real boyfriend or have any sex live. I just want to feel close to you, close to anyone." Haley said her hands covered her face.

Lucas sank down to the floor beside her and held her close. He moved the hair away from her face and waited until she was done crying repeating the words "I am here I always will be here for you. Things are going to be okay." He grabbed a sheet and covered Haley. He waited until she was asleep before drifting off him self. It was the middle of the day he knew but he didn't want to leave Haley. Not when she needed him the most.