Chapter 15,

Lucas's eyes opened slowly as he realized just where he was. He stared down at Haley just like he had millions of times before. He couldn't imagine what had happened just a couple of hours ago. He slipped his arms away from her and stood up; with out any reason he turned to look at the clock. It was five, and he was where he always was, at home. He stretched, and realized the ball game was in an hour. He had completely forgotten about it. He opened the bathroom door and went to take a shower, almost forgetting Haley asleep on the bed.

He turned the water and stepped into the steamy shower, he had been through so much lately. The water seemed to wash away all the pain and anger that had built up. He finally had everything that he wanted. But he didn't want it anymore. In all of his life he had been the one that always had the smart and intelligent advice. Who would give him advice now? His whole family was screwed up, Lucas felt as if he added to the crazyness of the situation. This was a confusing time for Haley and he was trying to be a nice friend. But when did friends exceed the boundaries and become friendlier friends? He was baffled by the possibilities of it all. He could have had Haley.. she was right in his arms, but something was holding him back, and that thing was Nathan. There was something about it.. he didn't feel right hurting Nathan this way. Hurting Haley and Nathan's relationship when he was in intensive care. For all Lucas knew the whole situation could be his fault.

He turned the harsh, hot water colder until he couldn't stand it. How was he supposed to learn when he was always floating back to fantasy? He felt like such a dumbass for turning down Haley. But making love would have completely changed their relationship and it would be like the perfect mistake. Only worse. He would be left with all these feelings. Haley would recognize the whole night as something that she did just to forget the drama that was really going on. Lucas would have loved to say that his first time had been with Haley, but knew Haley would have hated it all the same.

Nathan would have some how found out and Haley, Nathan, and himself would all be affected because of a bad choice, his bad choice. He fought the erg to rush back into his bedroom and kiss Haley until everything went away. The memory of her body rushed through his head and the feeling of want she had when his arms were wrapped around her. He turned off the water quickly, as if an end to all of his thoughts. And there he decided he needed to do something. Something that he hoped would change things.

He hated this uncomfortable felling he had every time he remembered the look in her eyes when he touched her in the right spot, or kissed her. The burst of giggles she made as he trailed the kisses down to her navel. "There I go again!" He said aloud staring at his self in the mirror. He stood there in front of the mirror. Where he had remembered doing the same thing numerous amounts of time. It was all about him, his name, and his brother. The father that couldn't give a damn about him. He turned away, Dan was a part of him and he had to get used to it. Part of him wanted to hate Dan, mainly because he was never granted a chance. That's never going to happen he thought putting on his sweats and shirt. With a sigh he opened the bathroom door, Haley was sitting up on his bed. Her naked back exposed as she hastly buckled her white lace bra. He turned away, as she noticed him then.
"Lucas it's just me.don't freak out okay?" She said with a small smile.

"I'm not I was just seeing if I forgot something." He said reaching down on the floor. He grabbed his car keys and jacket.

Haley gets off the bed and walks over to Lucas. He walks towards the door but Haley steps in his way. "Come on Lucas please don't act this way. Where are you going?" She said placing her hand on his arm.

"I have a ball game.and I was thinking about going to see Nathan." He said not even looking her in the eye once.

"Lucas, are you sure that your okay. Everything has been happening so fast."

"Listen I am fine.I just realized something very important. I don't have time Halz, I will catch up with you later." He said leaving her standing alone in his mother's room.

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