Chapter 18,

Haley whisked away a tiny piece of hair that fell from her bun. She watched as Lucas watched her, trying his hardest to figure what was up with her. She turned away from him still not talking. She pulled out the hardwood chair from her computer desk and sat down quickly. Her eyes fled to a folder in the right corner of the screen. In bold letters were the words, NATHAN.

She turned away from the screen and tried to hide the tears flowing to her face. She had ruined everything. For all she knew it may have been her fault that Nathan even go into a car wreck in the first place. She had done so many things wrong. And Lucas still found room in his heart to forgive her. She longed to remember times with Nathan, but everything seemed a blur. All she could remember was the debris on the road, and Nathan's crumbled body on the road. It seemed like she was getting it now, she could finally have everything that she dreamed of, but did it even matter.

Lucas raised his head up from the bed and turned his head to look at the side of Haley's face. "Haley, you haven't spoken a word to me in ten minuets." He said repositioning his head back onto the bed.

Haley slowly turned around and looked at Lucas's feet dangling over the bottom of her one-person-bed. It made her smile, but that happiness only last for a second. "Luke do you think that I have ruined everything?" She said laying her hand on her face, her words came out mumbled.

"Do you think that you have ruined everything?" He said folding his arms across his chest. His eyes watched as she bit her lip, nervously.

"Why do you have to turn around everything that I say?" She said shifting around in the chair.

"I don't know maybe because you constantly blame yourself, when I have reason to believe you have done nothing wrong. If you constantly tell yourself that you are such a bad person, then you will go on believing it."

"Your only saying that because you're the one that I stayed with. Nathan is still in the hospital and I am here kissing you on my bed. I should have been with him when he walked. I needed that, but instead I was being so stubborn."

"Haley I feel like I keep telling you the same thing over and over again. What do you want? To go to some professional art school, be with Nathan, or with me?" He said with some anger in his voice. It killed him that she kept on changing her story, one minuet she was all for staying with him, the next she was talking about Nathan. "I think you owe it to me to tell me the truth once and for all, who do you want to be with? Am I wasting my time comforting you when you're just going to leave me again?" He said rising up off of the bed.

"Lucas, some times I really don't know. That was the one reason I wanted to go to art school. It's bad enough that I have torn two brothers apart. Now you're mad at me, why doesn't the whole world be mad at me?"

"Haley quit doing this we are running around in circles, who is the guy that you want to be with?"

Haley stood up to look Lucas in the eyes, "I want to be with you Luke. You are the only guy that I have ever wanted to be with."

Lucas moved closer and kissed her lightly on the lips. "I love you Haley."

At that moment, that was all that mattered to Haley.