Title: Jaded

Summary: Legolas wants his first time to be special and he spends it with Elrond. Afterwards Elrond says it didn't mean anything. So Legolas leaves in grief. What does Elrond truly feel?

Pairing: Elrond/Legolas

Beta: Zoe (Black_heartagram)!!! My first beta!! Thank You. And about the thoughts, it was intentional. ;)

A/N: Hey!! Sorry this took me a while to get out, but I was really busy. It had a lot to do with school and Sportsnite. Sophomores of '04 rules!!! YaY to the song!! Okay, I'm done cheering. I hope you all like this chapter. And I hope you like my new pen name. I didn't like SilverNcold anymore, other people took it too. AFI still rocks though!

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Chapter 3

' Thoughts '

Meanwhile, Legolas was riding as fast as he could. He wanted to get as far away from Rivendell as possible. So many emotions were seeping through all at once. For one, the disappointed in himself for being so naive. What made him think that someone like Lord Elrond would ever fall for him? Legolas was not worthy of such a love. There was a beautiful, ethereal, and extremely lucky Elf who would win Elrond's heart. That elf was not Legolas, not even close. Legolas had acted like a fool, and now he had to pay the price. The pinch he felt in the middle of his chest was just the beginning.

Legolas sighed as his mind began to retrace the first moment he truly looked into Lord Elrond's eyes. He remembered how he had fallen in love with the Elf right then and there. Elrond's eyes were mesmerizing; he could look into them forever. And he longed to run his fingers through the lord's long fine hair. Legolas had fallen in love with the way Elrond walked, the way he rode a horse, the way he sat down, just everything that made up the Elf lord. Then the object of his affection had just stomped on his heart without even knowing it.

"Noro lim!" Legolas commanded his horse. He couldn't get away fast enough. The memories were haunting him. It had happened only last night, and the image was so clear in his mind. Legolas could still feel Elrond's weight on top of him. Elrond had touched him in places no one else has ever touched. He could still feel the lord thrusting into his virgin hole. Happiness had swelled up throughout his entire body, and there was nowhere else he wanted to be in that moment. It felt like all of his dreams had finally come true, but Elrond crushed them with his simple words. Legolas' heart had shattered at that moment, and it was left broken. But regardless of how the aftermath of that simple night affected him, he couldn't regret it; being with Elrond had been the happiest moment of his entire life.

'I only asked for one night with my love. And I got it. Who am I to complain about him not loving me during it?'

It was the words that cut through him like a knife. He should feel lucky that Elrond had spent his night with Legolas... but it was too late; the Elf lord was already bored with him.

'I shouldn't be surprised though, there is nothing special about me.'

He knew he was not a beautiful Elf and he also knew that he hadn't even deserve that one precious night. No one could come close to the beauty that was Lord Elrond.

'Especially not me...'

Legolas tried to blink away the tears that formed as he thought about the love he could never have... ever.

'But... maybe I should still be happy that Elrond chose me to give him the pleasure that he desired. Or... had I just been the only one there at the time?'

Legolas had to stop his horse; he could not ride with his tears crying out to be free. So he jumped down from his steed to lean his tired body against a tree. He finally let his tears flow once again as he slid down to the floor, his body now racked with sobs.

He gasped as a sudden, sharp pain took residence within his heart. It was much like the pinch from before, only more powerful. He grasped his chest, , desperately trying to clutch his burning heart as the pain increased. Panic surged through him as he started to gasp for breath.

"What's going to happen to me? I don't want to be alone; not without him," Legolas cried to himself.

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Lord Elrond quickly made his way to the privacy of his room. His mind was spinning with the new information, making him dizzy. He couldn't even hear what anyone else was saying, even with his acute hearing.

He finally made it to his room, and collapsed into a nearby chair. He still couldn't believe what his son had said. Legolas had wanted to share his bed for the first time with someone he loved. And now he himself had just ruined that for him. Wouldn't Legolas have stopped him though? But what if...

'No. Such a beautiful creature would never fall for me.'

Elrond realized that he had taken advantage of the young prince. But he had been unable to resist. Legolas had simply come to his room looking so desirable... so beautiful. And the Elf lord had taken what he wanted. He'd been watching the young prince for so long, watched every step he took, mesmerized by each foot that gracefully swept across the floor. Making love to him... just being with Legolas had been wonderful. The only problem was that Elrond had had to speed through it. He couldn't touch and worship the prince as he deserved.

'Or as I wanted to...'

He had feared that Legolas would open his eyes and realize just who he was with, and be disgusted. Now the Elf lord regretted it. If only he had gone slower, savored their time together, he was sure that he would have known it was the young elf's first time. If only Elrond knew it meant so much to Legolas to keep his innocence for someone special.

Lord Elrond put his head in his hands and sighed in frustration.

'Why didn't he stop me?' The thought confused him to his very core.

But what did the prince think about him. Did he feel anything for the lord? And did Elrond feel anything in return?

There was no time to think about feelings now; he had to make things right. Elrond couldn't stand the thought that he might not see the beautiful prince again because of this. That would just break him. Elrond would greatly miss him. He would miss being able to just look into Legolas' beautiful blue eyes. They were definitely the most stunning eyes he has ever seen. Those enticing eyes were definitely what he loved most about the young prince. Wait... love?

'Do I love him?'

Elrond thought about all the times he caught himself staring adoringly at the beauty. Including the times he lost himself in those sparkling azure eyes.

'Yes,' he thought finally. 'I've fallen for the beautiful elf without even realizing it. I must explain my feelings towards him.'

However, Lord Elrond knew not how to fix his mistake. For Legolas was already on his horse, riding back to Mirkwood.

"What shall I do?" he asked himself aloud.

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TBC

Noro lim- Faster (Courtesy of my beta, Thank you!)

A/N: I hoped you all liked. I want to thank my beta for all the help, I'm happier with the way this chapter turned out. So review please, and I'll update as soon as I can. But it might take a while, I have a lot to do this week. But I'll try to get the next chapter up as fast as I can. Bye now!!