Hello to all those Naruto fans out there. If you're used to reading high quality fics, get the hell out of here now. Nah, just kidding. Even though I know this fic sucks, I beg all of you people out there to read it anyway. If you think you'd rather spend your time on more worthy things, then I don't blame you.
As for a disclaimer, I'm proud to say that I own nothing whatsoever in the world of Naruto. Ja.
"That's all for today, team! Meet here again tomorrow at seven." With that, the sliver-haired sensei disappeared, leaving the rest of Team 7, panting on the ground.
"Well, I'd better be going." She stood up first after a couple of minutes. Brushing away her hair from her face, she was about to walk in the direction of her house when the raven-haired boy stood up too. "Ah, Sasuke-kun! Why don't we go have something to eat? Just the two of us!"
He merely "Hmph," and walked off. This was my chance. "Matte, Sakura-chan! Since he doesn't want to go, how about I go with you?" I held my breath, already knowing the answer.
"No way! The only person I will go with is Sasuke! I think I'll go ask again. Maybe he didn't hear me." With that, she ran after the Uchiha.
I watched them walk together. She was chatting happily while he kept quiet. After they disappeared from my sight, I punched the ground hard, causing a hole. "Damn, what does he have that I don't? Why does Sakura like him? That stupid stuck-up moron!" I kept banging even as the red liquid started to drip out. I didn't care. I kept going on, creating more and more holes.
Finally, I didn't think I cold take it anymore. I pushed out all the remaining chakra in me and pushed down as hard as I could. Not a good idea. This caused a huge hole and lots of smoke.
When it cleared again, I sat still. It was stupid asking the same question and dreaming of something that will never happen. If she knew, she would never speak to me again. Let alone like me. Because of him. Because of Kyuubi, she'll hate me more than ever. 'Stupid fox. It's because of you, she'll act the same way everybody else in this village. They despised me. If she were ever to find out..' I let my words trail off. I couldn't even bear to think of it.
I fell back to the floor. After a few minutes, I heard my stomach rumble. I decided it would be better to feed it now than later. I got up and walked to my favourite ramen shop.
On the way, I could feel their stares pierce through me. I could feel their hate. It was like stones being thrown at me. Their intent to murder me the minute they get the chance to do so was clear within the air. Their despair at being sworn to silence. Usually, this never bothered me much.
Not today, though. Today it bothered me a lot. No, that's not it. As I think it over, I realized that it had always poked worry at me. I had just decided to ignore it than. It was an automatic reaction. My brain was probably exhausted from the amount of chakra I had used up. I walked faster to the ramen place. Eager to drown my sorrows there.
Suddenly, I stopped and let out a long sigh. Again, not today. As I feel the tears that are threatening to fall, choosing a different path leading to a quiet part of the forest, I do a slight jog. My stomach growled one more time. "Shut up! You'll have to wait!" Oh, God. Now I'm really gone. I gave a slight laugh and quickened my pace, running to my desired destination. Being angry at my own stomach must be one of the craziest things I've ever done.
As I reached the opening, I found it deserted. Wonderful. I sat down against a tree and closed my eyes, now not even bothering to stop them. Making no sound, I sit completely still.
The same questions turned around in circles. 'Why do they hate me so much?' 'Why did I get the fox?' 'Why did they pick me?' But the question that seemed to feel most attracted to me was, 'Why me?' Knowing I'll never get the answer, I closed my eyes. After all that happened today, I must have done something to make Lady Luck like me better. I drifted off into the first peaceful sleep I've ever had in along time.
I awoke with a start. Judging how high the sun was, I was running late. I got up and ran all the way there. This was not a problem as the long sleep I had seemed to have restored my stamina. When I was almost there, I slowed down, seeing no reason to hurry.
I heard Sakura talking to him. Sasuke never said a word back yet she just kept on chatting cheerfully. Looks like Kakashi-sensei wasn't there yet. 'Typical.' I stopped for a while to wipe my face, making sure that the tears weren't still there. I turned up the corners of my lips and walked confidently into the opening. "Ohayo, Sakura-chan!""
She said nothing but in return glared at me. He didn't even bother to look at me. 'Fine.' I guess this is how my life will go on. Nothing will ever change. I should have accepted it by now.
Nevertheless, I can't.
I've tried, but I never could. I kept hoping for changes. I still do. I really can't help it.
I look up at the sky and see the clouds moving. I didn't matter. I had all the time in my life. I'll be able to accept the truth someday. 'Crap, I feel like Shikamaru.' But as I continued watching the clouds, I couldn't help but feel hope, in one tiny hidden part of me. Maybe it really is there. Maybe I haven't gone completely numb yet which would be quite surprising judging by the amount of pain I've felt all these years.
After all the horrible experiences, I've gone through, I still feel guilty over many things. Iruka-sensei was the first person to acknowledge me. Even though he said it was fine, it's still painful to know that I was the one that caused him to be an orphan.
However, as I think back, I can feel it. It's really there. If that's the case, maybe there is still hope for me.
Three pages are kind of disappointing. Never mind. I'll just have to try harder for the next chapter.
How do you like it? This is my first chapter of my first fanfic so I hope you didn't expect too much. Criticize all you want as I need to know where I've gone wrong. For those who are kind enough to give me a few compliments along the way, I have only one thing to say. You guys are ANGELS.
