I shook my head "no." I hadn't told him. In fact, I hadn't talked to Dylan since last Christmas, when he brought Katie up for the week. She had a great time and talked about for weeks after it. She talked about this boy Marco, who was Paige's age and how he and Dylan were close. I figured that Dylan liked him, but hadn't made a move yet. I don't think that Katie understands that Dylan was gay, she's too young. She had met some of my boyfriends, back home, but I she never met any of Dylan's. If he wants to hide it from her it's going to be hard now that we live so close.

"It's okay. He is going to pick Marco and me up today so we can surprise him," she said her eyes already shining with excitement, "Oh, Kelsey this is Hazel, Hazel this is Kelsey, Dylan's ex and Katie's mom." Hazel and I shook hands as we greeted each other. Paige and I walked off into the school with Katie trailing us. We talked about different things as we went to the day care facility( A/n: I figure there is one since most high schools have them here and there most likely have other teen mothers.) to drop Katie off. "I am supposed to meet up with Marco Del Rossi, so he can show me around the school." I said as we walked through the halls to where my locker should be. "Oh, Cool. You get to meet Marco first. Dylan and Marco are boyfriends you know." She said smiling as she leaned against the lockers close to mine. I shook my head "no" as we heard someone clearing their voice behind us. I turned to see a brunette Italian boy standing behind us with a scowl on his face. He had fashion sense and it showed. "Paige, why is it that you out me to strangers? If you are going to do that then please just do it to the whole school. Hi, by the way, I'm Marco. My guess is that you're Kelsey Richards?" He said holding out his hand, for a shake. "Yes, I am. Oh, and don't worry about Paige opening her big mouth. Katie mentioned you when she came home." I said giving him a smile while shaking his hand. "OH MY GOD!!! You're that Kelsey, Katie's mom. It's so nice to finally meet you!! Dylan didn't say you were moving back." He said pulling me into a tight hug. I couldn't help but laughing along with Paige at this sudden out burst. "He doesn't know. I haven't talked to him since last Christmas." I said, just as Paige started to but in. "We are going to surprise him when he comes this afternoon," she squealed as we walked down the hall.

They both talked excitedly and rapidly as Marco showed me around. I started to tune out as a look at the old surroundings.

Months later, Dylan and I were talking at my house since my parents were away. We were confessing our worse secrets. Mine was taking my parents car out for a spin one night when they were away. His was more shocking.

"Ok you promise you won't get mad?" He said fidgeting. "Yes I promise," I said leaning into him. "I-I think I'm gay." He said staring at me trying to gauge my reaction. I looked at him and made my mind up. There was only one way to know and I loved him so. "Well, I love you and there is one way to find out," I said launching myself at him. "Are you sure?" he asked as we made our way to the bed room. "Yes. I love you." I said as we laid down. "I love you too." He replied.

After it was over, we snuggled in bed. He started to cry as he said, "You know I love you, but I'm gay." "I know. I know." I said starting to cry too, as I snuggled closer. I was heartbroken. I guess I always knew, but I still hurt. Some of me never wanted to talk to him again, but well, knowing from John and Tom, when he came out he would need all the love he could have. I'll admit having sex with Dylan was the smartest thing but I don't regret it. It gave me Katie the one thing that at times keeps me alive. As months passed he and I still acted and hung out like a couple except we never kissed. And that I started dating other guys and he hung more with Tom alone then all three of us. Tom knew. Dylan had come out to him just after me. Tom probably wanted to go out with Dylan, but Dylan just liked him as a brother. All was fine, until three months later from the time Dylan came out to me, I was pregnant. I didn't know how to tell him. He was having his own problems as the teasing started and worsened. I knew I couldn't tell him now.

About a month later I got a phone call in the middle of the night. It was Dylan. " I just came out to my parents and Paige." He cried over the phone. "Well, what happened?" I asked, hoping that all was okay at the Michaelchuck household. "My mom ran out of the room crying. My dad looked at me and yelled, "Go to your room, fag." And as I passed Paige, I heard her utter under her voice, "fag."" He said bursting out into fresh sobs. "Sh... sh.. It will be ok. It's not that bad, at least they didn't kick you out. It's just a big shock. Do you want me to come over?" I asked trying to calm him down some. "No. It will probably make it worse. You'll come with me after school tomorrow right?" " Yes of course. You might want to tell dad. If your going to be coming out to everyone. I got to go now. Sorry. I love you." "I love you too. I'll think about coming out to Coach. I just don't know. Bye." We hung up. Tomorrow was going to be a long day.

"Queer," I heard some one cough loudly behind us. We turned to see a boy dressed in baggy clothes standing there smiling evilly. I was about to tell him off, when Paige did it first. "Do you have a problem with it? Only cowards are homophobes and losers." As, she turned she gave her hair a flip and we continued walking. My mind went back to the past.

The Michaelchuck house was as bad as Dylan had said it would be. When we got there after school, Ms. Michaelchuck was in the living room. When Dylan and I went in to say hi she ran out of the room crying. That day Dylan's locker was vandalized with Fag on it. This was the second time that day I saw his face drain. His Dad was watching TV and ignored us as we went up stairs. As we were about to enter his room, Paige passed us muttering "Fag," under her breath loud enough for us to hear it. That was the last straw, Dylan's face drained to a pale I had never seen it gone to. He rushed into his room just about to start crying, as I followed sadly behind. I would have to talk to her. This reminded me to much of what I did to my older brother. I pulled Dylan into a hug as he cried on my shoulder. He ended up crying himself to sleep.

I walked into Paige's room with out knocking. She was on her bed sobbing. She looked up, her eyes cold, "What do you want?" "I want you to tell me why you're doing this to Dylan. Look, I know it's hard but you're going to have to get over it." Her eyes followed me as I sat down on the edge of her bed. "Why should I? How do you know what its like?" "You love Dylan don't you? I do. I will always love him, you have to choose do you want to keep being this way and lose your brother or do you want to talk to him and help understand it better. I also know because my older brother is gay too. My parents disowned him though I still talk to him, only Dylan and Tom know." She stared at me her eyes full of shock. "I do love Dylan. It's just, why did my parents make such a big deal about it, if it's not some thing bad?" "Your parents will come around. Dylan needs some one here to help him through it because he already gets bashed at school he needs someone here to talk to. If you don't understand it talk to him," I said pulling her into the hallway, then pushing her towards his door. She smiled a thanks and I left the house knowing that I affected one life today.

RING. The day had flown past. My thoughts were stuck in a past that I would have loved to forget. But wishes like that can never come true. I went and picked up Katie with Paige and Marco in tow. We made our way outside to see were Dylan was leaning against his car. God. He looked good. Katie ran off towards him as Paige, Marco, and I watched. His face was a mask of surprise as she tugged at his arm. This then turned into happiness as he picked her up into a hug. He looked up and saw me. He put her down and opened his arms for a hug. I ran into them.


Its a little fluffy and not that much detail but I thought it would make yall happy. So I just wanted to say thank you to my reviewers.. its a great complement to get some of the same reviewers as Anjel919 and Kaitlinbell. If you like this and haven't read theirs i suggest you go do so. So.. Yeah. Um Oh yeah! I didnt put a disclamier. I dont own degrassi and never will. Its the sob story of my life. Up next Dylan's POV and more flashbacks.. This one will actually contain marco and dylan as in dates and things.. So Review please!!! tHANKS

Lucy