A/N: I don't really know how I came up with this one. It sort of just came out of nowhere. I hope you enjoy it! Please read and review! Oh, and I got the inspiration for this from the fanfic 'Fearing Your Trust' by Arrhythmic Song. Thanks so much!
If Your Words Were True
Ryou's POV
Right now I don't even know where you are. You didn't tell me where you were going. I suppose that you're with Malik-kun again, off doing your own thing with him, like you always tell me. And I suppose you're offnotdoing anything that you said you wouldn't, just like you always tell me. You said I could always trust you…but…I'm beginning to wonder if you can trust an akuryou. ….Especially one who leaves you all the time…. I wonder if the words that you once told me…were they ever true? And did they ever mean anything? Because…you said you'd always be there for me. And if your words were true…then why do I feel so alone?
….You confuse me terribly. Right now I wonder…if you're disobeying your own promises. Right now I wonder what exactly you're doing… You didn't even leave me a message on the answering machine… But now I remember that I forgot to tell you how to use it.
It had been so cozy before you left. So peaceful, we were… We were snug under the warm blankets on the couch, the TV's volume turned low. You were even kind enough to make us both some hot chocolate. And you were even kinder to hold my mug for me while I took my first delicious sip. ….That made me feel happy inside. Really happy. And you were happy, too.
….But then…after our cocoa was finished and the sky got darker, you suddenly got a strange look in your eyes… You threw the covers off of both of us, turned off the TV, grabbed your coat, put it on, and told me that you'd be back later. As you shut the door behind you, I could've sworn I saw an ember of regret in your eyes… But what was that all about? Do you regret it, Bakura? Are you rejecting your own feelings?
….Why?
Why do you leave me here alone to suffer…without a hand to hold, a smiling face, a reassuring gesture? Why do you always leave me here to drown in my own misery? Do you enjoy that? Is it that you relish in my pain? Do you thrive on my own sadness?…. Do you not understand…that not everyone can be like you?…. The human heart is only so strong, Bakura… And I'm afraid that mine is nearly broken….
….Why are you regretting so much, Bakura? Are you disappointed with yourself? It's a tough thing to handle, but it can be accomplished…. Are you afraid that I might hurt you?
Or…are you afraid…that you…might hurt me?
….You can't keep running away like this, Bakura… You cannot run from love…. Like a boomerang, running away from love will only result in returning right back where you started.
….I had always considered myself the fearful one, but now that I have seen your actions, I'm beginning to wonder if it is you who is fearful. But fearful of what? To be loved? Is that it, Bakura? Is that all? Because….you should really tell me…. You know… just like I can trust you, you can trust me. But…I wonder if you know that?
….Right now I don't even know where you are. You didn't tell me where you were going. I suppose that you're with Malik-kun again, off doing your own thing with him, like you always tell me. And I suppose you're off not doinganything that you said you wouldn't, just like you always tell me. You said I could always trust you…
….You said you would always love me…but if your words were true…then why do I feel so alone?
