A/N: Wow, it's been a long time. Sorry if I'm not in the groove of things, this transitional chapter is kinda crummy.
Part: 6/9
Day 5
(Rukawa)
I shouldn't be so selfish. I let it go too far yesterday. The deeper in love we are the more it'll hurt when he finds out. It was a mistake to begin with. I came here for some peace and quiet, not to…not for this,' I thought, 'how am I suppose tell him now?'
I went to the mini-fridge and pulled out a bottle of juice thenwent back to the bed. I wasn't really hungry but I guess I should try to eat something anyways. I dialled room service, "Yes, a chicken salad sandwich."
Within two minutes there was a knocking on the door, I was surprised that room service was that quick. I opened the door.
"Ohayou gozaimasu!" Sendoh greeted and held out two bags.
"Why are you here?"
"To make you brunch," he said and looked at his watch, "or lunch."
"I ordered something already," I said.
"Oh…that's ok," he said, "um, aren't you going to invite me in?"
"No."
"Why not?" he asked pouting, "are you hiding something or someone in there?"
"Do'aho, I'm busy," I said coldly.
"Doing what?" Sendoh asked curiously.
"I don't believe that's any of your concern."
He looked hurt, which made me feel terrible but I continued, "I won't be available today."
"I'll wait for you."
"Whatever," I said and closed the door leaning against it for support, 'baka stop being so nice to me.'
(Sendoh)
I sat there and wonder if I did something wrong, he was fine last night. I looked at the bags, 'My shrimps…guess I won't be making fresh shrimp salad. I got to go use the restroom but what if Kaede decides to come out now? He'll think I'm lying but it can't be that coincidental…'
I pushed to get up but my hand gave from under me. I tried to move my legs but couldn't, 'Not again, so quick? Good thing I wasn't driving or anything. If Kaede saw he'd be very worried.'
I had to wait for it to pass, 'Who would've guessed I'd be doing such a thing? Sitting outside a guy's suite, afraid to go to the washroom, unable to move which might not be a bad thing cause that justifies me camping out here. So foolishly waiting…for what?'
'Ok, I know what I'm waiting for but still,' my hand felt moist, I looked down at the bag of shrimp I squash, 'poor shrimps. Sure you're destined to die today but I wanted you to die with a purpose. Filling Kaede would've been a good purpose don't you think? It's got to be better than being squished by me.'
I tested my fingers which were numb but I could move it. I pushed against the wall and managed to get up, "Kaede, I'm going to use the restroom. I'll be back in ten minutes, kay? If you're going out please wait for me."
No response.
"I'm going to assume you agree since you didn't refuse," I called.
(Rukawa)
'Time seems to be passing by extra slow today. I did everything I could think of to pass time. I couldn't seem to sleep which was rare. But it was finally 11 p.m. and Sendoh hasn't been making any sound since this afternoon. He should be gone…'
As I opened the door, his head fell to the base of my feet. Apparently he was sitting right outside my door.
He sat up and rubbed the back of his head, "Ouch, that hurts. You're finally done with your work and have time for me? I thought you forgot about me."
'Forgot? If only that was true,' I frowned, "why are you still here?"
He stood up and replied cheerfully, "I promised to wait for you, didn't I?"
"Don't waste your time."
"I don't mind," he said and grinned, "plus you're well worth the wait."
'I can't give in now. I can't let this go on.'
"So, can I come in now?"
"No. Last night was mistake. No, it was an accident, a very unfortunate accident that happened to me."
He frowned, "Accident? What are you talking about Kaede? Are you having second thoughts about us, you shouldn't over think it. As long as we like each other that's good enough, right?"
"I don't like you. You had mecornered in your car, wouldn't let me leave. The situation felt dangerous, soI merely did what I had to in order to get out."
"So desu…" he said softly.
"Yes. Now please leave," I stated, 'please leave. Don't make it any harder than it already is.'
"I understand, but will you hear me out?" he asked
"I won't change my mind."
"I just want to tell you how I feel," he said, "I'm not a very patient person, I seldom have the patience to wait for people. In fact, I hate waiting for people, I'd rather pursue them. I guess my actions yesterday was kind of uncalled for and I did come on too hard, but I never thought that it'd make you feel like you have no other option than to lie to me.
"I really do love you. I don't know whatI cando in order to make you return my feelings. So you can make the move and I'll wait. I realize today, I really don't mind waiting, at least not if it's for you. Waiting serves two purposes: it can intensify your feelings if they're real, and deteriorate if they're not real. Plus, the wait isn't bad, its sort of…bittersweet. The hope, the anticipation, never knowing when or if they person you are waiting for will accept you and your feelings. I don't have a lot of time, I got to go soon. But I want to spend the rest of my time here waiting for you."
'Do'aho, why is he saying such things? Is he trying to make me feel guilty? Why is he not mad at all?' I wondered, "where are you going?"
"Where I'm suppose to be. I'm only here on vacation."
"When?"
"In a couple of days," he said with a hint of sorrowfulness.
"Just a couple of days?"
"Yeah…I got to leave."
'A couple of days? If it's just that I can probably make it. Maybe it's possible to be with him and not have to hurt him. As long as he leaves before anything happens…I know I promise I wouldn't but...I really want to be with him.'
"Sumimasen."
"For?" I asked
"For what I did yesterday," he said, "I really thought you shared my feelings and I just needed to give you a push."
"Forget it," I said and yawned.
"Oh, you're tired. I'll let you get some rest. I'll go down and ask for a room. Do you think the rooms next to you are empty?" he asked cheerfully.
"Don't know. And I do."
"You don't know or you think they're empty?"
'I do share you feelings do'aho,' I wanted to say but instead asked, "you want to come in?"
Sendoh lookedecstatic then said, "Maybe it's better if I don't."
"I change my mind."
"About?"
'I was being so clear and the do'aho didn't get me,' I frowned, "how I feel."
"So you...accept me?" he asked cautiously.
"Yes."
Sendoh grinned and hugged me, "I'm so glad you changed your mind."
'Me too.'
"But why did you say you didn't like me?" he asked.
'Why can't you let it go? Now I got to think of a reason?' I frowned, "because I don't like aggressive people."
Sendoh closed the door and asked, "Can we have another accident or mistake?"
(Sendoh)
Kaede asked, "Huh?"
"Was that not what you called last night? I want to have another night like last night. No, I want to have a bigger mistake. Of course you can say no."
"Bigger?" he asked.
I guess he didn't understand my implication, guess it was just as well. He'd probably get offended and kick me out of the room, he wasn't that type of person. I smile and shook my head, "Nevermind."
Kaede grabbed the collar of my shirt, pulled me down and kissed me hard. I allowed him to pin me against the door as I responded to his feverish kiss with the passion I felt, 'Hm…maybe he does understand my implication.'
Finally he pulled away and asked, "Bigger mistake?"
'So innocent. This was what he thought of?' I laughed, "yeah."
"Why are you laughing?" he asked.
"Because I'm happy, why else?" I asked and added, "I really like the aggressive Kaede."
"…"
TBC
A/N:I know, I know,Kaede was a bit…indecisive and wishy-washy here. I was inserting stuff left and right to make this chapter long enough to post, hope it wasn't too bad. I'll make the next chapter better (Blare's identity is going to be revealed).
