Author's notes: Misao-CG is sleepy.
Disclaimer: Misao-CG isn't inspired for disclaimers. Anyways, she doesn't own Inu-Yasha's copyrights.
Scroll #12:
"The secret of the touch."
"I can't see."
What kind of answer is that? 'I can't see'? Of course she can't, she is blind!. I, Sesshomaru, repress my urge of shove her to the ground, her rightful place, but I don't want her in the ground again. That doesn't mean that I, Sesshomaru, am not upset!.
"… my hands are my eyes. That's why I touch everything in front of my hands. I know the shape of things through my hands. You do the math."
I let her go and I, Sesshomaru, watch her look for shelter inside my castle. That's why she touches everything. I should have known. I've read about that before!. Silly me.
So, she was 'looking' at my painting? At my walls?. :shudders:. At me?. :blushes:. What a funny way to know somebody!. I enter the castle.
"Sesshomaru-sama?."
"Yes, Rin?."
"Rin finished her breakfast. Can Rin go play outside?."
"No."
"Why not?."
"Because you are sick. Go to bed."
"No. Rin is fine now and wants to play:cough, cough:. Rin don't want to stay at bed! Rin want to play!." She pouts.
"Do you want to stay sick forever? No? Then, go to bed and get better. You surely don't want me to… Rin. Don't put that face."
"But Rin Don't Want To :sneeze: Go To Bed! It's Boring:sniffles:."
Hmpf.
"… If you go to bed now, I'm sure that Jaken will go to the next village and he will bring Rin a brand new doll."
This tricks works like a charm. I believe that it got a name: spoiling. Jaken told me once that I'm spoiling Rin… and the female told me so too. Feh. Who cares?.
"Really, really?."
"Really, really. Jaken?."
"Hai, master."
"You were listening?.
"Hai."
"Take Rin to take to bed and do as I said. Be nice with her or else consider you jobless."
"Hai, master."
Yes, I, Sesshomaru, am a master at spoiling kids.
"One more thing. I don't want to be disturb for the rest of the day."
I leave them and head to my studio. I, Sesshomaru, got things to do… her scent. She walked here, I, Sesshomaru, wonder where she is now… I'll follow the woman scent, not that I care about her. Since she touched my face, that way, last night, she got stuck in my mind. I, Sesshomaru, fell asleep as I dropped myself on my futon, and I had these funny dreams with her in them. :shudders, blushes:. I think that chichihue told me about similar dreams about Miyu-san. :more shudders:.
The woman fell down in a shoji door (or crash against it, more likely)… for a change. Maybe she stumbled with something and this door 'stopped' her fall. Is a lucky that the shoji paper is easy to find. She is inside this room: the dojo. She broke the door. Grrrrr!.
What is she doing?. Oh. 'looking' at some vases. And what are the vases doing here? Hmmm, whatever.
"Why are you following me?."
"This is my castle. I can do whatever I want."
"Go away!."
"No."
"Can I have some privacy?."
"No."
"Get out!."
"No."
"… I'm sorry about the door."
"…"
"…"
"Why did you touch my face last night?."
"Curious killed the neko."
"I'm an Inu."
"…"
"…"
"…I don't know. Maybe I wanted to know how do you look like. Sorry. I don't do that very often with persons I've just met… specially guys."
"…"
"Just hit me!."
"Hit you? Why?."
I look at her. She looks awful in that dirty kimono!. And her lip isn't healed yet. She got bruises all over her arms and I bet that her legs are full of them too. I, Sesshomaru, better quit hitting her… and better tell Jaken to stop the beating (Hey! I never told him to beat her!): her bones look fragile all sudden. She is thinner than I remember, but her hands are the same: long, beautiful and lovely.
"How do you do that?."
"Do what?."
I, Sesshomaru, touch her face with my hands. She backs off, startle.
"That!."
"…"
"Woman…"
"… Do… as if you were drawing. There is no science about it. And don't call me 'woman' please."
I retreat my hand. She sighs in relief and start to rub her hands together. She stands up and heads to the exit, shaking a little. She stumbles a couple times with the rests of the door. After a moment, I stand up too and follow her.
I wonder how she didn't broke any bone with the door. She isn't the strong type. Well, Miyu-san wasn't the strong type either, and look at her: she survived my chichihue 'needs' and gave birth to my brother: a healthy hanyou pup… :shudders!:
Why I'm thinking all of this? Why these memories come back to the surface?.
Last night, when I half dragged, half carried this female back to Rin's room, I noted that she is light as a feather and fit almost perfectly in my arms (when I carried her). And she still felt like a bird pressed against my body. So tiny… almost like Rin-chan. :shakes head:. The big difference between them, is that Rin is only a pup and this female is a woman.
A delicate one.
:shakes head frantically: I can't think that way!. Why do these thoughts come to me? I don't want them!.
Last time I think like that I… I… adopted Rin-chan. Of course, I'm not going to admit that. And don't get me wrong. When I saw her trying to help me, to nurse me, to feed me and protect me, and when I saw her swollen face and her body slaughter by wolves… something in the bottom of my stomach twitched and… well… I'm a dog, and my kind is… well… how can I explain this?… apprehensive and fiercely protective toward the younger members of their packs…
… Mostly if they are their pups.
Ok, Ok. I consider Rin-chan my pup…
… Wow… this is the first time that I, Sesshomaru, admit that. But, whatever my feelings for Rin are, there is nothing compare to this… female.
This female is an annoying, filthy, insolent, reckless, restless, brave, insolent, can't take an order, stubborn and stupid… female!. I don't feel anything good towards her. She is nothing but a restless weakling!. A weakling and a cripple!. She is blind, a useless human female and incompetent at that…
…with lovely hands.
I still feel her touch in my face. I want her to do that again, like she did last night… she told me that my face got sorrow. Other beings had said that my face shows nothing but indifference, hate, and repugnancy. How come she 'touched' something different?.
She stops.
"Still following me?… yeah, yeah: this is your house!…"
"How can you live without sight?."
"the same way you live with your :giggles: tail."
"Still laughing at my tail?. I, Sesshomaru, don't laugh at your blindness!."
":wide eyes: I'm sorry youkai-san… really…"
looks like I touched a nerve. This female looks contrite… I don't like that face.
"…"
"… I have been blind my whole life. My other senses do the job of my eyes… not only my hands, but they are the most important part of me… is curious… because, thanks to my other 4 senses, I can see more things…"
"Answer me this. Did you felt sorrow or… not? How come?."
"I, Mikami, told you: I have been blind my whole life. A lot of things depend of my hands." She says softly. "My art, my safety, my memory… everything: My hands are my eyes and they saw your face full of sorrow… and proud… and some kind of fear… I, Mikami, think that you hadn't smile or laugh in decades… that's thick in your skin and that's very wrong." She smiles faintly. "I just felt that…"
"Grrrrr!."
"If you don't like what I'm telling you, don't ask then!." She says, in her old cranky self.
I glare at her. She is looking to nowhere and she is pretty mad. Her lips are shut together fiercely and then she stomps to the gardens.
She is planning something… I feel it in my bones…
… She wants to run away… From me!
I don't care. I leave for my room. I don't care what the female is planning, she is mine, and her plan can't progress with me around. If she wants to run away, she needs to find the way out and if she does that, she must to survive these mountains, and just because she is blind, she is going to get kill at that.
She is going to get kill at that. Serves her right for defy me. A storm is coming in this direction and if she runs from me, she is going to get kill by hypothermia or worst, she is going to fall in some cliff, a lighting may struck her or get squish by a tree… that, without mention the bandits that hide in the woods…
My stomach is twitching.
I want that to happen to her?… No. I don't want to loose her, she is mine. I want her by my side, like Rin is now, but no like a… a… you know. Not like a… a…
"Jaken."
"Hai, my lord?."
"Take that female to guest's room by any means necessary and keep her there."
I hear Jaken crackling his knuckles.
"As you wish, my lord."
"And Jaken. whatever you do, don't inflict any harm upon her, did I made myself clear? Good. And Jaken…"
"Hai master?."
"While you are at it, get her a clean kimono."
To be continued.
By
Misao-CG.
