Buffy walked into the library with Giles. She had a free period hoped that Giles had something for her to do. Bob's death had really shaken her up. If only she had been there a few minutes earlier she might have saved him. Buffy pulled the piece of Bob's shirt from her pocket and clenched it tightly in her fist. She was the slayer and she lost an innocent person she was supposed to protect. Giles began muttering something but Buffy was deep in thought.
"Buffy I'm glad you are here, we need to talk." Giles said. Buffy didn't even look at him she instead stared intently at the piece of clothing in her hand.
"About your Christmas party will I need to bring anything?" Giles said waiting for a response that will never come.
"By the way Santa Claus is a demon. Buffy are you listening?" Giles said annoyed.
"Yeah! Santa Claus a demon. Got it, wait. Really?" Buffy asked.
"No, Buffy if you are going to be this distracted today perhaps we should hold off training. Is their something wrong?" Giles said.
"Did you always want to be a Watcher?" Buffy asked.
"No I wanted to be a Musician but my father wouldn't allow it. My father was a watcher and his father before him. I was bred into it. What's this about Buffy?" Giles asked.
"I never asked to be the slayer. Before I was all I had to worry about was fashion and boys. Now its fashion, boys and the occasional apocalypse. It's like my life was torn away from me before I even got to live it." Buffy said.
"The life of a slayer is a hard one and I can only begin to understand what you are going through but I believe the key is structure and balance. You need to find a way to let your life as a teenager stand side by side with your life as a slayer." Giles explained.
"How do I do that?" Buffy asked.
"That's something you will have to figure out yourself."
"Oh great, another thing for me to do alone. Well I have a free period so I'm going to head on over to Angel's. Thanks though Giles." Buffy said.
"Anytime, Buffy." Giles said as he watched Buffy leave.
Angel was trying to read a book. He had very little to do during the daylight hours other than sleeping.
"When I think about what you do during the day this is not one of them." Buffy said as she walked in.
"Buffy, Hi." Angel said startled.
"How are you?" Angel asked regaining his composure.
"I'm good. Just had a free period thought I would stop by. And I was having a hard time finding a present for you." Buffy said.
"Buffy you don't need to get me anything. After becoming a vampire material possessions don't seem to matter as much." Angel explained.
"So does that mean you didn't get me anything?" Buffy asked.
"Well I was waiting till the party to give this to you but here." Angel said as he reached under his bed and pulled out a neatly wrapped present. He handed it to Buffy who quickly ripped the box opened.
"It's a set of Balaxian throwing knives. Their made of the rarest metal from the Balaxian's home dimension." Angel said.
"Thanks." Buffy said disappointed.
"Do you not like them?"
"You don't give your girlfriend knives! What ever happened to flowers and jewelry? God my life isn't even remotely normal is it to much to ask to have a boyfriend that is?" Buffy yelled.
"Well I'm sorry I don't fit the mold of you ideal boyfriend. But in case you forgot I pasted normal a long time ago." Angel yelled.
"You know I didn't mean it like that." Buffy said.
"I think it's best if you leave." Angel said.
"Angel?"
Angel turned his back to Buffy and she left crying.
