I'M NOT IN LOVE!
I am not in love!
I am not!
Who cares if I always see that ditz hanging on to him, it does not matter, because I am not in love!
I refuse to be.
I don't care what my emotions keep telling me, I don't care if I always get a lightheaded feeling whenever Robin comes near. It does not matter, nothing matters.
I am fed up, next time I see Starfire kissing him, she is dead. I know what you are thinking, and no! It's simply because I hate how she steals all of his free moments, not because I am in love with him, because I'm not! I simply enjoy spending time with him, that's all.
Robin, strong, smart and certainly the most mature male on this team. He is the only real 'man' here. I-I-I respect him, that is all. Sometimes respect can be confused with other feelings, correct?
It does not matter that I wish to spend all my waking moments with him. That proves nothing; I simply enjoy having an intelligent conversation. What are my other choices? Beast Boy, who's only interest is tofu? Cyborg who does nothing but work on his car? Or Starfire who always talks about Robin!
Maybe it is simply due to the fact we know each other so well, on such a level no one else could understand us. I have been in his head, I have felt his pain. When I touched his mind, I saw something I hadn't known, he is deep, deeper then anyone could imagine.
His thoughts so pain stricken, he thinks he always has to be strong, to protect the others. I have had the same problem at times, trying to hold in my feelings, so that I do not cause too much chaos.
No one but I understands how painful such a thing is, I could support Robin in ways he never knew possible. I would gladly open my mind to him, but only him. I have seen his origin, the death of his parents at the circus. The doubt it caused within him, which would haunt him to this day.
Robin, do you not understand? I am here for you if you need help, you have been there for me, and I want to do the same.
Still, I refuse to say I am in love. I do not believe that is what I feel….really…keep telling yourself that Raven, maybe you'll believe it someday.
Maybe I cannot fight the truth anymore. Maybe it's time to tell him how I feel.
Will he reject me; will he tell me he could never feel the same? Something's are worth the risk I suppose.
I guess I am in love.
But I refuse to say that to anyone. Well…maybe Robin.
But if the others should ask, I will only tell them one thing. I am not in love…with anyone but Robin.
THE END
