Summary: This is an alternate season 7 with Tara alive... I will write Plenty Chapters one for each episode ((some excluded, or changed drastically)), a prologue, and a small bit of what happened in England with her teachings. ((With her lover there as well.)) Changing the course of the season a little biggest difference probably being Kennedy/Willow never happens... Personally I hated when Tara died and I hated the relationship with Kennedy. She was way to much a brat and Willow said it herself in episode 13 of season 7 "We were supposed to be forever yet he took that away". This chapter will be what happened over the summer as Tara, Willow, and Giles visit the coven to teach Willow of her power, and the correct way to use it.

Anything between " " is spoken anything between ' ' is thought -

Rating: Pg - Pg13 (Not sure if I should increase this Please tell me)

Disclaimer: My name is not Joss Whendon, and I own none of these characters. This is just wishful thinking upon what would have happened throughout the 7th season if Tara Mclay had not died

Feedback: OF COURSE... I don't know any author that doesn't like feedback. Please no flaming if you have a problem with my story offer ways of making it better don't just tell me "It sucks" Or something. This is also my first Fanfic so please helpful suggestions from fellow authors and first-timers are very much wanted and also NEEDED

Pairings: Mostly canon what would've happened Willow/Tara the rest of the pairings are canon and follow the same path but this fic will focuses on Willow, and Tara's involvement in this season

If you have any problems with homosexual relations, or live where it is forbidden please stop now.

Chapter Two: Which way is Witch?

((Willow P.O.V.))

"So you understand this isn't a vacation" Giles said as he drove them to the coven.

"Yea yea. This is a serious trip. I understand believe me" Willow said from the back seat with Tara's head cradled in her lap asleep.

"I don't mean to scare you Willow, but your power, it's massive. The coven felt a dark presence in you, and sent me to stop you." Giles said glancing in the rear view mirror to judge Willow's expression.

"I don't understand Giles. It's me. How much damage could I do?" She spoke in a whisper so she wouldn't awaken her girlfriend.

"Unlimited given the right motive." Giles said abruptly glancing into the mirror again. "You might not realize the yet, but you have to potential to be the most powerful evil in this world, or the most powerful good in this world"

At that Willow frowned, and rested her head back to take a nap before they got to the coven.

About an hour later Giles drove up to a mansion looking building, and parked outside their gate. "We're here." Giles announced opening the door and hoping out of the car.

"Mmmm - Ughh." Willow barely registered the words at the moment.

Tara who had woke up just a second before the got there was now holding her in a tight embrace kissing her to wake her up. "Mmm Taraness..." Willow spoke sleepily as she smiled slowly remembering where she is.

"So this it?" Willow said hoarsely rubbing the sleep out of her eyes.

"Sure is... Big" Tara said eyeing the place over.

Giles opened the door for the ladies and they got out, and walked to the house hand in hand. As they reached the door a blonde lady opened it, and welcomed them in.

"Hello again Head mistress" Giles bowed his head at to the blonde.

"Giles" She said in acknowledgement, and turned to the red-head. "So this is her?" She said looking her up, and down.

Giles nodded to confirm.

"So this is it?" Tara asked feeling an astounding amount of relief just standing in that room.

"Yes, and I am the Head Mistress" Said the blonde smiling gently at the two.

Willow who was now so close to Tara you couldn't tell where one stare, or the other ended stared at her and said. "Neat place"

"Ms. Jenny would you show them to their room?" The head master shouted, and a short brunette appeared from upstairs, and asked that Willow, and Tara follow her.

After they were out of site Giles looked steadily at the head master. "Will you show them?" He asked in a concerned voice.

"When they are ready yes" The head master said, and Giles shifted. "Not until then"

Willow was surprised they were able to share not only a room, but also a bed together. She was sure she would be separated from Tara some, but it seemed that they would be with each other at all times of the day. At breakfast they had to meet in the dining area for some heath food. Tara and Willow had seats next to each other which they also had for Lunch, and Dinner. After breakfast they had an hour to do anything they wanted. They usually spent this time with Giles out in the fields. After that they met with Ms. Wood for Instructions on magic, and the connection of everything with the earth. After two hours of that they had lunch, and then another Hour of time they could do anything. This hour was used to talk in there room, and write letters to their friends, and such. After that they met with Ms. Wood who meditated with them for an hour, or two before dinner. After dinner they met with multiple different members of the coven to cast simple spells like Levitating, Conjuring, and Transmutation.

This routine was kept up for about three weeks until one day the Head Mistress stopped them from their hour off after lunch.

"Willow, Tara." She said causing Willow to jump.

"Oh hey Head Mistress" Willow greeted with a smile.

"Willow" She nodded back as a greeting. "I have a special lesson for you two today. I just hope you're ready."

"Really? I'm sure we can handle it" Willow said smiling to Tara.

"This is not something to take so lightly Willow. This is the reason you were brought here in the first place" the Head Mistress said with extreme distress.

"Oh... We will try our hardest then" Willow said frowning, and putting on her resolve face.

The Head Mistress led them into a room. The room was like the one they meditated in everyday except in the middle was a small glass orb. The Head Mistress led them to sit on one side, and she then sat on the other.

"Do you remember the day the man name Warren came to your house?" The Head Minister said looking deathly cold into Willow's eyes.

Willow seemed to choke for a second. 'Of course how could she forget that day? It was the day she almost lost Tara. Even if she tried to forget, the feel, the smell everything about that day was embedded into her every memory.' Willow could simply nod to confirm.

"Watch the orb carefully then."

The Head Mistress started to chant some words in an unknown language, and a picture appeared on the orb.

Willow's face was white with horror as the orb showed a horrible sight:

"That's good-" Willow sentence was interrupted by the sound of gunshots. Before she knew what was going on, or had time to react she was sprayed with blood from her lover. Willows eyes opened in shock to see a bullet hole in Tara's chest. She looked at her girlfriend to be met with a sympathetic, and a confused face.

"You're... shirt?" Tara spoke silently as she fell to the ground dead.

"Tara! Baby no... No... You'll be ok... Please wake up baby please" Willow sobbed as her eyes turned black. A cloud started to form in the room.

"In the name of Osiris I command you bring her back!" Willow shouted.

"Here me keeper of darkness!-" She continued as a face formed from the cloud.

"WITCH!" The face shouted. "How dare you invoke Osiris to this task?"

"Please... Please bring her back" Willow sobbed to the face.

"You may not violate the laws of natural passing." The face responded coldly.

Willow soaked in Tara's blood looked down at her lover then back up to the face confused. "How... How is the natural?" She managed to croak out.

"It is a human death by human means-" He explained.

"But I-" Her complaints feel on deaf ears as he continued ignoring her.

"You raised one killed by mystical forces. This is not the same. She is taken by natural order. It is done!" He said impatiently.

"No there has to be a way" She pleaded again.

"IT IS DONE!" He shouted back angrily.

"NO!" She screamed back destroying the face completely.

"What was that?" Willow said on the brink of tears

"It was what happened in that room on that day" The Head Mistress spoke slowly.

Tara looked at her uncomfortably. "But... I'm not dead"

"And I didn't destroy a god!" Willow shouted.

"We saw what was going to happen, and what was going to happen because of it. So we gathered all of our power to try, and stop it from happening. We made the bullet veer a little off so the wound wouldn't be fatal." She explained to the witches.

"So you saved my life?" Tara spoke silently staring at the floor.

"We did this to save the world" The head mistress said looking at Willow.

"Wha... What do you mean? And also what did you mean happened because of it?" Willow spoke nervesouly.

The ball glowed again, and revealed Willow now dressed in all black as well as her hair.

"Oh Buffy you need every square-inch of your ass kicked" The Dark Willow spoke to a hot-headed Buffy.

"The bring it, and I'll show you what a real slayer is" Buffy said confidently

The two fought for a short time Willow standing Buffy's attacks while attacking back with stronger punches, and kicks. Until Willow tosses her into a table knocking her unconscious.

"Enraged by your lover's death, you embraced dark magic in a fit of revenge. After flaying Warren, almost killing Xander, Anya, Dawn, Buffy, Giles, Jonathan, and Andrew you drain what power the coven gave Giles out of him. You then used the power to feel the world, and in turn felt the pain, and suffering in the world. So you decided to end it all. Luckily the coven's powers brought out enough humanity in you so Xander could talk you out of it." The Head Mistress explained.

"T-t-thank you, for saving Tara thank you." Willow choked out looking to Tara with a saddened, and hurt look on her face which made Tara pull her into a hug.

"Do not thank me Willow" The Head Mistress said quickly.

"Our powers weren't enough. The bullet wound should've still been fatal, but our power gave you the time to heal her at the hospital. So you're just as much responsible for her presence here as we are." The Head Mistress said smiling.

"But that is not all you have to know Willow. You must learn to control your powers completely, or else this will happen." As the Head Mistress spoke she pointed towards the crystal ball again.

"There is a rising evil Willow. You will be necessary in the fight against it. You and Tara of course, but this is the part where I break the bad news on you. Tara has to leave you now." The Head Mistress said looking to Willow who was still wrapped tightly around her girlfriend.

"What?" Willow and Tara shouted out at almost the same time.

"This last part of your course must be done alone. There will be tough trials a head and you must be prepared for the worst." The Head Mistress continued

Willow looked at Tara with an extremely sad look. "Baby I don't want to do this without you"

Tara looked as sad, but understood what must be done here. "I don't want to leave you either baby, but it is necessary."

Willow hugged Tara immediately, and cried on her arms. 'I just saw myself lose my baby, my everything how can I possibly let her go?' Willow thought.

Tara sensed the problem, and looked tenderly into her girlfriends eyes. "I will be waiting on you Will. Don't worry I'll be fine, and you'll do fine as well"

Willow looked to the Head Mistress. "How long until she has to leave?" She asked almost in a whisper.

The Head Mistress looked slowly at the two "You have a week, and then you must spend the last month here alone."

Willow slowly nodded to show she understood

"That is all for now ladies. You have the rest of the day to contemplate on what you have seen here" The Head Mistress got up, and walked out of the room.

After an hour Willow, and Tara were both in bed talking. Willow was hugging Tara tight crying on her shoulders.

"I… I saw you die Tara" Willow sobbed out through waves of tears. "How am I supposed to forget that?"

Tara just hugged her tighter. "Will it's ok I'm here, and I'm alive, and I'm staying that way"

"That's not all… I killed someone Tara… I almost killed my friends" Willow managed to get out.

"No you didn't! Baby that wasn't you in that sphere, that was the dark magics. I know you would never do that to your friends, or anyone for that matter. I know you. I love you." Tara said kissing her on the forehead.

"You're right, and I will stay here, and master those magics so that never becomes a reality!" Willow said proudly.

"Mmm that's my girl" Tara said snuggling up to her, and kissing her passionately.

After a week passed going by their regular routine, Willow is standing at the exit of the coven next to Giles' car staring at Tara lovingly.

"Promise to stay with Buffy, and keep safe?" Willow asked doing her best to sound like a worried parent.

"Promise" Tara giggled as she kissed Willow's cheek in response.

"Baby I will be back soon as I finish here" Willow said suddenly very serious. "Please be safe until then. I can't stand the thought of losing you."

"I know, and I'll be there waiting when you get there" Tara said smiling at her lover.

Tara said a few quick goodbyes to everyone else then one last final kiss goodbye to Willow, and got into Giles' car.

After two weeks Willow was slowly starting to get used to it without her love there beside her.

Willow was walking into her room when she stopped at her door she heard a voice from over her shoulder.

"Willow" said the Head Mistress quite clearly.

Willow turned to see the Head Mistress. "Yes Ma'am?" She said smiling.

"It is time for your last true trial" Said the Head Mistress as cryptic as she possibly could.

"M-my what?" Willow spoke in a scared tone.

"Come I will show you" The Head Mistress said as she led Willow down the hall into the meditation room the used to show her Dark Willow.

Willow sat across from the orb, and looked at the blonde across from her.

The Head Mistress started chanting a long spell in some ancient demon language that Willow barely recognized.

After a moment the orb that was in the room shattered and in the room was the Dark Willow.

Dark Willow was surprised by being dragged away from her universe. Desperately she was looking around. The instant she saw Willow she held her hand out, and grabbed her pushing her against the wall holding her around the throat. "Send me back so I can finish my job!" She shouted angrily.

"Job…?" Willow barely managed to speak while she was being choked.

"To take revenge on those who took my spark, my light, MY TARA!" She shouted loosing her grip only slightly.

"She would never want you to kill in her name!" Willow screamed at her counter-part.

"I wouldn't know now would I?" She retorted.

"Of course you would! You know Tara better than you know yourself she hates violence she would never forgive you for killing, and disgracing her name by using it as an excuse!" Willow broke the hold on her evil half.

Dark Willow looked down a tear falling from her eye.

"You are a disgrace to her! She loved you, and you know she would never want this so by even seeking revenge you prove you… I am not worthy of her love!" At this point Willow was crying to coming to the realization that she wasn't worth Tara. Knowing this is what would've happened if Tara had died in her arms that night.

"I-I-I didn't mean to be… Her killers are evil-" Dark Willow tried to say.

"But they are HUMAN!" Willow shouted back as her counter-parts hair started to fade to red. "We don't kill humans, or else we become what took Tara away from you." At that all the black faded from the Dark Willows hair, and she disappeared.

Willow fell to the ground crying knowing all she had said was true. She didn't deserve Tara. If there was an evil that powerful inside of her, then she could lose Tara because of it.

"You fought off the evil inside of you Willow" The Head Mistress spoke watching the scene. "You faced the worst of yourself. This is why Tara couldn't be here. You needed to fight your own evils inside."

"I understand Head Mistress" Willow said fighting back her tears. "Is there a chance that I could become that?" She said scared of her evil side.

"That is the demon that lurks inside everyone… They all must fight it sometime." The blonde explained. "This was the most important lesson you will learn here… Evil is inside everything, but so is good. Everything is connected good to evil, evil to good. The evil inside you will always be there, but the good will always be stronger if you let it be"

Willow nodded, and returned to her room. For the rest of the night she thought on her evil side wondering if it could be contained. She thought of Tara. Her beautiful smile, her beautiful face. Then she realized not matter how hard the evil comes she could fight it knowing that it would betray her love if she didn't.

(-Thanks for all the reviews everyone - I am currently looking for someone to read my chapters before hand, and try to spot mistakes, and stuff so if you would like to send me and email at I hope you liked it - I will be starting on the next chapter in a couple of days expect it up in a week or so )