Title: No
control
Author: cherish3184
Fandom: JoA
Characters:
Joan
Rating: PG
Summary: Joan thinking
Disclaimer: Don't own
the characters.
A/N: Not to happy with it.
She was tired. Her whole body ached. Joan didn't know if she slept at all last night. It was too unreal. The whole night played through her mind a million times. Her date with Adam was amazing. She walked down the stairs and he looked so wonderful. The way he looked at her made her feel beautiful. She didn't know what to say.
At dinner, she felt so special to be taken to the nicest place in town even though it was kind of uncomfortable. They were teenagers in a place where only adults should be allowed. Judith called and she had basically did everything she could to hang up on her. She should not of done that. If only she had known.. God knew and he did nothing to warn her for this.
How could he do this to her? She did everything he asked. She didn't understand half of what he wanted her to do and in the end it didn't do any good. Kevin was still hurt. She still was sick. Lyme disease wasn't going away anytime soon. She went to crazy camp and while that was the place that she met Judith, it was still not a good place to be. She spent so much time confused and in pain. Now she was doing everything he asked again and Judith still died. Was this something to show her that she had no control over anything? If that was what God was trying to tell her there were better ways of going about it.
She tried to get out of bed but the soreness in her muscles took over. She couldn't move. All she could do was lie there. She wanted to cry but no more tears would come out. She tried to pick up the phone to call Adam but what would she say? Her thoughts didn't make sense. Nothing did anymore.
Instead she rolled over and closed her eyes willing herself to sleep.
