Feelings and a Lovely Virus
By: ShalCat-Kitty
Disclaimer: I don't own it. Duh!
Ok guys here's chapter three. I said it would be short. But my brain is too big for my keyboard. When I say short sometimes it can end up being a full blown story.
I will try my best though to keep it as short as possible. I hate it when I try to make a story long and then I get writer's block and just all-together stop.
Thank you to all you reviewers. (loveconquers: I love it when they are jealous too.) (kiki: I'm sorry if I take too long between chapters but I'm very busy and these things take time.) (Mxfan214: Your guess was very close. you'll see.) (Meg: I'm trying my best to go quickly but I don't want to screw it up by rushing.) (CatJerica: don't worry. They will get together in the end.) You guys are all great. Your comments help me keep going.
This one is from Callie/Jessica's POV so I get to delve a little bit into her mind. I hope you like it.
Ch: 3Guilt
WHAT MAKES SOMEONE FEEL GUILTYFor me it came with the realisation that it could be my fault Brennan was sick. This realisation and guilt came when I saw the face on the computer screen.
"Adam. I know this man." My exclamation was met with surprised looks from most and a glare from my fellow feral. She must have forgotten for a moment that my hearing was as in tune as hers because I could hear the words under her breath.
I felt sorry for her. Brennan probably hadn't had time to tell her his feelings before collapsing. From the death threats being directed at me I assumed that she thought there was something between Brennan and myself. So I understood, I could also be very territorial with my men.
I wondered if she even realised that her territorial behaviour was more love than friendship.
"He died when you were only a child Jessica. Are you sure it's the same man?" Adam spoke perhaps seeing the glare I received from Shalimar.
"Yeah. I'm absolutely sure. He was my family doctor when I was a kid and he's still a friend of my uncle." I looked around. "I probably should have said something last night but this fever thing reminds me of something that happened when we were kids." I made sure not to look in Shalimar's direction. I instead stared at the computer screen. Studying the picture.
"It would seem that the faking of deaths is a common theme lately." Jesse's witty comment was met with a few small chuckles.
I started to explain my thinking. "Brennan got sick like this when we were 13. Now that I think of it, it was almost the same. Except I don't remember him shorting out." I smiled. "Back then, I never knew he had powers. Anyway, Dr. Peters treated him."
"I think perhaps it is time that we contacted Professor Carson, or should I say Dr. Peters." Adam said. I felt bad about not saying anything, I felt bad about causing all this trouble. I mean I was the common factor of the only two times Brennan had this mysterious sickness. I was basically now convinced that it was my fault.
"Shalimar, can I talk to you?" I asked her as Adam, Jesse and Emma went off to the lab to do research on Dr. Peters. I didn't want to tell her outright how Brennan felt for her. That was something only he could tell her. But I had to stop her from thinking I was trying to steal her man. I had seen how aggressive ferals could get before and that was not something I wanted to experience first hand.
"Sure Jessica what's up?" She acted all cool about it but I could see it in her eyes, if she had the right motive, she'd rip my throat out.
"We need to talk about Brennan." I said straight off, hoping she would listen calmly.
"Why do we need to talk about him?" she snorted.
"Well for one, you are obviously in love with the guy and he needs to know it." I told her. It amazed me how both of them could be so completely in love with eachother and not know it. She just looked at me.
"How did you?" she was dumbstruck. As if she wasn't obvious about her feelings.
"The way you talked about him in our communications over the last year and a half. Did you really think you weren't being obvious?" I asked her. "I mean you never used his name in our talks, but I figured it out pretty quickly at the warehouse." I said.
We had kept touch since I left and she told me about stuff that went on. About a year and a half before she had told me about the two new members of mutant x. She talked about a telempath that pretty much became the little sister and an elemental. She had never said their names but she had told me about conversations and other things.
I had known for a long time just from the tone of her voice when she talked about him, that she liked the elemental. But things had gotten very complicated when I met with her. Brennan, that's who she had been talking about. My best friend as a kid and my first huge crush. Who would have thought?
"So what should we do about our little situation?" she said coldly. I had sensed her the night before when I kissed Brennan. But she hadn't stuck around, so she probably thought that I was out to take him away from her.
"I don't do anything." I said. "When we find Dr. Peters and Brennan gets better, you're going to tell him how you feel." She was confused. She wrinkled her eyebrows.
"But I saw?" she started.
"Shalimar. I know what you saw and that's his story to tell you." I shook my head. "Are we ok?" I think that I had succeeded at my objective. Convince her that I didn't want Brennan for my own, without divulging his feelings for her.
"Yeah." She shook her head not even trying to understand my attitude. "I think so Jessica." I left her there to run what I had said through her head. She would hopefully figure it out.
Later once Adam and Jesse had found Dr. Peters. Shalimar, Jesse and myself were in the double helix on our way to talk to him. Shalimar was in control of the helix, I thought perhaps she was still milling things over in her head. She probably didn't understand what was going on.
I myself had felt that way before. When another female feral was in your territory, It felt like there was something wrong, and there was nothing you could do to stop it. I felt kinda sorry for her.
"Are you ok?" Jesse asked from beside me. We were in the back of the jet apart from Shalimar, although I had no doubt she could hear every word we said. Jesse probably didn't think of this though. "She hasn't attacked you has she?" he asked me quietly.
I could see Shalimar's shoulders tense. I knew she was listening. "No of course not." I smiled pleasantly. "Why would you think that?"
"It's just last time there was another feral around, Shal got a little bit out of control." He continued typing something on the keyboard in front of him.
"I asked Brennan about that. Shalimar was only acting on her instincts which were right by the way." I defended her. "Of course any feral would be territorial by nature, but she had extra reason." I leaned back in my chair. "I know what it feels like to be territorial like that. At the time, you can't tell weather it's instincts or not. But afterward you can tell. She'll be fine once I leave."
"When will that be?" he stopped typing. "I mean you only just came back and well I guess I missed you a lot." He said.
"I'll probably go when we figure this out and I get some answers about the case I'm working on." I told him. "And I missed you too Jesse."
My case, I had almost forgotten about that. I had been hired by a secret organisation to find a man named Leo Pierce. He was connected to Genomex and he was a new mutant. I had hit a snag on this case. That had been why I decided to contact Adam in the first place. If anyone could track this guy he could. I hadn't even mentioned the case to him yet, but I decided to help Brennan get better first. The secret organisation could wait.
When we arrived at the address that Adam had given us, we found the place empty. Some one had gotten there first. There had been a fight and someone I assumed to be Dr. Peters had been taken away. Also the place had been ransacked. They searched everywhere and if he had kept any research at home, it wasn't there now.
Then more guilt came. Brennan could be dead within a couple days maybe even hours, and now our only lead was gone. The man we needed to help Brennan was captured and could even be dead himself.
If only I had just tried a little harder to find Leo Pierce myself and not come to Adam for help none of this would have happened. I knew it wasn't a coincidence that Brennan got sick. It might have been when I kissed him. That could be the trigger to whatever this sickness was. The last time he had it, I had kissed him. Then fifteen minutes later he got sick.
It was all my fault.
I WAS GUILTY.
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TBCOk I hope you all liked this chapter. I was watching The Assault and thought hey. Let's add some of the stuff from the third season. I saw The Assault for the first time yesterday and I loved it.
I have now officially seen all but one episode of Mutant x as opposed to the pathetic four or five episodes I had seen back in December. That means it took me four and a half months to see 65 episodes. I now own season one on dvd and plan to buy season two soon.
