Will my life ever go back to normal?

Phil was ready to leave the hospital when his parents came for him. The ride home was silent. More so than usual. Lil was sat next to him. She gave him a sympathetic smile. He smiled back and looked out of the window before sighing. Once they got home Phil went to his room. He was soon back down stairs.

"Where is my door?"

"That was Tommy he kicked the door down trying to get to you." said Lil

"He's got one hell of a kick on him hasn't he?" said Betty

"Definatly he took the door frame with it"

"He did a lot of damage to himself though"

"Is he at home?"

Lil looked out the window "he looks likes he's in"

"I'll be back later" he headed out the door and to his nextdoor neighbours. He knocked on the door

"Hi Mrs.P is Tommy in"

She looked at him with sympathy

"Sure he's in his room. How are you feeling?"

He knew Tommy or Dil must of said something

"I'm ok I feel a lot better now, thanks for asking" he said walking past her and straight to Tommys room. He knocked on the door

"(For the last time mom I'm getting up)"

"Err...Tom it's Phil"

"(Oh. Give me a sec) (Owww)"

"You ok?"

Tommy opened the door "Yeah I'm cool"

He saw the bandages around his shoulder "I'm sorry man"

"For what?"

"For your shoulder"

"Hey it was nothing. You'd do the same for me"

"Well I'd use something else. Not my shoulder"

They both laughed uncomfortably.

"So when do you get the surgery?"

"In a few days. I don't really want to think about it."

"That's ok dude. Come on me, Chuckie and Dil are gonna shoot some hoops wanna come with?"

"That will be sweet, but I won't go easy on you just cause of your shoulder."

"I wouldn't have it any other way. Wait while I get my shirt and ball"

"Dude there is no such thing as luck I don't know why you still wear that"

"Hey I've never lost while wearing it."

"Until today my friend" They both laughed again. Phil had managed to forget about his problem for a while.

They played for nearly an hour before they stopped for a drink

"See what did I say never loses" said Tommy pulling at his shirt

"Maybe your right then Tom"

"Can I borrow it?" asked Dil

"Piss off! This is mine"

"Damn your selfish"

"No I'm not. Well just to you"

"Bastard" he said throwing the ball hard at Tommy. He caught it, but not without a sharp pain in his shoulder.

"AAAHHH! YOU FUCKER GET BACK HERE!!!!"

Dil saw the look in his brothers eyes and was off. He was off the court before Tommy even got up.

Chuckie and Phil just laughed at the Benny Hill sketch (without the nearly naked women) that was unfolding in front of them

"I'm gonna miss this" said Phil. Chuckie looked at his friend

"Are you that sure your gonna die?"

"I got this nagging feeling in the back of my head"

"It must be hell for you man"

"That's a understatement"

"How is your sis handling this?"

"Worse than me I think. Why?"

"Errr....no reason, just the whole twin thing. If you lost her you'd be....well lost right?"

"Yeah....Chuckie if I do die I want you to do something"

"Errr what is it Phil?"

"I want you to look after Lil for me"

"How do you mean?"

"Look man. I know how you feel about her and she feels the same for you."

"Well...errr...I..." he went red

Phil began to laugh "Awww man I can't believe how stupid you 2 are"

"What?"

"Trust me man ask her out. She will be happy of some good news "

"You think she'll say yes?"

"Well maybe not at the minute, but she will say yes"

"Thanks man. I'm glad I have been given your permision, but it makes me feel even worse over how I reacted to Tommy and Kimi"

"Hey I'm just a better guy" They both laughed again

"Come on we better go stop them before Tommy catches Dil"

"I think we may be a bit late"

He pointed over to Tommy who was holding Dil up by his underwear. Trying to hang him up on a light post.

Chuckie and Phil started laughing again and shouted "WEDGIE!!" Tommy turned and smiled at his friends. They headed over to the fighting brothers. Chuckie took Tommy away while Phil tried to hoist Dil Down.

"Thanks man"

"Anything for an ex-twin"

Dil laughed

"Come on were gonna have another rehersal if you can sit down"

They headed to the Pickles house while Phil went home to get his Bass. While in his room he found the letter again he sat and read it again.

"Why me?" He whispered

"Because the good die young"

Phil turned around to see Susie standing at the door, at least what was left of it.

"Hey Suse what are you doing here?"

"I came over with my mom, she is talking to your parents about the whole....thing"

"Ohh that must be a fun convisation"

"Why do you think I'm up here?"

He let out a small laugh

"I would ask how you are, but you've probably had enough of that by now"

"You can say that again"

She sat next to him

"You know Phil you can tell me anything that is troubling you"

He sighed and looked into her eyes. He had never seen eyes like them before. They were beautiful. He managed to get lost in her eyes.

"Well I feel very alone. All my life I had Lil doing exactly the same as me, but now this is something I'm going through by myself"

"It's understandable. I mean you and Lil have always been inseprable"

He looked into her eyes again.

"Sorry Susie, the guys are waiting for me. You can come watch though"

"That's cool. I gotta go anyway. I'll see you later"

"Bye"

He watched her walk out his room. He sighed as he looked at his letter again. He picked up his Bass and headed back to Tommys.

They played for a few hours and Phil forgot about all his problems.

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Well Phil is getting used to the idea of dying. Poor Phil, I nearly cried for him again. Well next chapter I'll introduce a new character that Phil can talk to. Please R/R