Title: "Gifts - Chap. 9: By Myself"
Author: J.J.
Warning: It's an AU and it's BASED ON THE MANGA... it contains not too descriptive rape, some OOC, some use of Japanese words (the Dictionary is at the bottom), a bit of sappiness, some spoilers...
Notes: This work is based on the manga. It makes perfect sense if you haven't read it but you will find things going differently from the anime... oh well since this is an AU and things will go differently from the manga too it shouldn't be a problem.
About the characters... Tsuzuki's character is based on the first volume of the YnM Manga and that's why he's more serious. If you get the 1st volume of the manga you'll see a more adult looking Tsuzuki than in the rest of the series. As for Hisoka... He's purposely partially different from the original.
Inspiration came from the YnM manga and a lovely pic from Akane available at her 'Cursed Moons' Web (The pic is the one called 'TsuHi-raburabu')
Warning over notes: This fic is filled with notes. You will find them at the bottom. Each time you see a number between brackets it means there's a note connected to the word/sentence that preceded it. Many of them explain references to other series, to YnM manga only or YnM anime only facts for who didn't get to read the manga or see the anime, explain apparently illogical things or warn you there's an explanation for illogical facts but that you'll get it later. However I suggest you to read the notes AFTER you finished the fic unless the word/sentence connected to the note is really troublesome for you to understand. Anyway the fic should be still understandable without the notes. Notes are merely extra explanations for who wants to know more or search for spoilers.
Disclaimer:
"Yami no Matsuei" belong to Matsushita Yoko. I'm merely using her characters because I love them... especially Touda, Tsuzuki and Hisoka...
Ehy, do I own something here? Oh yes, I own the plot and a sensible heart which would surely break if you give me harsh reviews... so please be honest but nice ok?
Thanks: To Lothlorien for betaing this! Thank you a lot!
Summary: Alternate version of the 'Nagasaki Arc' Manga version. What if Muraki managed to break Hisoka and Enma planned Tsuzuki & Hisoka's partnership?
"What do I do to ignore them behind me
Do I follow my instincts blindly
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening
Do I sit here and try to stand it
Or do I try to catch them red-handed
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again"
(Linkin Park - "By Myself")

It was late at night when Watari finally finished tending to Hisoka and Tsuzuki.

To be honest, taking care of Tsuzuki hadn't been a big problem. The man had been seriously injured, but everything had already started to heal, and if it hadn't been for the fact that Hisoka needed to be cured as well, Tsuzuki would have likely gone straight home once returned from ChiJou, and fell asleep on his bed, counting solely on his healing powers to take care of his injuries. However, with Hisoka to consider, he had been forced to stop at the infirmary, and therefore could allow Watari to try to help him. Besides, Watari was merely a Shinigami playing substitute doctor, and thus, Tsuzuki's injuries wouldn't end in some official report.(1) Tsuzuki always did his best to not end in official medical reports. He too had had his share of problems with hospitals and doctors, and not only with them. Enma was always keeping an eye over whatever regarded him, and many men in Enma's staff would have gladly gotten rid of a dangerous Shinigami such as he was, and were only seeking an excuse to do so. Plus, he didn't want his friends to worry about him. He had dealt with injuries before and could do it again now.

Taking care of Hisoka's injuries had been the real problem. The boy refused to be touched or even looked at by anyone other than Tsuzuki, and after a glance at Hisoka's injuries, Watari had no problem understanding why.

Somehow, the both of them managed to take care of the worst of the injuries and to get some clean clothes for Hisoka, since what he was wearing was... well, a mess. The boy ended up curling in Tsuzuki's lap while Tsuzuki was trying to sit, leaning his weight on his shoulder, since his back was still a bit too sore for that.

Watari then got them some food that Tsuzuki readily swallowed and partially managed to make Hisoka eat too. Later, as he watched as the boy sleep in his friend's lap, Watari asked Tsuzuki if, this time, he would keep his new partner. Tsuzuki frowned.

"Our job isn't for him," the man muttered.

"But you want to keep Bon," Watari insisted.

"That's my problem, not his," came the reply.

"No Tsuzuki, that's his problem too. Maybe you haven't realized it yet, but he wants you to keep him." Tsuzuki glared at him, disbelief evident in his features.

"And, please tell me Watari, what do I offer him to make him wish to stay?"

"You're so dense when you want to be, Tsuzuki! Don't you see how Bon clings to you? Can't you see you're the only one he trusts? I saw him when Konoe Kacho took him into the office. He was like... like he wasn't here, empty inside. And if someone came too close, he was frightened like a rabbit. That's why Konoe had to wait for you to show up before sending him to ChiJou. He's still a scared child inside, and he needs you. I don't think he'll be able to handle it if you abandon him."

Tsuzuki didn't reply at first, merely turning his gaze away. He wasn't supposed to have a partner. No one in the office really expected him to have one. After his 4th partner died when Nagasaki was hit by the atomic bomb, they had started assigning him partners who lasted for one, maybe two or even three cases, and then ran as fast as they could. Some had stayed longer. Enma or an incident had taken care of them.(2)

Enma didn't like the idea of him having a partner. Tsuzuki didn't understand why the Lord of Meifu had offered him Hisoka on a silver platter, but he was sure he was going to change his mind sooner or later. It wasn't really bad when one of his partners left or when Enma moved him or her to another office without even bothering to warn him, but he couldn't deal with losing his partners in accidents. It took a lot to kill a Shinigami, but once he was dead... it was even more definitive than killing a living being. His Reikon would disappear. He wouldn't exist anywhere.

Tsuzuki was a Shinigami but he didn't cope well with death at all. He didn't want Hisoka to die. He held the boy tighter. He liked him too much already. He didn't want to lose him, and if this meant he couldn't have him... well, so be it.

"You need to sleep," Watari announced, interrupting his thoughts. "Tomorrow you'll have a clearer idea about things." Tsuzuki nodded. Anything to stop that discussion. "Tsuzuki... I know you'll do as you please and I know you have your reasons to do so, but..."

"I know you know, Watari. But it would be better if you didn't," Tsuzuki said simply. Watari smiled and patted his shoulder before leaving. Tsuzuki had his position as Enma's right hand, but Watari... he had once had a position among the 'Five Shogun'.(3) As no one knew about Tsuzuki's second work, no one was supposed to know about Watari's previous one. Yet Tsuzuki had been in Enma-Cho for seventy years and he knew too much about the place to not have hint of what Watari had been before. As for Watari... He'd been there for only nineteen years but his previous position as Shogun had given him access in the past to some secret files, some of them involving Tsuzuki. Neither of the two knew for sure what the other was or had been, but they had their suspicions... and they respected the other's privacy.

Once alone, Tsuzuki yawned. He knew the day after was going to be rough. He smoothed Hisoka's hair gently before trying to find a position that allowed them both to lie comfortably on the bed. Curled against him, Hisoka looked tremendously frail and helpless. Tsuzuki sighed.

"Don't take me wrong Hisoka. I want to keep you," he whispered gently to the sleeping boy. "It's just that I'm not sure if we could pay the price for you staying with me. Besides, no matter what Watari said, if I was in your place, I would fly as fast as I could from me as well," he mused, as he snuggled closer to the boy. That could be the last moment the two of them shared, and he was going to enjoy it. The day after he would be amazed by how easily he fell into a dreamless sleep as soon as he had synchronized his breathing with Hisoka's...


Morning light was filtering into Enma-Cho's infirmary in quite an intrusive way, at least in Tsuzuki's opinion. The man groaned as the light reminded him that there was 'someone' waiting for him, and this 'someone' didn't like to wait. Someone else moaned, right next to him, and snuggled closer as if demanding his attention. He smiled at the sight of Hisoka's curled, sleeping form. The youth was lying quietly against him, head pillowed over Tsuzuki's arm (which was currently feeling numb, but Tsuzuki wasn't going to complain), hands loosely gripping Tsuzuki's shirt in an almost childlike need of closeness and protection. He looked fine, at peace and young, so very young and vulnerable. Something in Tsuzuki screamed that he couldn't leave him alone.

For a moment he held the boy closer, pressing his cheek against Hisoka's forehead, inhaling the boy's scent in a desperate wish to keep him close, to never let him go, to never lose him as he had lost every other person he had cared for, then, as he heard Hisoka's tiny moan, he returned to reality and released his grip on the boy. He didn't own Hisoka, he couldn't keep Hisoka, and it was better this way.

Carefully, paying attention to not wake the boy, he managed to move his arm from under Hisoka's head, to free his shirt from Hisoka's grip and to get up from the infirmary bed. He stood next to the bed for a full minute, watching as Hisoka squirmed a bit, then moved to the place he had left vacant, as if seeking his warmth, and started moaning as if in pain. At this, Tsuzuki stroked Hisoka's hair soothingly till the boy calmed down, and after mumbling something Tsuzuki couldn't make out, settled again back to quiet sleep. Tsuzuki caressed his soft hair one last time, his hand moving to brush Hisoka's cheek and then his jaw, a sad, longing smile on his face, before walking away from the bed.

He was about to leave the room when he caught the sight of himself in a mirror.

He stared unhappily at the figure in front of him, the figure that was him and yet wasn't, the stranger he had found out he had become when he had been capable of coherent thoughts again after lying in a bed for eight years in the arms of insanity.

He had been eighteen when his life ended, only two years older than Hisoka. Oh, technically he had lasted for a further eight years, eight years that had made him physically twenty-six when Natsume-senpai came to take him to Meifu, but technicalities didn't matter to him. Those eight years were blurry and confused, infinitely long and tremendously short at the same time, and he had no idea how to deal with them. His last memory, his last memory of himself alive was at eighteen, before the only person that had mattered to him was murdered in cold blood in front of his eyes. The twenty-six year old looking body wasn't his, couldn't be his. He just... didn't fit in it. He didn't fit anywhere.

He remembered his first days in Enma-Cho. He remembered the dislike, the hate for that purple eyed stranger that stared at him every time he passed in front of a mirror. He remembered the stranger's apathetic expression, the dull purple eyes that just... didn't care about living or dying. Hadn't Natsume-senpai kept an eye on him, he... he had no idea what would have happened to him. Shinigami were hard to kill, but Enma had many ways to make death look like an act of mercy to those who disobeyed, to those who tried to escape his grasp.

So he had lived and he had learned to get along with the stranger in the mirror. He had mastered twelve Shikigami and a long string of partners, assorted co-workers and other acquaintances that believed they cared for him. Of course very few of them had known the 'real' Tsuzuki Asato. Except for Natsume-senpai and his Shiki, he had never let any of them get too close. Oh, he had been tempted to do so, he had tried to do so, but he had seen how people had been scared by the real him, he had seen how they hurried to leave, he had seen how the few who didn't want to leave had found themselves in trouble. So he had lived, putting up mask after mask, working hard to please the people around him and to look harmless at the same time, to know them but to never let them know him. Then Natsume-senpai had died too, some years ago, in a mission that had involved a bunch of missing Reikon and a couple of Akuma, and he had taken his place as the strongest Shinigami and Enma's right hand. Even if their partnership had been broken by Enma, the man had always been kind to him, had always cared for him, had never been scared of him. He still missed him, the man who had been a father, a mentor, a hero and, most importantly, his first friend. And here he was, with a partner who was almost the mirror copy of who he had been at the beginning. A scared teenager with empty eyes, no will to live, and in desperate need of a friend. On second thoughts, he knew why Enma had partnered them together. He should have liked the irony of it, of giving him a partner who was so much like him and yet looked his exact opposite. A partner he desperately wanted to save from becoming like him.

Hisoka deserved better, and if Tsuzuki had any say in it, he would get it. Even if it meant Tsuzuki couldn't keep him as a partner.


Morning light was filling Enma Daioh's room quite nicely. It was a pretty sight, but Enma's attention was all caught up by something even more beautiful. Someone even more beautiful. A lone Shinigami standing in front of him in rumpled clothes, eyes of such an amazing amethyst colour that people would stop just to stare at them. Too bad for them they often believed that particular colour was due to coloured contact lenses. Tsuzuki's eyes were really an inhuman purple, a colour that had labelled him a freak and a monster in his life, but that had also given him as many admirers as the stars in the sky. And now, those shining jewels had their full attention on himself, Enma DaiOh. After facing the man's cold indifference for around seventy years, all that attention was almost too good to be true.

"Enma DaiOh-sama." There was some urgency in Tsuzuki's voice. Intriguing. The man was always so carefully controlled around him.

"Yes, Tsuzuki?" he inquired, raising an eyebrow.

"You can't really mean that," Tsuzuki continued. Enma found himself being even more charmed. No one else would dare to question him but Tsuzuki, this apparently harmless man who hid in himself enough strength to destroy all of Meifu, and yet refused to use it.

"Of course I can," Enma answered in his melodious, charming voice. "Kurosaki Hisoka has fulfilled his utility and he's connected to... a decidedly troublesome person. To protect JuOhCho, the best thing I can do is to destroy his Reikon so it won't be used to cause trouble," Enma explained calmly, almost amused. "You know the procedure, Tsuzuki. You've seen it quite often." It never failed to surprise him how Tsuzuki was so strongly against death. One would think he would be used at it after seeing it and causing it so many times, and yet... To Enma this was one of Tsuzuki's most amusing, intriguing traits.

"DaiOh-sama..." Tsuzuki insisted, trying to find a way to save his partner. "What about the fact that you promised him he would be allowed to move over if the 'Dracula case' was solved?" Hisoka had mentioned it to Tsuzuki the previous night when he had calmed down slightly, and had started babbling things for the mere purpose of keeping himself awake, deathly afraid of the nightmares he could have should he fall asleep. Tsuzuki hadn't believed a single second that Enma would keep his word, but it was worth a try.

"Oh, that." Enma dismissed the whole problem with a simple flick of his hand. "The child knew I never planned to keep that promise, and if he didn't, he was too stupid and naïve to deserve it to be respected. You don't come to pacts with the Lord of Darkness," Enma reminded him. Tsuzuki frowned. He knew it way too well.

"What about the fact that you promised him to me? You said he was my 'gift'." Tsuzuki didn't like to point that out. To him it felt like encouraging Enma to consider people as things, but if it could be of use...

"You want him?" Enma looked at him incredulously. "Even after you know he's connected to the Muraki Ichimon?"(4)

"I want him," Tsuzuki replied firmly. Who cared if Hisoka was connected to Muraki anyway?

"I'll give you someone else," Enma said, frowning.

"I want him," Tsuzuki insisted, emphasising the word 'him'. "You said he was my gift," he repeated.

"You trusted my words?" That was hilarious. Tsuzuki Asato who officially trusted everyone but deep down couldn't even trust himself had trusted a well-known liar like Enma?

"No DaiOh-sama, I never trusted you," the man admitted frankly with an admirable nonchalance. "Some time ago you asked me why my favours went to HakuShaku-sama. I was merely explaining why." Enma's eyes narrowed.

"What do you mean?"

"He never took back what he gave to me," Tsuzuki said, knowing fully he had struck a nerve. Enma made an irritated gesture. He hated the fact that Tsuzuki had 'sympathy' for someone as low as HakuShaku. Tsuzuki's expression was carefully neutral, but it was clear he understood he had scored a mark.

"If I give you the boy, and mind you I said 'if', what will I get from you?"

"I wouldn't ever dare to came to pacts with the Lord of Darkness. Besides, what could a mere employee like me have that someone like you could wish?" Tsuzuki replied. Enma smirked.

"A fitting reply. But there's something you have and I want." He placed a finger under Tsuzuki's chin. "A night with this delicious body of yours given to me by your free will."

"We're talking about an exchange of gifts DaiOh-sama? Your signed order that Hisoka can move over for a 'one night stand'? Or should I say 'one day stand'?" Tsuzuki's voice was carefully 'business like', void of any feeling. He knew of Enma's interest in him. He didn't enjoy it, but there were worse things than spending a night with the ruler of Meifu, and if that helped to save Hisoka... he wouldn't have any regrets.

"I never said I would allow the boy to move over. He needs surveillance. I'll let him live in our prisons," Enma replied coldly.

"Why not in my care, DaiOh-sama? I would make sure he caused no trouble to you."

"You want that child so badly? I guess he must really be something in bed."

"I wouldn't know, DaiOh-sama. I haven't tried him yet. But he's certainly great at cooking." To be honest, Tsuzuki had no idea if Hisoka was or not. He merely gave Enma the first excuse that came to him that didn't suggest anything sexual to DaiOh-sama. He didn't want Hisoka to become the next victim of Enma's 'interests'.

"Keep your little chef if he entices you so much, Tsuzuki, but keep him well guarded. I don't want problems from him. And now we should move to... more pleasurable matters... and who said it has to be just for one time?" Enma asked sliding a finger down Tsuzuki's cheek. Tsuzuki smirked coldly, an expression almost no one in Enma-cho knew him capable of doing.

"I'm afraid we can't yet, DaiOh-sama. You still have to sign the order. Besides, the lord of Meifu can't have the wish to waste more than one day of his time with a low class Shinigami. It would be embarrassing." Enma smirked back, pleased. To him, when Tsuzuki behaved like that, he was most exciting creature in all of Meifu. Too bad Tsuzuki knew it and was using it to his advantage.

"You have no idea of the things people would wish to waste for you, Tsuzuki," Enma replied, smirking as he moved towards his desk to sign the order. Let Tsuzuki keep his new partner if it made him so... agreeable. Tsuzuki was a Shinigami and therefore nothing more than a toy to him, and yet... he was charmed by him as he had been by no one else. At first, when he had tricked Tsuzuki into becoming a Shinigami, he had wanted him because 'you had to keep your enemies close, and Tsuzuki was someone closely connected to a certain enemy.' Now... he was addicted to his presence and he knew he would never get enough. They played their own game, a game in which Enma tried to charm Tsuzuki in his own way and Tsuzuki simply... ignored him. Tsuzuki never asked favours for himself to Enma, not even a raise in his salary or a holiday. Enma could have forced his attentions, of course, but that would have ruined the game. That day, for the first time, Tsuzuki had asked him for something, leaving himself open for a... trade. Maybe more 'exchanges of gifts' would follow if he allowed Tsuzuki to keep the boy. That was an interesting option. He gave to Tsuzuki the signed order and watched as the man scanned it for possible tricks or mistakes before returning his full attention onto him. A drug, that was what Tsuzuki was to him. A drug he was planning to enjoy fully in the next few hours.

"Love me, Tsuzuki," Enma requested, raising a hand to caress that soft cheek again and to brush back those dark bangs, exposing those beautiful purple eyes. "Love me as you never have anyone else and I'll make sure you'll never regret it..."

To be continued...

JJ's Notes:

1. Yes, Watari is just a substitute doctor in the manga. I'm assuming there's a real, official doctor in Enma-cho even if in the manga he's never shown.

2. There isn't too much info on Tsuzuki's previous partners. I'm making up why they left him.

3. The 5 Shogun were/are a group of scientists who built Meifu's Main Computer. Watari had been one of them. They're mentioned in the 'Tsuzuki & Hisoka no Shikigami Series'. Not much is said about them but it seems that their existence was a secret and that they were involved in secret stuff as well.

4. Muraki's grandfather was the one who took care of Tsuzuki when he was insane. Tsuzuki apparently had little memories of that time. It's not said if he knew who was his doctor. Enma knew it however. As for me, I'm assuming Muraki's name might have rang a bell but Tsuzuki didn't consciously pay any attention to it and yes, this meant he failed to see the connection between Muraki Kazutaka and Muraki Yukitaka and therefore he didn't understand Enma's comment.

JJ's Extra Notes:
Yes, Enma DaiOh-sama is a bastard. However he wants a consenting Tsuzuki. Unlike Muraki however, he doesn't understand that he's blackmailing Tsuzuki. He honestly thinks of it as an exchange of gifts. Shinigami are really his own possessions and he thinks he's being nice asking Tsuzuki's favours in exchange of a gift and not simply taking what he wants. He's not 'evil', he just lacks humanity. Mn... I know, it sounds confusing. Enma is in a position in which he's 'right' in considering everyone else as a bug or an object he owns. He's technically being nice with Tsuzuki because it would be in his right to ask everything from him without giving him something back. He's legally allowed to be a bastard.
As for Tsuzuki... don't expect a whining, crying, abused Tsuzuki. He's not enjoying it, but he went into it willingly, and Enma isn't a bad lover. He would have preferred another way but...
Oh yes, for those still wondering about who the eighteen year old boy that Enma and Tsuzuki talked about in Chap. 1 was, and to whom Tsuzuki found a striking resemblance in Hisoka yes, it was no one other than Tsuzuki himself. Tsuzuki became insane at eighteen. He died at twenty-six, but I figure in the beginning he still felt eighteen and probably back then he wasn't as cheerful, open and nice as he's now. He'd been insane and suicidal for eight years for crying out loud. I wouldn't be surprised if he was still half catatonic in his first days in Meifu.
The 'Nagasaki Arc' manga version is quite different from the anime one. This part however was completely made up by me and it's not in the manga or in the anime. To be honest, Matsushita-sensei said that she wanted Tsuzuki and Watari to have a conversation about Tsuzuki's partnership with Hisoka but that scene was removed so...

Dictionary:
-sama: "Lord" or "Lady"
Akuma: Demon
Bon: Boy
ChiJou: Land of the Living
DaiOh: "Great King". Enma's title
Enma: "Demon of Darkness". Ruler of the Land of Dead
Enma-Cho: "Office Enma". In the 5th district of JuOhCho. It's ruled by Enma himself and controls only Tokyo's territory. It hosts the Shokan-ka
GenSoKai: "Illusory World". It's where Shikigami reside and it's a mirror copy of ChiJou located in JuOhCho network
HakuShaku: "Earl". Master of the Rousoku no Yakata, he controls humans' life span
Ichimon: "Family" or "Clan"
JuOhCho: "Ten Kings Office". Meifu's bureaucratic organization ruled by Enma. It's in charge of judging the deceased in Japan
Kacho: "Section Chief". Konoe's title
Meifu: Land of the Dead
Reikon: Soul
Rousoku no Yakata: "Castle of Candles". Where the candles representing human lives are held
Sempai: "Older Workmate" or "Older Classmate"
Shiki: Short for 'Shikigami'
Shikigami: "Ceremonial God". Summoned creatures with two forms (usually one is animal looking while the other is human looking) that live in GenSoKai
Shinigami: "God of Death" or "Death God". Nickname for the Shokan-ka workers
Shogun: "General". How the five scentists who worked on JuOhCho's Mother Computer were called
Shokan-Ka: "Summoning Division". Division in Enma-Cho that deals with summoning the dead to appear at court. It enters in action only when the souls of the dead don't go spontaneously to Meifu


Replies to reviews:

To Everyone who reviewed: Thank you! You're a great encouragement for me! My apology for the long wait...

To Silverfox: I'm glad you liked the dream sequence! Somehow I love to write dream sequences and when someone apprecciate them I'm very happy! As for what Hisoka thinks about Suzaku's appearance... in the state of mind he was Tsuzuki could have summoned everything and he wouldn't have paid it much attention. He knows near to nothing about Shikigami (only what is said about them in Japanese legends) but he knew Muraki could summons creatures and he just thought Tsuzuki did the same, mistaking poor Suzaku for a Magami...

To DarkSapphireDragon: I'm sorry I kept you waiting for so long... Hisoka will get better soon, I promise!

To Vera-chan: I love when people tells me in details what they liked about my work. It helps me to get better! Thank you so much for your review!
The anime is way more popular than the manga so it's normal it's used as reference more often than the manga... I personally like more the manga because it's more... developed. I'm sorry you've to wait so long for this chap and I hope you will like it.

To Touya's Angel: I would have loved to put more TsuzukixHisoka... Sadly in this chap Enma decided he've to ruin everything... Well, I can't complain too much since this was planned right from the beginning... Trust me I'm not a TsuzukixEnma supporter but Enma wouldn't have let Hisoka to live without something in exchange... He's a jerk...

To tenshiamanda: I think yours was the best compliment a writer can hope to get. I'm glad you like the dream sequence. As for Ruka having purple eyes... I thought that since she's Tsuzuki's sister that's a concrete possibility she has his same problem...

To xXLil Yu JahXx: I've done it, happy now?

To + Aniko+: Tsuzuki and Hisoka are a lovely couple! Thanks for your review I'm happy to hear when I can transmit the feelings the characters feel!

To Chibi Rinku: I'm glad to hear you like my fic! Please don't speak bad of your work! I found 'The Handcuffs' very amusing!


In the Next Chapter:
So finally we're at the end of my version of the 'Nagasaki Arc'. Will Hisoka stay in Enma-Cho? Will Tsuzuki keep him as his partner? Will the two of them get together? The answer in the nest chapter!
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