Inuyasha sighed when he saw the sunset. He was sitting on top of Kaede's hut, comforted by the sounds he was hearing in her hut. It sounded as though Kagome was cooking and Sango was telling a story about Miroku again. When he heard Kagome laugh, Inuyasha's ears twitched. Oh crap. He thought. Tonight's the new moon. I hate being human. But if I hate being human why did I remain a half demon?
Flashback
"Inuyasha can I talk to you?" Kagome had said. Narku had been defeated a week earlier and everyone was still recovering. Kagome was wearing Kikyo's old clothes and she still looked unnaturally pale. Inuyasha nodded and followed Kagome outside.
"Here." she simply said. She held out her hand, palm up with the newly formed jewel resting on it. Inuyasha stared at it, then glanced up at Kagome.
"What am I supposed to do with it?" He asked her. Kagome looked frustrated with him.
"What do you mean? Do whatever you want with it!" She said. Inuyasha instantly thought of becoming a full demon but the thought came to a halt when he thought of the time when Kagome and himself were sitting by a fire. She had told him that she liked him as a half demon. Inuyasha didn't understand but her opinion meant everything in the world to him.
"Inuyasha?" Kagome inquired. She looked puzzled. Inuyasha looked into her eyes and he wanted to make her happy. He picked up the sacred jewel and just held it for a few minuets. During that time Kagome didn't say anything, she just waited to see what he would do.
Then a bright flash of light appeared from the jewel, and it disappeared. "Wha...Wha...What happened?" Kagome said after a few seconds.
"I wished that no evil hands would ever get a hold of it. Guess my wish purified it." Inuyasha said with a shrug.
"Oh Inuyasha!" Kagome said. She had tears in her eyes, but her eyes were shining with happiness and relief. She threw herself in his arms and just clung to him. Inuyasha not knowing what to do, slowly wrapped his arms around her.
End Flashback
It was now dark and Inuyasha was acutely aware that he was human. A blast of cold air hit him and he shivered. Inuyasha grabbed the Tetsaigia and jumped to the ground. The impact on the ground hurt him more than usual and again he cursed his human weakness, but he didn't regret his wish for the Shikon Jewel.
"Inuyasha! Dinner! I made raman!" Kagome yelled into the night. She stood in the doorway of Kaede's hut. My god she's so beautiful. The thought hit him without warning. Another downfall of being human. His most private thoughts that he managed to keep buried always seemed to escape when he was human. This was going to be a long night.
Kagome waited for Inuyasha after she called him for dinner. She saw him come from the side of the hut, and gasped. How could she forget? It was the new moon! "Hey, I made some raman for you, and I think I still have some potato chips left." Inuyasha nodded and pushed her aside to get in the hut. Kagome shrugged. Same old Inuyasha.
Kagome sat next to Sango who was holding Miroku's hand and talking to him. Miroku's eyes never strayed from Sango's chocolate ones and Kagome smiled to herself. She was glad Sango allowed Miroku to get closer to her. Sango needed someone to love.
"Kagome. There is a young girl in labor in the village, I will leave you in charge." Kaede said. Kagome nodded. She realized slowly but surely Kaede was training her to take her place. Kagome realized that was probably what she would end up doing with her life. She liked life in Feudal Japan more than modern day. She even thought about dropping out of high school, but realized her mother would be so disappointed in her if she didn't at least finish high school.
"Kagome" Sango whispered as Kaede left the hut. "Miroku and I are going for a walk." Kagome nodded again and watched Miroku and Sango leave. She had a hunch that they wouldn't be back for a while.
"How's your food?" She asked Inuyasha, who was almost done eating. Inuyasha stopped stuffing his face for a few seconds to nod his head. I guess that means he likes it. Kagome thought.
"You should eat to you know." Inuyasha said.
"I will." Kagome replied surprised. She grabbed her own bowl of raman and ate at a much slower pace than Inuyasha. She got the feeling that she was being watched and looked at Inuyasha's now violet eyes. "What's you thinking about?" she asked him.
"Just noticing how different you look from the first time you ever came here." He said.
"Oh and how am I different?" Kagome asked with a raised eye brow.
"You haven't changed that much, but there are some differences. Your cheek bones are more defined, your hair is defiantly longer and well you seem more curvy." Inuyasha said, blushing beat red at the last thing he said. Kagome's hear skipped a beat. She to was also red.
"Wow I didn't even notice that about myself." She said. Kagome got up and sat next to Inuyasha. "You know you've changed too. You seem more mature, and it seems like you aren't as cold as you used to be."
"What do you mean cold?" Inuyasha snapped. Kagome rolled her eyes.
"I mean you aren't as mean and suspicious to people and that wish you made with the jewel..." Kagome trailed off, hoping Inuyasha would get the point. When he didn't say anything she guessed he got it. Kagome made a move to get up when Inuyasha grabbed her hand. Kagome took a sharp inhale of breath and looked into his beautiful violet eyes.
"Thank you. You've grown up too." Inuyasha said. He let go of her and Kagome smiled at him. She walked across the hut and grabbed her journal out of her knapsack.
June 20
Tonight's the new moon. Inuyasha is a human for now. When I first see Inuyasha as a human it never fails to shock me. I'm so used to seeing his golden eyes that are so intense. Now their violet, but the intensity is still there.
Right now we're both sitting in Kaede's hut. We just finished dinner. Kaede is of course in the Village helping people out. I know she is slowly training me to take her place, and I guess the question is 'do I want to become a priestess?'
Sango and Miroku are 'walking' but I have a hunch that they walked to Miroku's hut on the outskirts of the village. Its so nice to see Sango melt her heart of ice and let Miroku get close.
Back to human Inuyasha... It never fails to amaze me how open and honest he is while human. Tonight he pointed out the differences in me from the time I first came here, too now, two years later. He was human when he asked me to keep returning to his era even though the jewel shards were collected and the jewel itself no longer around.
I know I love Inuyasha more than a friend, and I love it when he tells me things that make my heart skip a beat, but it would be so much more if he would say these things as a half-demon! It aggravating to feel so deeply for him, yet unable to do anything. I still don't know how he feels about Kikyou and I have no idea if he feels more for me than just a friend. If I wanted I could read deeper into a few incident where I was possessed, kidnaped, or in danger, but Inuyasha would do the same for anyone. I have to stop messing with my mind saying 'maybe he does love you' or 'today he'll tell you that he likes you more than you thought' . I'm not even safe in my dreams. In my dreams he holds me so gently... but that's all they are! Dreams!
Inuyasha watched Kagome write. She seemed so into what she was writing that she didn't even notice him staring at her, like she did earlier. Her face was full of expressions ranging from happy, to confused, to sad, to angry. What is she writing? He though. Whatever it was Kagome felt deeply about it because he knew that she was about to cry. He couldn't smell the tears like he normally could, but he knew by her facial expression. What is she writing? He thought again.
Well what did everyone think? I've had more time to write than I thought so that's why this was updated so fast. I realized that I forgot to add my disclaimer in the first chapter. I don't own Inuyasha or any of its characters but I wished I did! I probably won't do the whole disclaimer thing again but I did it once!
Thank you to everyone who reviewed! It really made my day!
