Why do I miss you?
The tears roll down my soft red cheeks,
My mind torn between what is true.
Never know how to see things for myself.
You guys thought I could handle it,
You thought it was for the best.
Whatever you expected did not come true,
I fell apart,
I am in pain,
I am losing my heart, soul, mind and sanity.
Once you guys made me feel special,
Like a normal person, I thought it to good to be true.
Over time my guard had fallen,
My weaknesses exposed,
For I began to trust others again,
Because you guys, you made me feel like I belonged,
I was part of the group,
We all had something generally in common.
But you had lied,
Gave me a false hope for your own selfish purposes.
Why did I listen?
Why did you lie through your teeth?
Acted like you cared about what I thought,
You didn't even care,
You left me in the dust,
You didn't even care about me even when I helped you
I comforted you,
I gave you a place to stay when you were in trouble.
And you repay me by spitting in my face,
Leaving me completely
Telling me the reason is beyond my comprehension,
My understanding.
I tried, I really did.
I asked for you help a last time and you refused.
All I can do now, is search,
Search for my salvation, my soul again.
I just wanted a friend, one that won't leave me on a whim,
I guess that is asking too much.
To have someone to make me better,
Stronger, faster, smarter…
You refused.
But I don't hate you.
I just miss you.
Written By April Jean Elkin, March 28, 2005
