RATING: PG
SUMMARY: Takes place about five months after Against All Odds. Shannon's past relationships have left her insecure, which may end up affecting her current relationship with Sayid. What will it take for her to realize that it might just be ok?
DISCLAIMER: I don't own the characters from Lost and am not making a profit. If they were mine, then there would be more Shayid moments.
Thank you everyone, I appreciate all of your comments.
Author's Note: I just wanted to say that I planned this story out and started writing these chapters before Wednesday's episode. Just wanted to give a little warning, you'll understand after you read.
Chapter Five – Broken InsideShannon stood there in shock as everything around her moved in slow motion. She watched as Boone placed Sayid on the ground, yelling for Jack. She saw the look of horror pass on Jack's face, before he became the doctor once again.
Her breath caught in her throat as she saw that Sayid wasn't moving. She started to move forward towards him, she needed to touch him to see that he was going to be ok. She needed to see his chest rising and falling and she wanted to hold his hand so that he knew that she was there for him.
Jack had ripped open Sayid's shirt and Shannon cried out at the angry wound on his stomach. She kept inching forward, trying to work her way next to him. Suddenly she felt strong arms around her, holding her back. She started kicking and yelling, telling them to get off her.
"Come on Shannon," Sawyer, said softly in her ear, "You got to let Jack do his thing." He carried her further away from Sayid. "This crying isn't going to help."
She hadn't even realized that she was crying until Sawyer said that. She stopped thrashing then as the severity of the situation hit her. If Sawyer was helping Jack, it had to be bad. She watched silently as Jack called out orders to people to help him.
Shannon looked over at Boone and stalked over to him, "What the hell did you do?" she asked him, her voice dripping with venom.
He looked up at her surprised by her accusation. All she saw was his clothing stained with Sayid's blood; she ignored the exhaustion in his eyes. "I didn't do anything, Shan."
She slapped him across the face. She didn't believe him. All the horrible things he had ever said to her came crashing back, mixed with her fear. She hit him again and she started yelling at him, and then went back to hitting him. She started pounding on his chest, screaming at him to tell her what he did. Finally Boone had enough and grabbed her wrists.
"I didn't do anything to him, Shannon." When he felt that she calmed down, he let go of her, "Why would I have brought him to Jack if I hurt him?"
She knew he was right and she looked away embarrassed for her earlier actions, "Sorry," she mumbled.
"Shannie," he said, using his childhood nickname for her, "I wouldn't do that to you. I know he makes you happy."
It was the first time that he had admitted that to her. She wondered what they had talked about in the jungle together.
She smiled at him sadly, "He does." She looked back over where Jack was still working, "What happened Boonie?"
"Ugh, don't call me that."
"Then don't call me Shannie," she said, smiling for real now, it seemed as if they were starting to get back to the way it was before, before his mother had turned them against each other, before she had slept with him. Her smile faded as she heard Jack yelling for more blankets.
"It happened so fast, Shan," he said, she noticed that he seemed pretty shaken up, "I was walking in front of him while we were searching for Locke, and out of nowhere this person came up. Sayid stepped in front of me, Shan, he took the knife for me. I don't know why, its not like I've given him any reason to."
"He did it for me," she whispered, knowing that Sayid would have known what losing her brother would have done to her, even if she pretty much only complained about him. Sadly, he hadn't realized that losing him would break her even more.
Boone reached out and took her hand, "He'll be ok. He won't leave you."
She wanted to believe him, wanted so desperately to believe that Sayid would be ok, but she wasn't that naive. They were on an island with no medical equipment, how much could Jack really do.
Jack came over to them then, his eyes disheartened, "I stitched up his wound as best I could. I don't know the extent of the damage done internally without more tests. We're just going to have to wait and see what happens," he paused, "I'm sorry," he whispered as he walked away.
Shannon's tears came again as Boone tried to comfort her. He wasn't successful because all she wanted was Sayid.
TBC…
