A sad little fic about Harry that I wrote when I was depressed, it's one of
my faves so I hope you like it.
~*~Mystical Dreams
Goodbye is the hardest word to say.
Harry stared into the firelight, watching the golden flames flicker against the glass.
It was two 'o'clock in the morning and the common room was fully deserted, Harry couldn't sleep, not with the cloud of anxiety that hung over him. He was filled with worry and dread, and ever since he had come back to the usually homely Hogwarts he hadn't been able to sleep. The connection to the wizarding world had left the shadow of Voldemort haunting his dreams.
The flames flickered across his face, giving his emerald green eyes and blank expression a far away look.
He couldn't help but think he was trapped between two worlds, his friends, the ones he loved, or his duty, what felt like duty to him, he knew he owed it; he owed it to his mother and father, and his Godfather. He knew he had to defeat Voldemort, he was the only one who could.
Pain swept all through his body, not the physical type, but the ache in his heart that was telling him no, but as he put his head in his hands he knew he had to do this alone.
He loved his friends, they were his family, but he knew he could not endanger them, he also knew that if he did, he would never forgive himself, or have any chance of hearing their laughing voices again. This unimaginable nightmare was going to take his life.
He slowly got up, with dread creasing through his very veins he walked up to the dormitory and gathered the most precious of his possessions, thinking of how many he had now compared to those he had first come to Hogwarts with.
He then quietly moved over to Ron's bed and drew back the curtains to look at his friend one last time before he whispered into the night, "I love you like a brother Ron, I'm sorry but this is one adventure I have to go on without you. You're the best friend anyone could ever hope for, look after Hermione for me, I'll never forget you."
With that he walked out of the dorm and crossed the common room once more to say his last goodbyes to his other true friend.
He silently padded over to her bed and drew back the curtains a touch.
"Hermione, I'm sorry I have to leave you, I'm glad we've been friends, you've shown me things that I've not in my wildest imagination have believed"
Silent tears were burning in his eyes and one single drop found a trail down his cheek.
The tear dropped as he kneeled over Hermione's peaceful form and landed softly on her forehead. He bent over and kissed it away.
"I love you" he whispered before slowly moving towards the door.
As Harry stood outside Hogwarts castle he took one last look at the many torrents shining in the moonlight. This was the place he was always meant to be, this was his home, his protection, his life. The many memories swayed in his mind as the tears kept falling.
He looked up, the moon sending it's silver light across his tear stained face, and he finally whispered the words from his lips that it hurt so much to say,
"Goodbye"
~*~
Ok so I know guys can't get up the girls dormitory staircase but I didn't want to have to put in a whole explanation so yeah, I hope you don't mind. Well I hope you liked it and if you are in a rather depressed mood then you can check out two of my other depressing fics: My Immortal (songfic) and Two's Comforting (a Remus/ Tonks one after Sirius' death). Well please review.
~*~Mystical Dreams
~*~Mystical Dreams
Goodbye is the hardest word to say.
Harry stared into the firelight, watching the golden flames flicker against the glass.
It was two 'o'clock in the morning and the common room was fully deserted, Harry couldn't sleep, not with the cloud of anxiety that hung over him. He was filled with worry and dread, and ever since he had come back to the usually homely Hogwarts he hadn't been able to sleep. The connection to the wizarding world had left the shadow of Voldemort haunting his dreams.
The flames flickered across his face, giving his emerald green eyes and blank expression a far away look.
He couldn't help but think he was trapped between two worlds, his friends, the ones he loved, or his duty, what felt like duty to him, he knew he owed it; he owed it to his mother and father, and his Godfather. He knew he had to defeat Voldemort, he was the only one who could.
Pain swept all through his body, not the physical type, but the ache in his heart that was telling him no, but as he put his head in his hands he knew he had to do this alone.
He loved his friends, they were his family, but he knew he could not endanger them, he also knew that if he did, he would never forgive himself, or have any chance of hearing their laughing voices again. This unimaginable nightmare was going to take his life.
He slowly got up, with dread creasing through his very veins he walked up to the dormitory and gathered the most precious of his possessions, thinking of how many he had now compared to those he had first come to Hogwarts with.
He then quietly moved over to Ron's bed and drew back the curtains to look at his friend one last time before he whispered into the night, "I love you like a brother Ron, I'm sorry but this is one adventure I have to go on without you. You're the best friend anyone could ever hope for, look after Hermione for me, I'll never forget you."
With that he walked out of the dorm and crossed the common room once more to say his last goodbyes to his other true friend.
He silently padded over to her bed and drew back the curtains a touch.
"Hermione, I'm sorry I have to leave you, I'm glad we've been friends, you've shown me things that I've not in my wildest imagination have believed"
Silent tears were burning in his eyes and one single drop found a trail down his cheek.
The tear dropped as he kneeled over Hermione's peaceful form and landed softly on her forehead. He bent over and kissed it away.
"I love you" he whispered before slowly moving towards the door.
As Harry stood outside Hogwarts castle he took one last look at the many torrents shining in the moonlight. This was the place he was always meant to be, this was his home, his protection, his life. The many memories swayed in his mind as the tears kept falling.
He looked up, the moon sending it's silver light across his tear stained face, and he finally whispered the words from his lips that it hurt so much to say,
"Goodbye"
~*~
Ok so I know guys can't get up the girls dormitory staircase but I didn't want to have to put in a whole explanation so yeah, I hope you don't mind. Well I hope you liked it and if you are in a rather depressed mood then you can check out two of my other depressing fics: My Immortal (songfic) and Two's Comforting (a Remus/ Tonks one after Sirius' death). Well please review.
~*~Mystical Dreams
