Chapter 9: Pathway to Hell

This is me, I thought to myself, this is my life. Sitting in this gloomy courtroom I recapped the event of my life since I arrived to Port Charles. Life was easy back then, I stole things and sold them later. That's how I made my money. I lived from ship to ship, from street to street. It was always Danny and me.

Danny, the thought came to my mind. How is Danny right now? Is he safe? Is he warm? Is he fed? Noone can answer those questions, not anymore.

I traded the simple life for love, that stupid thing called love. I loved him, I truly did, but I was just his slut, the girl who he lusted. (No, I'm not talking about Danny) I did everything for love. I could have killed for love. I tried to kill for love.

"Everybody rise, Judge Charlandos has made her decision." The boy said. I rose to my feet and touched my stomach as something in my heart jumped. The memories from my past resurfaced in my head as I rethought my actions.

They say noone can make a deal with anyone who they have never seen, but that is exactly what I did, I made a deal with the devil. I thought that anything I did was for Danny, he needed me, he still does. I tried to be his sister, his mother, his father, his brother, and even his guardian angel. I wished that I could steel from a really rich person and get lots of money, but instead I lost more then I gained. I always wanted to find a rich man who would love me, but instead he hates me. The names of the seven deadly sins rang in my head as I recounted all of my recent sins. Greed. Oh I was so damn greedy. I really shouldn't have stolen Carly's wallet. But then again, that sin didn't destroy me as much as some others did.

Then there was gluttony. I really shouldn't have bragged to Luke about stealing that wallet, it only landed me in lots of trouble.

Then came wrath. I made Jason feel bad for me with wrath and at the time, that sin looked like a savior. Now I know that if I wouldn't have had wrath, I would never be in this mess.

Awww. And then there was envy. Envy was a sin I should have kept hidden. If noone would have known, I wouldn't be here.

And Lust. Sweet lust. I thought it was lust. Later I realized that I can't live without thinking about him. Sweet little lust. If I wouldn't have let Sonny kiss me, Jason and I would still be together, and there would be no lust.

Sloth of course. Couldn't forget that now could I? Sloth. Carly knew I envied her, she thought I lusted her husband. If I were her, I too would accuse me. She did what came natural. All the clues pointed at me. Sweet little me. I was too damn sloth full to explain myself or run and seek cover.

And then the last sin. The most destructive sin. Pride. If only I would have made Jason turn around and see the man. If only I would have explained it to him that I did save him.

Well, it all didn't matter anymore. I started listening to the judge speak. And only then did I realize just how much trouble I was in.

"We find the defended, Samantha McCall, guilty of robbery, assault, and attempted murder." The judge said.

I turned to face Jason and he turned around when he saw me. He was still hurt.

The cops came to get me. To take me to prison. I touched my stomach again, as if I would have been hiding a secret. I was hiding a secret. A secret I didn't want anyone to know. It was my secret. Jason's child was now growing inside me. Funny how a one night stand left me pregnant. But noone knew. My baby and I will be ok.

The cops started leading me into my cell and I walked in. I went down the pathway of hell. I went to hell and there was no way out.

The End