Living Sunshine
Author: Gaarasama
Email: angelayahoo888 at hotmail dot com
Summary: Naruto had a horrible past, a past untouched. Will Sasuke manage to uncover the truth, and make Naruto realize that love applies to anyone, no matter who or what gender you are? (sasunaru) (yaoi)
Disclaimer: All characters are property of Masashi Kishimoto. The plot belongs to me. Oh and the poems belong to me too.
Legend/Key (for stupid people who can't figure it out by themselves):
"talking"
'thoughts'
narration
flashback/dream
word(number) (there is a footnote at the end of the story)
Name's POV (point of view)
(A/N: author's notes)
song lyrics
hogo-chan, as much as I love it when gay guys go home and just fuck away, I can't. Because I want this story to have a plot, not just mindless sex, and in order to do that, I need a few more chapters before they can begin to fuck like rabbits. :D hehe...can't wait. Just out of curiosity, why don't you create a fanfiction account? Since you like it so much. You can be my writing buddy! Okay maybe not, but you can get all the ideas out of your head...
Yes Yaoilover S, it is very cute.
Tamara2187, fuckass turned out to be a very addictive word and I just kept saying it. It was my word of the week along with awesome and dude.
Redroseprincess678, I agree with you totally, they're totally in denial!
Jiyu Hatell Kodai: Thanks dude, I'll check it out.
For the past week, I've downloaded so much hentai I'm sick of naked guys. I've seen waaaaaaaaay too many of them. But they were very good. YEAH, GAY HENTAI ALL THE WAY!
You know, I'm very unsecretive. I told so many people in my class that I watched that...
That's a very stupid thing to do, neh?
Anyways, on with the story!
List of Fame:
Many thanks to hogo-chan, shizuka-na-korosu, Yaoilover S, Tamara2187, Redroseprincess678, WindDragon0131, Jiyu Hatell Kodai, emily, and gothangel123. Glad you like the story.
Chapter 4: Challenge
Sasuke's POV
I sat on a chair, watching the blond mess sleep on my bed. Naruto's been asleep for nearly three days now, and I'm beginning to wonder if he'll ever wake up. I considered taking him to the hospital, but every time I try to pick him up, he'd latch on to me and drag me down to sleep with him. Trust me, I tried dragging him to the hospital attached to me, but we couldn't walk through the door without my legs turning into jelly and my brain turning into mush. He's just so cute asleep. I hope he's okay though, I don't know what I'd do if something happened to him. Besides, I still need to find out what the big secret was.
I sighed and looked at him again, his blond hair resting against his angelic face. I reach out my hand to stroke his cheek, but right before I reach him, his eyelids flickered and I drew back my hand as if I was burnt. He looked around confusingly until his eyes finally focused on me. "S…Sasuke?"
'Thank god.' "Hn?"
"Where am I?"
"You're at my house."
"And why the fuck am I here?"
I was hurt. It was as if he struck me across the face. 'He hates me…' I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say.
"Well?"
I still couldn't say anything. I just sat there, staring at him. It's as if someone stapled my mouth shut.
"Jeez man, what the fuck is your problem? Why the fuck am I here?"
"Because, dobe, you're an idiot who couldn't take care of himself without me." I almost flinched. I can't believe I said that. I could've sworn I saw a look of sadness flicker across his face. But it was gone as quickly as it came and was replaced by a look of anger.
"Well I didn't fucking ask you to save me!"
"You were practically begging me to."
Naruto's eye twitched. "SHUT UP! I'm leaving!"
Naruto jumped out of bed, yelped, and jumped back in bed clutching the covers. "Why am I naked?" He asked carefully.
I blushed, "Because your clothes were soaked in blood."
"Yeah right, I bet you're a fucking pervert and just wanted to see my body!"
"Hn. Like I'd want to see that body." I said sarcastically. 'THAT'S NOT TRUE! I LOVE YOUR BODY, I JUST WANNA FUCK IT!' My inner voice practically screamed. I ignored it. I can't tell Naruto how much I love him; he'll just be disgusted with me. After all, he does hate me. I inwardly sighed, "Don't flatter yourself."
"Well you're body's not that much of prize either!" Naruto retorted.
I raised an eyebrow, "Oh really?"
"Yes really!"
I walked towards him. 'Worst come to worst, I can just say I never back down from a challenge, right?' I grabbed his chin and forced my lips upon his, kissing him to the best of my ability. My other hand reached out, bringing his hand to my crotch and moved it up and down. I moaned into the kiss.
Naruto's eyes widened and he struggled. It hurt me that he was resisting so much, but I wasn't about to give up. I kissed him harder, and gently stroked him. Finally he gave in and leaned into the kiss. It took all my self-control to pull away from him and say, "You don't seem to mind it so much. I'd say you rather like it."
Naruto reached up and touched his lips, "W…why did you do that?" He asked, obviously confused.
"Because, dobe, I never back down from a challenge." I smirk and walk out of the room, my heart throbbing against my chest, my hands aching to touch him, caress him, and fuck him. But I can't. Even if he didn't seem to mind it at the moment, he'll hate me for it later. If we do have sex, I want him to be willing. Right now I have to go relieve myself.
Naruto's POV
Naruto's Dream…(1)
Sitting on this broken swing
Alone and so afraid
Watching all the other kids
The pain will never fade
I don't get what makes me
So different from the rest
I guess they'll never accept me
I guess it's for the best
Every time I'm walking here
They'd look at me and stare
As though I am a monster
Too horrific to compare
Staring in the distance
Watching from afar
Look at all the pain you've caused
Look at this deep scar
Every day I hope
For love and for care
But all I get in return
Is sadness and despair
End Dream…
Black.
That's all I see, black. Darkness consuming me. I can't see anything but this hazy smoke in front of me. Blocking out all senses.
I see something, and struggle to open my eyes. My eyelids flutter, and I open them, the bright light blinding me. I look around the room, confused as to where I was, until my eyes focused on a figure, "S…Sasuke?"
"Hn?"
'He's so emotionless towards me…he's just like everyone else. He hates me…' "Where am I?" I ask.
"You're at my house."
"And why the fuck am I here?" I can't let him hear what I truly want to say, or see how weak I truly am. So I substitute it with harsh words and bitter blows.
He didn't say anything. Does he really hate me so much that he won't even talk to me?
"Well?" I ask, hoping for an answer, anything except for the awkward silence. But I get nothing in return. He just sits there, staring at me.
"Jeez man, what the fuck is your problem? Why the fuck am I here?" I'm getting annoyed. I hate this. I hate it! I hate how everyone hates me! I just wish it'd end, I just wish it never happened…
"Because, dobe, you're an idiot who couldn't take care of himself without me." I was crushed. He really does hate me. I start to get mad, "Well I didn't fucking ask you to save me!"
"You were practically begging me to."
My eye twitched, "SHUT UP! I'm leaving!"
I jumped out of bed, but realized something very disturbing, yelped, and jumped back in bed, where I can hide behind the covers. "Why am I naked?" I ask carefully.
I could've sworn he blushed.
"Because your clothes were soaked in blood."
"Yeah right, I bet you're a fucking pervert and just wanted to see my body!" 'I know that's not true, but my mouth was just moving by itself, I couldn't stop it!'
"Hn. Like I'd want to see that body." He said sarcastically, "Don't flatter yourself."
'He didn't have to be so harsh about it!' I blinked back my tears and retorted, "Well you're body's not that much of prize either!"
He raised an eyebrow, "Oh really?"
"Yes really!"
He walked towards him. 'Why? What's he doing? No! Go away!' He grabbed my chin and forced his lips on mine, kissing me, his tongue caressing the inside of my mouth. My brain wasn't working. It was my first kiss and I wasn't prepared for it. His other hand reached out, bringing my hand to his crotch and moved it up and down. He moaned into the kiss.
The moan awakened something inside of me. My eyes widened and I struggled. I couldn't stand it! This was probably some sick joke again, just like what those guys were doing to me before! They just want me to think that there's actually someone who loves me, and than crush my dreams! Laughing at me, like it was pathetic that I even thought someone could love me. My eyes begin to water. He kissed him harder, and stroked me. I finally gave in and leaned into the kiss. I couldn't help it. He was just so good!
But just as I did that, he pulled away and said, "You don't seem to mind it so much. I'd say you rather like it."
'Here it comes, the laugh.' I reached up and touched my lips, "W…why did you do that?"
"Because, dobe, I never back down from a challenge." He smirked and walked out of the room. I stared after him. My tears spilling down my cheeks. 'I knew it…he didn't love me after all. I was so stupid! How could I have done that! Now he'll laugh at me, just like everyone else!'
I dropped to the floor, my legs unable to support me anymore. I curl up into the fetal position and cried, my sobs raking through me, clawing gashes through my insides, ripping holes in my heart.
My body is so empty
So dark
And cold
Not filled with happiness
And laughter
As one would've thought
Instead it's a lonely pit
Burying my deepest emotions
And this mask that I wear
This smile
This laugh
Is just used to cover up my sadness
Pranks
Jokes
Stupidity
It's all fake
I'm sad
Hurt
Angered
At how much people hate me
For no reason at all
What have I done to them?
What have I said?
What have I committed?
To make them hate me so much?
I don't understand
Why they're so mean
Why they treat me like this
Treat me like shit
Treat me like crap
Like the dirt under their nails
Like an insignificant speck of dust
I cry
I scream
I laugh
I die
What can I do?
To end this?
What can I say?
To stop this?
This taunting
Bullying
Hating...
TBC…
(1) I know it's weird that Naruto's dream is a poem, but dreams are different for everyone. And Naruto's just happen to be a wild mass of emotions. And rather than a whole bunch of words that don't make sense, I decided to organize it in a poem. (Actually I wrote this before; I just thought that it'd fit, so I put it in.)
Oh by the way, if you didn't read the Naruto's POV because you thought there's no point since it's the same as Sasuke's POV. Read it. It contains Naruto's feelings and experiences. I'm not sure, but it might be useful information to understand the later chapters.
Wheeeeeeeee, long chapter! Reply people, or no update! Hehe…
Hey dudes, I was just rereading my story, and I realized that the first few chapters REALLY REALLY sucked. So now I'm going to go back and rewrite it. So Chapter 5 won't be coming out for a while. Because, well, my teacher just changed the due date on this HUGE project that we had to do from the end of February to the end of January, and I didn't even start it. So now, I have to do a LOT of homework, and I have to rewrite all the chapters. So it will be a while. Be patient okay? And please reread the first few chapters when I finish rewriting them, it'll be different, and might effect the outcome of the story.
