Hey guys…this is my new story…I know I haven't updated some of my others but I'm working on it. And please, please review. Thanks a bunch
Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters…even though I do wish I owned Mike Lobel…lol j/k…
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Alex's Point Of View
"shit, shit, shit, shit, shit" I said to myself over and over again. I looked down at the pregnancy test. The little thing said that I was pregnant. But I couldn't be, we used protection. And now of all times now? Right after I find out that he was cheating on me with my best friend all for some stupid bracelet. For some stupid bracelet that she wanted to show off, well I hope to her it was worth seeing me hurting inside. The thought of seeing her and jay having sex still sickens me. I can't believe that the two people I trusted most would do that to me. And they know the shit I have to deal with at home. But do they care? No they don't, their so god damn selfish.
Amy had been my best friend ever since we were in around grade 2 and everyone was making fun of her because she had a gap in her teeth. They would pick on her like there was no tomorrow. But who stood up for her? That's right I did. I told anyone that dared to make fun of her would be feeling some real pain and I was telling the truth. I didn't like seeing this little girl crying, even though we were the same age I felt protective of her. I don't know why though but ever since then me and Amy had always been together, she was there for me and I was there for her. She was one of the only people I told everything to, she knew how it was at my house so on the weekends I would usually spend the night at her house to get away from it.
Jay and I first met in grade 8. I had a little bit of a crush on him, we were friends at first but we started dating once he told this guy that was bothering me to go out with him that if he didn't leave me alone he would regret it. After that we realized we were perfect for each other. Jay fought any guy that would come near me or say something to me. And I would fuck up any girl that dared hit on jay. He was mine and I wanted to keep it that way. At least I did until this year. I remember all our late night calls to each other because our parents were either trashed or high as hell when they came home. He was the only person I ever cried in front of when my mom was admitted to the hospital because of my step-dad.
How could I have been so careless? I should have known that no guy could be trusted. And they wonder why I hate people so much or why I can be the biggest bitch ever?
(Jay's point of view)
Man I really fucked up. I lost the girl I loved the most. Over some stupid shit, I can't believe I cheated on her. Sure I had done it a bunch of times but I didn't think she would find out. But when she did the hurt in her eyes was just to much for me. I had sworn to her that I would never let anyone hurt her. Yet I'm the one that did this time. She was the only girl that I had ever told everything too. We weren't like the rest of these pathetic couples in the school, we understood each other we didn't need to that whole romantic type relationship.
I still remember beating that shit out of the kid that had tried to get with her after she told him no. I just flipped. From that moment on I knew that I loved her. She was always there for me, when mom and dad came home drunk off their asses I called her first. And she would calm me down, but I lost all that.
I lost it for what? For a couple sluts who would give me a blow job. Even though me and Alex had sex, I still had the need to be with other people. It made me feel needed, or rather wanted. But none of those girls were there for me after that. They were just a quick fuck. She was the only girl who was always there for me.
(Alex's point of view)
I'm pregnant. I'm pregnant. What am I going to do? Mom is going to kick me out, I know she will. And if she doesn't then my wonderful step-dad will make sure that she does. The jackass controls her whole life. I don't see how she does it, she just sits back and lets him hit her. But I can't really say anything…on occasions when he gets pissed off at me he'll hit me too. I've never told anyone about that though. If I would have told Jay he would have come right over and beat the shit out of him and I really didn't need that.
I'm sitting in the bathroom just crying my eyes out. I hear mom knock on the door saying someone's here for me. I just tell her to tell them to go to hell and leave me alone. She just says that they said they really needed to see me. I told her I'd be out in a minute and to tell them to wait in my room. After wiping some of my smeared eyeliner off and reapplying some I head into my room. I was shocked as hell to see who it was sitting there on my bed.
(Jay's point of view)
I don't know what I'm doing here. I know she doesn't want to see me. I could see why. After all the shit I did to her, hell I wouldn't want to see me either. But I still came. I'm sitting on her bed waiting for her to come in. my hearts racing and I don't know what to say or do. I don't think I've ever been this nervous before in my life. What do I say? How can I make her forgive me?
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Well there it is. The first chapter. Please tell me what you think. I don't care what you have to say. Just tell me something to make it better. Thanks.
-Taryn
