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(Jay's Point Of View)
The look on her face when she saw me was unforgettable. It was a mixture of anger, hate, hurt, and surprise. She just looked at me and I actually felt it inside.
"Jay what the hell do you want?" I hear her voice crack when she says it and it makes my heart sink even lower than it already is. All I have to do is tell her I'm sorry. That's all I came to say.
"Alex. Please give me two minutes of your time?" The look on her face was that of a "no way in hell" response. "please?" oh god I've resorted to begging. Maybe if she sees me beg she'll rethink her answer.
"Fine" From the sound of her voice I can tell she doesn't even want to hear my voice, let alone see me in her room.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry about everything. I didn't mean to hurt you. It just sort of happened. I wish I could take it back. Lexxi I love you." Her face is emotionless, I don't know whether to take that as a good or bad sign. After a minute of, I guess, her thinking she spoke.
"Your Sorry. Your Sorry. What is that suppose to make it all better? And only people who are friends or boyfriends can call me Lexxi and trust me you don't qualify as either. Fuck you…you think that you can just come in here saying your sorry and think I'll forgive you? If you honestly think that than you don't know me at all" her voice was so full of rage, and I was the reason. I hate myself for putting her through this, I hate myself for doing all the stupid shit I did. Why do I have to be such a dumb ass?
(Alex's point of view)
He's sorry? He's fucking sorry? That isn't going to make shit better. He can tell that I'm mad and upset but he can't do anything about it because he's the reason behind it. "Get out." I say not looking him in the eye.
"Alex please" he starts to say but I cut him off before he can get any of it out. The jackass actually thinks I'm going to let him talk to me anymore.
"I said get the hell out of my fucking room" I move onto the bed laying down. Not looking up when I hear the door slam shut. It wasn't till then that I let the tears fall freely. I have to tell him. He has a right to know that he got me pregnant. But imagine how pissed off he would be if I hid if from him…this could be good. I'm going to put him through as much shit as he put me.
But I have to hide this from my parents too. Crap!!!!!! I run into the bathroom but I'm too late. I see mom holding up my pregnancy test. Her mouth was hanging down. I feel the tears streaming down my face but I do nothing to stop them. She just looks at me and knows that it's mine. "Alex" was all she said before she embraced me in a big hug. She knew what it was like to be a pregnant teen, seeing as to the fact that she had me when she was fifteen.
"mom…you can't tell Chad" I say, referring to my step-dad. "he'll kick me out…or worse"
"Alex baby he will eventually find out. But I will not tell him until it's necessary" Mom was still hugging me just stroking my hair. We heard Chad come in and slam the front door shut, he's pissed. Mom tells me to hide the pregnancy test and to not interfere if her and Chad get into a fight, she didn't want me to hurt the baby. I nod and go into my room. I hear him throw her against the wall and it takes all my strength not to go out there and beat the shit out of the bastard myself.
I lay down in bed that night and cry myself to sleep. Nothing is going how I had planned. Me and Jay were suppose to still be together. I wasn't suppose to be pregnant and I wasn't suppose to be laying in bed listening to my mother cry because of my step-dad. I eventually drifted into a deep sleep. I woke up the next morning with red puffy eyes. Shit everyone was going to figure out I was crying. But people could probably guess why. After I quickly get dressed I start my walk to school…no more rides from Jay.
By the time I get there people are just starting to walk into the building. Wow for once I'm actually early. Maybe this day won't be so bad. And no more partying for me. I'm putting this baby first, I will not, I repeat will not have this baby deal with the same shit that I did when I was little. When I walk to my locker I see Jay going to his, which is right next to mine. At first I was going to just go to class but then I decided I wasn't going to let some dickhead ruin my life.
(Jay's point of view)
I see her walking towards her locker and it's as if I'm in a trance. She looks so lost, so helpless. And I can't do a damn thing about it. I just want her back in my arms. That's all I want. I can tell she's been crying from her pink cheeks and red, puffy eyes. But I don't say anything. I just get my stuff and go to class. The part that sucks is that she's in 7 out of the 9 classes that I have. So I have to look at her sad face all day.
"Jay would you mind going up to the board and answering number seven for us?" Mr. Armstrong asked me, snapping me out of my dazed out phase and back to reality.
"how about no" I say. I see him roll his eyes before picking a different person. Truth was I didn't know what the hell we were doing. Just some shit I wasn't going to use in the future. After that class I go to shop, where Alex and Amy are my partners. This should be interesting.
"let's just get this over with" Alex says as she looks at me and Amy. But before we can respond I see her run into the girls bathroom. I wonder what's up…I watch as Amy runs in after her. Bad move on Amy's part. She's really going to regret going in after Alex.
"what the hell are you looking at?" Amy says when she gets back. I can tell right away that she's pissed off because Alex probably yelled at her or something.
"what's wrong with Alex?" I don't even bother looking up knowing the look that amy was giving me.
"why do you care?" was all she said. I shot a dirty look at her. Couldn't she see that I still loved Alex. "you are the one that cheated on her."
"doesn't mean that I still don't care about her. Please just tell me what happened in the bathroom"
"fine. I walked in and she was puking, mumbling something to herself about morning sickness. And when she saw me she flipped out" My eyes went wide when I heard Amy say morning sickness. Was Alex pregnant? No…she couldn't be…she would have told me…wouldn't she have? Then again after all that shit I put her through I could see why she wouldn't tell me. I walk out Shop, not even bothering to say anything to Mr. Ehl. The school suddenly feels like I prison. I punch the locker as hard as I could, drawing blood.
"Jay?" I hear someone say behind me. It's Alex…what do I do?
"Alex, what do you want?" wait that wasn't suppose to come out so mean-sounding. Great this is a great way to get her to talk to me again. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to snap like that. But why are you talking to me? I thought you hated my guts"
(Alex's Point Of View)
I saw Jay punch that locker. I could tell right away he was mad. But I decided to over and say something anyway. When he snapped at me I almost lost it. Who was he to yell at me? But after he quickly apologized I forgot about it.
"This has nothing to do with me or you. It has to do with what's growing inside of me"…wait to go Alex you weren't suppose to tell him. You were suppose to make him feel pain like you did after hearing what he did. Oh well…
"Alex Are you pregnant?" Jay outright said. I did but didn't want to answer the question so I just nodded my head. "is it mine?". That just struck me the wrong way and I grew furious.
"is it yours? Of course it's your fucking kid I didn't cheat on you like you did on me. I'm not some cheap slut who fucks any guy that will come to her. You are the only guy I have ever had sex with Jay. And your asking me if its yours? That's bull shit I can't believe you actually think I would sleep with other guys." With that I turned, I didn't even care anymore. As far as I'm concerned he's dead to me. I hate him…no I don't. I love him…no. no I don't not anymore…
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-Taryn
