Hey. Thanks so much for the reviews…I really appreciate it. Okay so here's another chapter. I hope you guys like it. oh yea and the song that's in here is "...Not Forever" by Tsunami bomb.

Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters…even though I do wish I owned Mike Lobel…lol j/k…

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(Jay's Point of View)

Why did I ask her if it was mine? I watched her retreating figure. It wasn't until she had walked out the door did I let the tears come. I didn't even care anymore if anyone saw me. I lost everything I had, I had a right to cry about that. After sitting there for ten minutes I got up and went out to my car. I was just sitting out there when Green Peace decided to come and talk to me. I rolled my eyes when I heard her say hi. I really didn't want to deal with her shit now.

"hey Jay what's wrong?" she opens the door without even asking, climbing into the passengers seat. I want to tell her to get out, but I don't even have the energy to fight with her.

"none of your god damn business Emma" maybe that will make her leave. I see her sad face when I say it but I don't even care. I don't care about Emma, I never did. I start to get lost in my own thoughts and don't even realize that she's still sitting there until I see Alex walking up to the car. I slight smile comes across my face but when I see her shake her head at me and turn and walk the other way I realized that Emma is still in the car. "GOD DAMNIT!!! Emma get out. Just get the fuck out of the car". Shock and horror spreads across her face as she gets out just looking at me with her sad eye.

I don't even care. All that I care about if how every time I try to fix things with Alex I fuck up some how. First I cheat on her, then I ask her if the kid she's carrying is mine, and now this. Is it just not suppose to be? Is this the punishment I get for cheating on the one person I love the most?

(Alex's Point Of View)

I watch as he sits in his car with Emma of all people Emma? What the hell was she doing in there? Wait…I saw her wearing one of the bracelets that Amy used to wear. Oh my god…she…she went down on Jay. She gave my boyfriend head…I mean ex…I can't believe it. If I wasn't pregnant that girl would be feeling a lot of pain right around now. After I watch Jay and blonde bitch in his car I start walking to the ravine. I don't know why but I've always felt peaceful when I'm in the woods just by myself. But before I know it I feel someone behind me. Turning around it wasn't exactly who I expected.

"Alex…Can I talk to you?"

"what the hell do you want nature girl." I can't believe she has the audacity to come and try to talk to me. Who does she think she is?

"I just heard what happened with you and Jay and I wanted to say I'm sorry that he cheated on you" she doesn't even look into my eyes. That's bull shit.

"oh I bet you weren't sorry when you were giving him head were you Emma?" I turn my back to her and just take deep breaths to try not to get to angry. She starts to say something but I cut her off "just get the fuck away from me. I don't need your shitty apology at the moment, let me rephrase that, I don't need your shitty apology ever. I hear the leave rustle and I guess she left. Good thing I swear I would have flipped and it weren't for the baby.

I walked around the ravine for an house before I decided to go home. When I walk in I know that something isn't right. It wasn't till I got to the kitchen did I see Chad full of rage…he found the pregnancy test. "Fucking slut." He mumbled under his breath. He took a step towards me and I froze. "what couldn't keep your legs closed huh?" I start to back up but I hit the counter.

"Chad please don't" was all I could get out before I felt the blow of his hand on my face. Instantly my hand flies up to touch the area he slapped. The tears come next, but he doesn't care, he never does.

"get the hell out of my house. And don't worry I'll make sure your mom finds out how much of a slut you are." I was going to say something about how she knew but I didn't want her to have to deal with Chad later if he knew that she kept it from him…even if only for a day. "I don't ever want to see you again. You're a disgrace to all of us" he turns and goes back to his beer and TV. I run up to my room grabbing my book bag and stuffing my clothes and CDs inside. After I was sure I got pretty much everything I walked out of the door. Not bothering to look back…I had no where to go. My friends left me, my boyfriend cheated on me, and my parents kicked me out.

I just walked. I had no idea where my feet were taking me but I didn't hesitate. I kept going, all I wanted to do was get away from everything. It wasn't till I got there did I realize where my feet took me. I was standing in front of the school. No one was there at this hour so I just sat on the steps, hugging my knees to my chest and just let all of my tears out. This was definitely the most I've ever cried. Eventually I laid myself down on the cold concrete and put my head phones on…it was really ironic the song that came on…

I thought that this was solid
Stability and safety sitting in my hang
Just take a look at your life
Your all alone!

Who'll be there when I need someone
Count on nobody and no one will let you down
I don't care, Just let me go
I don't need this anymore

Love is not forever
Friendship is not forever
There is nothing set in stone
You're on your own

Dependence is followed by weakness
Don't be your own hostage
If I know so many
Why don't they know me
They don't know me

Now I know what we're made of
Confusion, Complication, and Uncertainty
I thought this was real, I was wrong
So I don't' know

(Jay's Point of View)

I drive around just trying to find something to do. I was going to go to the ravine but decided against it and I was just going to go sit in front of the school like I did sometimes when I wanted to think. When I get out of the car my jaw dropped when I saw someone lying on the steps listening to their CD player. What was Alex doing here? Shouldn't she be at home? I guess she hasn't noticed me because it looks like she's still staring up at the stars. When I get up to the stairs I sit down right by her head and she jumped probably the highest I've ever seen her when she saw me.

"Jay what are you doing here?" she sits up and I see she has a red hand print on her face…who the hell was that from?

"I usually come here to think. What are you doing here?" I notice her book bag which looks like it's over stuffed with clothes and some of her personal things. Did she run away?

"nothing." She simply states, I'm afraid to say the wrong thing so instead I stay quiet. But I guess the quiet is unnerving to her because I can almost see her fidgeting. It was then that I saw that she had goose bumps on her arms and she wasn't wearing a jacket. I take off my hoody and offer it to her.

"Alex please for once don't fight me and just put the damn jacket on" she reluctantly takes it and puts it on. "so you want to tell me how you got that hand print on your cheek" I knew I was pushing it but I didn't care.

(Alex's point of view)

Wow doesn't Jay have great timing? I wish I could tell him how I feel, I wish I could trust him but I can't. I won't let myself get hurt by him again. He asks about the mark Chad left but I don't know how to answer it. I don't want to tell him but I know that I'm going to. "Chad" was all I got out before I saw the fire burning in Jay's eyes.

"That son of a bitch hit you?" Jay asks. He just looks at me pissed off and just about ready to rip someone's head off.

"before you go and start to get all protect boyfriend on me, remember you no longer have that privilege." I didn't even have the energy to think of a better come back. In the past couple of days it seems like I'm just there, I'm almost emotionless. Sure I cry but its because I don't know what else to do.

"Alex, I love you…I'm sorry about all this shit. I didn't mean for any of it to happen. And I want you to know that I'm going to support whatever you choose to do with this baby okay?" I noticed how he changed the subject really quick. I hate when he does that, I hate when he goes all sensitive on me. I mean I can deal with someone yelling at me or making stupid comments but I didn't know how to respond to something like that.

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