Hey. This chapter mainly focuses on Alex. And thanks for all the reviews…
Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters…even though I do wish I owned Mike Lobel…lol j/k…
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(Alex's Point Of View)
"I want to keep the baby but I don't want to give him or her a terrible life. I want them to have the best things. And I know I can't give them that." I look into jay's eyes and for some reason things didn't seem to feel so bad anymore. As unlike me that I sounded I don't care. I felt his arms around me and I just collapsed into him and sobbed.
"Shh it's okay Lexxi, I'm here" he kept saying over and over again. The little voice in my head kept screaming that I shouldn't let him get close to me again because in it's all going to end the same.
"no Jay…I'm not doing this again" I stand up, grab my bag and run. I couldn't do it again, if it happened once it's most likely going to happen again. After running for maybe twenty minutes I run out of breath and stop. "shit" I say to myself. I'm suppose to work tonight. It's my only way of getting money so I figure out where I ran to and catch the bus to the mall. By the time I get there I'm ten minutes late but I see Paige had covered for me. I quickly change and take my place behind the counter. "sorry I'm late". I said to Paige as I was filling a bag of popcorn.
"It's okay" she says back. She looks at me and I can tell that she senses something's wrong but she doesn't say anything about it. The next hour was very hectic but then everyone was in their movies and we had about 40 minutes till the next wave of people came in so we resorted to talking.
"so what's up" I say to her, maybe if we talk it will make the time go by faster. Wait…if it goes faster it means I have to figure out wear I'm staying sooner…
"nothing really…what about you?" should I tell that truth or do I lie? I say I lie this time.
"nothing…" I know she can tell I'm lying but I don't care. she might seem like an uptight bitch but when you get to know her she's not that bad.
"bull" she simply states. I look away, I was right. She could see right through me. she just always seemed to be able to see through lies. I don't know how she does it. "Alex what happened to your cheek. And why does it look like when you came in here you had been crying?"
"it's none of your business Paige."
"this is why you don't have any friends Alex. You push people away when they try to talk to talk to you or even try to help you." She snapped at me. Who the hell was she to tell me why I don't have any friends?
"I'm sorry if I'm not in the best of moods Paige and I if I don't feel like talking. Seeing as to the fact that I just got kicked out of my fucking house, I have no where to go, I'm pregnant, and my boyfriend had sex with my best friend. So I don't really feel like talking." I yelled it at her. I let all of it out and it felt good. I didn't even want to hear what she had to say so I left, I went in to tell Mary that I wasn't feeling good and asked if I could have the rest of the night off. Which she let me, but I think she only did because she heard what I had said to Paige out there.
(Jay's Point Of View)
Why won't she let me get close to her? I said I was sorry…I want to be there for her and the baby. But I don't know how to. Eventually I find myself in the ravine watching all the couples go into the van. Some chicks that I had gotten blow jobs before tried to get me in there but I just blew them off. I drank beer after beer until I had gotten myself into a drunken stupor. Nothing mattered anymore. So who cared if I drank like a fish? Who cared if I made it home alive? No one did, so why should I?
(Alex's Point Of View)
After deliberating it for a long time I decided to go to Ellie's and see if I could stay there. Since I didn't have any more money to take the bus I had to walk, it took maybe an hour or two to get there. "hey Ellie" I said when she answered the door, surprised to see me standing there.
"Alex? What are you doing here?". She looks like she was getting ready for bed, which is understandable since it looked like it was about 11 o'clock at night.
"El can I please stay the night. I promise I'll be out in the morning" I say quickly hoping that if I get it over with faster she'll say yes. I see a broad smile spread across her face and I finally take a deep breath knowing that she's going to say yes.
"of course you can Alex, like I told you before anytime that you need to stay here you can. Here you take the bed, I'll sleep on the couch." Why would she put herself on the couch for me? I'm nothing special, according to Paige I had no friends. And yet Ellie was willing to get up her bed.
"No El, its your house you take the bed. Don't you even argue with me on that one" I joke, but I still hope that she doesn't argue. We walk into the house and we both take a seat on the couch.
"all right I won't fight you on it on one condition." I know she's got something up her sleeve… "you tell me why you're here and why you look so down" I know I can trust Ellie so I decide to let her in on everything.
"fine. It all started yesterday…I hadn't gotten my period in two months so I took a pregnancy test and it came out positive. Jay came over and tried to apologize for everything. I get pissed and freak out at him. He leaves and today in shop I ended up telling him that I'm pregnant. He asks me if its his, I yell at him and leave. Then later I went home and my step-dad found my pregnancy test. He kicks me out, I go to the school to think and Jay finds me. I tell him that I couldn't do it again. And then I go to work where Paige basically told me that I have no friends. And I walked here" it feels really good to let all of it out.
"Alex…Paige is wrong, Jay's a jerk along with your step-dad, and you can stay here for as long as you want. You shouldn't believe Paige, because I'm your friend." She gets up and tosses me a pair of her pajama pants and without talking I went into the bathroom and get changed. It felt good to have a friend again.
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There you guys go. And please review…
-Taryn
