I am so sorry that I haven't updated in a couple days. But I had a three day weekend, mixed with laziness, and writers block results in Taryn not writing anything. And I'm especially sorry to Unwanted Souless Freak…
Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters…even though I do wish I owned Mike Lobel…lol j/k…
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(Alex's Point Of View)
I was really going to talk to him. I wasn't going to freak out at him or run out. I was going to act like an adult and talk it out, even though I was never really good with talking. I was always better with my fists but now wasn't the time for that. I look into his eyes waiting for him to start but I guess he was waiting for me so I started.
"Jay." Was all that came out. I didn't know exactly where to start. Here we go… "it really hurt me when I found out that you cheated on me. I know your sorry and all but it still doesn't change the fact that you did it." I stopped. Somewhat hoping that he would say something, which he did.
"I know. I know I fucked up. And you have no idea how much I regret that." That was all he said. How was I suppose to respond to that?
"I will never admit this to anyone else but you did break my heart." He started to say something but I cut him off. "Maybe if you hadn't of chosen to do it with my best friend it would have been different. Why her? Out of all the other girls you could have picked up had to choose my best friend. That was what hurt the most. I trusted both of you." I felt my tears rolling down my cheeks but I didn't bother to wipe them away. "but I still have one question for you. Why? Why did you do it? What did I do wrong?"
"nothing. You did nothing wrong. I'm stupid, I didn't realize what I had until I lost it. I didn't mean for it to happen with Amy it just kind of happened. But there is one other person that I didn't tell you about." I already knew what he was going to say. I had hoped that maybe I had been wrong to accuse Emma of giving Jay a blowjob but this proved that I was right.
"Emma" I simply stated. I watched as his mouth dropped open. He was clueless as to how I knew about her. Does he not think that those stupid bracelets give it away? Before he could even ask I told him how I knew. "I saw her wearing one of the bracelets that Amy used to wear so I figured that she must have done something with you to get it." He nodded his head. "anyway off the subject of her. I've decided that I want to keep this baby. I know I'm not seen as a good mother-to-be but I don't care. All I care about is this kid."
"I'm behind you 100. You know I got that job at McDonald's, not for money for me but for money for you and this baby." He actually did that for me and our baby?
(Jay's Point of View)
I can't believe that she knows about Emma and that she doesn't even seem to care. I'm happy that she chose to keep the baby. It hurt me when she told me I broke her heart and I know that took a lot for her to admit that because Alex wasn't someone to ever show in anyway that she was weak or that someone could get inside her head. I was hoping that we could get back together but I doubt that she wants that right now. I miss her being around. I miss her laugh. I miss everything about her. Man when did I become so mushy?
"Alex I love you. I want you to know that." I know it sounds cheesy but I do love her. I love her more than I thought I ever could.
"I love you to Jay. But right now I just want us to be friends." Friends? I might be able to do that. Scratch that, I will do that. I'll show her how good of a friend I could be.
"I can do that. I just want you back in my life. I want to be there for you and this baby." I was really turning into a sappy mushy type of guy…what happened to me? I used to be some badass kid who didn't take shit from anyone. But here I was trying to prove myself to someone. I looked around the room and noticed that it was already one in the morning and I had to be at work at 7. "I'm sorry Lexxi but I have to bail. I've got to work in the morning."
"See you later Jay"
"Later…Friend" I had realized that she didn't correct me when I called her Lexxi and I saw her smile when I said friend. That had been the first genuine smile I had seen on her in so long. It was great to see it again. I walked out of the door and into my car. The whole ride home it probably looked like I was smiling like a retard but I didn't care. I had been given another chance to possibly be with the best chick in the world.
(Alex's Point Of View)
Me and Jay are going to be friends. It felt good to say that…Friends. The way he had just agreed that it would be good to be friends was amazing to me. I saw that it caught him off guard when I didn't correct him when he called me Lexxi but seeing as to the fact that we were friends I thought I would let him. Then when he called me friend it made me smile, actually smile, which I hadn't done in a long time. I was sitting there for a little bit when I heard Ellie come in. I'm guessing that she want some details…
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There you guys go. And thanks so much for the reviews…I'll hopefully update sometime this week…if I'm not feeling lazy…
-Taryn
