Hey guys. Heres the next chapter…I tried to make it longer…the song at the end is "Mary Jane" by Alanis Morissette…
Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters…even though I do wish I owned Mike Lobel…lol j/k…
(Alex's Point of View)
"the home pregnancy test was right" it really hit me then. I was having a baby at 16. How was I going to do it? What about money? What about raising it? I think it hit Jay too because he looked zoned out and in thought. We were really going to do this. But what if we fuck up? What if we give our kid a terrible life. What if were like our parents were? I'm so scared of messing things up. But I'm happy at the same time.
"really?" Jay finally said a couple of minutes later. I nodded my head and he stood up from the couch. He picked me up and started spinning me around. From the smile on his face I could tell he was happy. We're having a baby together and I loved him. We spun around for a couple seconds and then he set me down. I pulled him into Ellie's room so we could talk without disturbing Ellie and Sean who were still asleep.
"Jay. I love you" wow this was really hard to get out. I don't want to get hurt again but if I don't take the risk I might not really be happy again. "I think that I might be ready to trust you again. But if you so much as mess up once I'm done and this is your last chance."
"Lexxi I promise I won't cheat on you again. From now on I want what's best for you and this baby. And I want you to know that I really do love you and Amy and Emma meant nothing to me." he wrapped his arms around my waist and leaned in and kissed me. When we were really starting to get into it I thought I heard giggling coming from the doorway. When I pulled away for a second I saw Ellie and Sean standing there. Yet again. Yet again they come in at the worst time. I walked over to Ellie and whispered in her ear, "do me an favor you and sean go watch so tv for a little while. I'll pay you back later." She nodded her head and dragged Sean away.
"now where were we?" Jay asked when I walked back over to him. He leaned in and we started kissing again. We tried to move towards the bed but instead ended up tripping over the bottom and he fell on top of me. "did I hurt you? Are you okay? What about the baby?" he was so cute when he got like that.
"relax babe you don't weigh that much. I'm fine don't worry about it." This time I kissed him and I started to take off his shirt when he stopped me.
"is it okay for the baby?" I shrugged my shoulders and he just gave me that look. "we aren't having sex until we know if its going to hurt the baby or not." He was not serious…Jay actually turning down sex? That was almost unheard of…
"Jay?" I looked him in the eye, was he really serious? "your serious aren't you?"
"yea I really am Alex. I told you I'm putting you and this baby first and I mean it. That means no sex until we know for sure."
(Jay's Point of View)
I'm actually proud of myself. I actually turned down sex for once. I don't think that's ever happened in my 17 years of living. Alex actually pouted at me when I told her that we had to know for sure first. She got so cute when she pouted.
"come on lets go out there before were tempted again." I pulled her up by her hand and we walked out in the living room to find Sean and Ellie making out on the couch. I looked at Alex and we both started to laugh…now who were the ones getting caught? Sean finally pulled himself away from Ellie long enough to see us standing there laughing at them, he gave me one of the dirtiest looks I think I've ever seen. Now he knows what its like when they walk in on me and Lexxi.
"Hey guys. What's up?" Alex put on a fake smile and said it really cheerfully, she went and sat down on the couch right in between them. Both of them rolled their eyes at her and stood up.
"Yo man its 4 o'clock…we have to be at work by 5. we better get going. So slip your girlfriend some tongue and lets go." Sean said to me as he kissed Ellie one last time and walked out of the door.
"alright Lexxi I'll come by tomorrow to pick you and Ellie up for school around 7:30 so be ready." I gave her a quick kiss and I was out the door with Sean. I really didn't want to leave but I know I had to. And tomorrow we have school…I wonder if Alex was planning on telling anyone about the pregnancy. I have no problem with her telling people but its completely up to her.
When me and Sean got back to my house I took a shower and got dressed. I was working until 11 tonight so I got off fairly easy since Sean was working the window and wouldn't get off till 1 when that closed. By the time we got in there the place was over crowded with people there getting their dinners. As fast as I could I went into the back and checked in then went to the cash register to begin my shift. Sean looked like he wasn't having that much trouble and I could see a couple of teenage girls were trying to flirt with him when he handed them their food but he just blew them off.
(Alex's point of View)
Once the guys left me and Ellie cleaned up the place and hung out. Afterward we decided to make some food…which was just ramen noodles but those things are good.
"Are you scared?" I asked her while we were eating. I was sure that I was scared as hell about the whole baby thing. It really did freak me out.
"I am, somewhat, but I'm happy too because I know that I love Sean and I'm hoping that he really does love me back. But I guess you could say I'm scared…I'm scared about when we actually have to give birth…its something so big coming out of something so small" she shuddered a little when she said that last bit and I started to laugh.
"you do have a point there. But that's what the drugs are for. I'm definitely getting something. There is no way possible I can put up with that much pain." It was the truth…no way in hell was I going through labor without drugs…
"yea I know what you mean. So what happened in that bedroom. On my bed?" Ellie gave me that look that meant she knew something had to of happened in there.
"Jay actually turned down sex." I watched as her jaw dropped and her eyes went wide and I had to laugh at her. "he said that when we found out if it hurt the baby we would see if we would have sex. And yes I'm just as shocked as you. Jay Hogart actually turned down sex. That has to be a first. And what was going on out here if I may ask?"
"nothing" I rolled my eyes at her and she shook her head at me. "Sean said the same thing Jay said." We both looked at each other and started laughing.
"Man there's either something wrong with me and you or with them. But I can't believe Sean Cameron actually said no to sex. They must really want what's best for our babies then." I can not believe that both of our boyfriends turned down sex. It's hard to believe that Jay and Sean are actually excited that me and Ellie are pregnant. "I think I'm going to bed since its already 12 and we have school tomorrow. And don't forget El, Jay's coming to pick us up at 7:30 so we have to be ready."
"Alright. Good night Alex." I nodded my head at her and headed out to the living room so I could go to sleep. I slipped on my head phones and just listened to the words of the song…
What's the matter Mary Jane, you had a hard day
As you place the don't disturb sign on the door
You lost your place in line again, what a pity
You never seem to want to dance anymore
It's a long way down
On this roller coaster
The last chance streetcar
Went off the track
And you're on it
I hear you're counting sheep again Mary Jane
What's the point of trying to dream anymore
I hear you're losing weight again Mary Jane
Do you ever wonder who you're losing it for
Well it's full speed baby
In the wrong direction
There's a few more bruises
If that's the way
You insist on heading
Please be honest Mary Jane
Are you happy
Please don't censor your tears
You're the sweet crusader
And you're on your way
You're the last great innocent
And that's why I love you
So take this moment Mary Jane and be selfish
Worry not about the cars that go by
All that matters Mary Jane is your freedom
Keep warm my dear, keep dry
Tell me
Tell me
What's the matter Mary Jane...
There you guys go…hope it didn't suck to badly…review…please?
Taryn
