Hey guys…this chapter is told in not only Alex and Jay's point of views but Ellie and Sean's too. I don't really like this one too much…but I didn't know what else to write. And I decided to add a song to this chapter its "Nymphetamine" by Cradle of Filth…sorry if it sucks…

Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters…even though I do wish I owned Mike Lobel…lol j/k…


Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A 'V' of black swans
On with hope to the grave
All through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones

(Ellie's Point of View)

I walked out of my class a few minutes late because I had to talk about extra credit assignments with Miss Kwan when I did I saw Jay on the ground holding something. As I got closer I saw that he was holding Alex. What had happened?

"Jay what happened to her?" I ran up as fast as I could. She looked so pale and it looked like she had been clutching her stomach when she passed out.

"Emma kicked her in the stomach" No that bitch didn't. I don't care if I'm pregnant I'm getting that bitch. I wasn't usually the type to fight but when it came to my friends hell yea I would. Suddenly I grew furious, I went to go find Emma. On my way I ran into Manny so I asked her if she had seen Emma, she said that she had Media Immersions that period. So I went to the classroom and waited outside of the door until the period was over. Emma walked out with JT and Liberty, I grabbed her by her shoulders and slammed her against the wall.

"Ellie what the hell is your problem?" Before she could say anything I punched her as hard as I could in the stomach.

"Hey Emma tell me how it feels to be hit in the stomach? Or would you rather have me kick you like you did to Alex?" I punched her again and I didn't feel remorseful at all. She deserved it. But then I heard Sean calling me from behind and he pulled me away. Not even bothering to explain we met Jay out front where we drove over to the hospital.

Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again

(Sean's Point of View)

It shocked the hell out of me when I saw Ellie punching Emma. Ellie had always been more of a pacifist then a fighter. I couldn't believe that Emma and Alex got into a fight to begin with. And I felt horrible because it was basically my fault. If only I had walked away instead of saying yes when Emma asked if we could talk. God damn it. I feel so guilty, if it wasn't for me Alex wouldn't be in the hospital and Jay wouldn't be in the chair next to me crying his eyes out. He really did love her. The doctor then walked over to where we were sitting and asked if any of us were her legal guardians.

"Her parents kicked her out. she lives in an apartment with a friend" Jay responded. "But I'm her boyfriend. And I'm the father of her baby" the doctor nodded and told Jay to follow him. I hope it's good news…

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine

(Jay's Point of View)

I couldn't stop myself from shaking when I was following the doctor towards Alex's room. I swear if she or this baby aren't okay I don't know what I'm going to do. I was really looking forward to being a dad. Dr. Michaels asked me what my name was and I muttered "Jay" and he just looked at me with sorrowful eyes.

"Jay…Alex is okay but we aren't sure about the baby. We are going to keep her overnight to see if anything's wrong. Right now she's sleeping but you can go in and see her If you want." I nodded my head and walked in. She was so beautiful, even without makeup, and in a hospital gown she still was. I pulled the chair up beside her bed and grabbed her hand.

"Alex. babe you have to be okay. You and this baby have to be okay. I don't know what I'll do without you. I love you so much." I looked from her face to the ground and just started talking more to myself then to anyone. "what is this my punishment? Is this what I get for fucking up? But why her? Why couldn't something happen to me? It was my fault not hers. Don't take this out on her!" By now the tears are streaming down my face and I've given up on trying to hide it.

Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key

Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl

(Alex's Point of View)

I heard almost all of what Jay was saying but I kept quiet until he was done. I squeezed his hand and I don't think I've ever seen him jump that high. "hey babe…I love you too. What's going on" I looked around and noticed that I was laying in a hospital bed. The last thing I remember is Emma kicking me in my stomach.

"you got kicked in the stomach and you passed out. they aren't sure about the baby yet so they're keeping you over night to make sure nothings wrong. I'm so glad your okay." I used my hand and wiped away some of his tears. I think I've only seen Jay cry once in our entire time of dating…

"don't worry you couldn't get rid of me even if you tried. So stop worrying. So Emma kicked me? I can't believe the little bitch actually had the balls to do that." For someone as tiny as her she really could kick.

"yea and from the sounds of it Ellie found out and went and started punching her." Ellie? Ellie Nash? She got into a fight? I never thought I'd hear such a thing. But that just goes to show you, never judge Ellie, she can be full of surprises. I tried to sit up and felt a sharp pain on my side. I lifted up the blankets and revealed a black blue mark all along the front of my stomach. "Careful. Green Peace left a pretty big mark." He lightly traced his fingers along it which made me giggle since I had always been so ticklish. It wasn't till then that I noticed the doctor standing in the doorway.

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt
(Keeping Sodom at night at bay)

(Jay's Point of View)

Alex scared the shit out of me when she squeezed my hand. I was so lost in thought that I completely forgot where I was. Then she looked at me with those beautiful eyes and it made me smile a little. The doctor looked back and forth between us. He had one of those emotionless masks on. Where you couldn't figure out whether what he had to say was good or bad. I hope that its good, but I haven't had much luck like that in my past.

"Alex, Jay…We have the results back…"

Fold to my arms

Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance to the moon
As we did in those golden days
Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay


There it goes…now please go review…thank you :)

Taryn