Hey…heres the next chapter…hope you enjoy…and by the way I would like to dedicate this chapter to Amanda because she's awesome and she helped me with the idea…

Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters…even though I do wish I owned Mike Lobel…lol j/k…


(Alex's Point of View)

Sean and Ellie basically screwed on the couch and fell asleep so I got to sleep in the bedroom. I hadn't slept on a real bed in more than a month…let's just say it felt awesome. I woke up the next morning and got ready for school before I woke the happy couple up I finished what I needed to do in the bathroom, then got them up. Jay was running a little late so I had some extra time to get something to eat. I was hoping that it wouldn't come back up later but they say that morning sickness stops after the first trimester. Yes I had been reading all the different pregnancy books. When we pulled up to the school something wasn't right. Instead of the usual dirty looks and people turning and walking the other way, they were giving us questioning looks whispering to each other. Something was definitely up…

"Alex can I talk to you?" It had to be something serious if Paige was willing to talk to me in school. I nodded at her and quickly told Jay that I would be back in a minute. "Alex…do you notice people looking at you and Jay funny today?" I nodded again. "Alright I'm just going to cut to the chase here because I don't want you to hear it from someone else. Emma is going around telling people that Jay got her pregnant." I didn't even know what to say to that. So I turned around and walked away. I went into the washroom to clear my head and just guess who was in there too?

"Stay the hell away from Jay, slut" She gave me an amused look and shook her head. Does she not get that Jay doesn't like her.

"What's the matter Alex? You pissed because your boyfriend got me pregnant?" I'm not going to hit her…it won't be good for the baby…and that didn't go over so well last time.

"Bitch stop fucking telling people that Jay got your pregnant because I know for a fact that you would never fuck you again."

"Please Alex, What do you think he does every time he tells you that he's going to work? Yea that's right he comes to me. I guess that you still can't fulfill is needs now can you Alex?" I clenched my teeth and balled my fists but I wasn't going to hit her, she wasn't worth it.

"Just remember what I said slut" I walked out of the washroom…I knew that homeroom started in about 5 minutes so I just went there instead of going to find Jay. Was Green Peace telling the truth? Did Jay really do that to me…again? Part of me wants to believe that its not true but there's still that voice in the back of my head telling me that he did it once, he'll do it again. First period went by way to fast and I didn't want to have to face Jay so I skipped Shop and sat in the washroom just thinking. I suddenly realized that it was a good possibility that Emma was telling the truth.

If Jay really did get her pregnant that would mean that they did it when we were together because if she were farther along than me then she would be showing more, and I definitely had a bump that I had been hiding by wearing big shirts and Jay's hoodies. The bell rang and I went to class. After this I had Jay in the rest of my classes…just great. When I did get out of third period and went to fourth I looked in the door and saw Jay and Emma talking. My guess was that he didn't hear about what she was telling people because he was never one to listen to gossip. I waited outside until Emma came out before I went in, and when she walked out she just gave me a little smirk and walked away.

Instead of talking my usual seat next to Jay I sat in the back by myself. My computer wasn't on so I turned it on and when I looked up I saw Jay giving me a weird look. He started to get up like he was going to come to the back where I was but Simpson came in before he could. I didn't really pay attention the whole class, all it was, was useless shit that I wasn't going to need to know anyway. I ran out of the room when the bell rang before Jay could catch up with me, I didn't even want to see him right now. I held my tears in the best I could but a few stray ones rolled down my cheeks as I walked down the hall as fast as I could. I walked by Ellie who noticed this and ran after me.

"Alex!" I heard her call after me but I didn't stop, she did eventually catch up though and she pulled me into the girl's washroom. "Alex what's wrong? What happened"?

"Jay fucked Emma and now she says she's pregnant." Ellie looked pissed as hell; instead of saying anything to me she walked out of the washroom. Shit she was going after Jay. "Ellie don't." I chased after her but she was going to fast. "Ellie Please!" From the desperation in my voice she could tell I was serious.

"Alex you have to talk to him about it. " I just sort of nodded at her. "Alex promise me you will" I just nodded again. "I have to go to class. I'll see you in lunch." I went to class where I had to sit next to Jay. He tried to talk to me but I didn't say a word to him. As we were walking out I could tell that he was starting to get pissed with me. In the hallway he stopped me so I couldn't by and I had to face him.

"What the fuck did I do Lexxi!" I've always hated getting into fights with him because it reminded me of how mom and Chad used to always fight.

"Why don't you go talk to fucking Green Peace? Huh Jay? You guys seem to be doing a lot of 'talking' lately. I can't believe you Jay. I'm done with this shit. Fuck you, stay the hell away form me. And you can keep your fucking money me and my baby will be fine without it." I didn't even notice until then that everyone in the hallway was looking at us. So much for not letting anyone know I'm pregnant. "Give your money to Green Peace because I sure as hell don't want it anymore."

Before he could say anything else I walked away. I went to the nurse and told her that I wasn't feeling good so she let me go home. I can't believe Jay got Emma pregnant…that's all I could think about as I walked back to mine and Ellie's house. As I walked into the house I had a great idea that would make me feel a whole lot better. I took all of Jay's stuff that he had left here (his favorite hat, a couple shirts, some hoodies, a pair of pants, and the hoodie I was wearing of his) and I threw it out into the middle of the road. I watched as the cars ran over all of it and I just laughed to myself. By the time I had gotten all of his stuff out there I saw Jay's civic pulling up. I guess he saw all of his clothes in the road…I locked the door and sat on the couch.

"Alex. I know you're in there. Alex! Open the damn door. What is all of my stuff doing out in the middle of the road? Lexxi…please open the door. Can we please talk?" Let me think about this? Do I really want to talk to him? Hell no…I grabbed my CD case and started flipping through them I eventually settled on My Ruin…I put the CD in the stereo and blasted it as loud as it could go…

Bless me darling, and I will forgive you

Eloquent and full of grace

You speak in tongues behind my back

A dry lung vocal martyr

I will suffer for my lover

I will suffer for his sins

I will suffer for my lover

I am suffering for him

Torture me with timelessness

Worship my fist with every kiss

Resurrection of my pain

Drag me down our memory lane

Introduce me to devotion

Leave me numb with no emotion

Stars surround you when

I feel youYou look better when I cannot see... you

Honesty... looks good on you

But liar should be your tattoo

(Jay's Point of View)

When Alex wouldn't open the door I leaned against it and slid down to the ground. I didn't know what to do…why don't she just listen to me? What did I do?


I hope this chapter didn't suck to badly…go review now! Please?…

Taryn