I know I said that I probably wasn't going to be able to update this weekend but I had the urge to write tonight and this was the result…I'm sorry if it sucks…now after you read this go read The Accident…

Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi or any of the characters…even though I do wish I owned Mike Lobel…lol j/k…


(Jay's Point of View)

The last couple of months have been horrible. I can't believe I'm with Emma…she's so annoying…but yet I've been with her for two months. I don't even know why I'm still with her. She pales in comparison to Alex, but I'm still with her. I even made fun of Alex with her. And as Alex was sitting in front of me I realized how broken she really was, in front of everyone she put up a front that she was okay and she was tough but inside she really wasn't. She didn't deserve any of this…and it was all my fault. Somehow I always find a way to mess things up.

I can still remember that night when she accused me of sleeping with Emma and getting her pregnant like it was yesterday. She told me she didn't need or want me…so I left. I wish that I wouldn't have. I wish I would have told her that I loved her not Emma. Some days after school I would sit outside the music room and listen to her sing. She had one of the best voices I think I've ever heard. I even heard her singing earlier…I didn't say anything when Emma was making fun of her singing. I was to lost in Alex's voice to listen to her. Emma was a complete bitch, she thought that she was better than everyone else. Sure she was good in bed but that's about all we did. We never talked about anything, and even if we did all it was, was her complaining about stupid shit for hours on end.

"Nothing…Sean doesn't like me living there with him and Ellie. And tonight he decided to let me know that he wants me to move out. So I came here to think" I had been so lost in thought that I had completely forgotten that I had asked her a question. "look I have to go. I've got to go find a place for me and Layla to sleep tonight"

"Layla?"

"that's what I'm planning on naming my daughter" …Layla… "Alright Jay nice chat but I'll see you around."

"Stay with me" wait that wasn't suppose to come out but I didn't want her out there all night trying to find some place to stay. "I'm serious stay at my house…at least for tonight. It's already 11 o'clock and I highly doubt you're going to find a place to stay so just come to my house. Please?"

"What are you up to Jay? I know that you don't like having people over your house, except maybe Sean but that doesn't count. And I don't think your little bitch would like that very much." I wanted to scream at her that I didn't care about Emma, I really cared about her but I couldn't.

"Alex please I don't want you to freeze out here. Just for tonight will you stay at my house." She gave me a look as if questioning whether or not that I was being sincere or not, which I was. When she nodded I was happy… "Come on let's go." We started to walk over to my Civic and she climbed into the front. I remember when her and Ellie hid it…I was pissed…for two whole weeks I had to walk or take the bus if I wanted to get anywhere. But I will admit that it was an extremely good idea to do. "So why the sudden change of thought? You go from calling me names and making fun of me to telling me to stay at your house. I don't get you Jay"

"Don't worry about it not many people do." I saw her shake her head and smile a little. "I'm sorry"

"For what?" I took my eyes off the road to get a good look at her. She was beautiful with her shoulder length black hair, chocolate brown eyes, and perfect complexion.

"For Emma, for making fun of you, for cheating on you to begin with, for all of that." I pulled into my driveway and noticed that my mom and dad's cars weren't there. I wonder where they went…

"Forget about it, it's in the past. It's not like you can change what you've done…" she did have a very good point there although I do wish I could.

"You can take the bed. I can sleep on the couch" She shook her head at me. "I'm not taking no for an answer so you might as well go up into my room. You can borrow a pair of my pajama pants to sleep in too if you want, you know where they're at." I watched as she walked up the stairs into my room. I laid down on the couch and closed my eyes. All I wanted to do was go into my room with her and lay down on the bed and cuddle with her. I missed that…as odd as it may sound I actually do like to cuddle and so does Alex. Emma wasn't like that though, she wasn't into stuff like that, we would have sex and then she would usually just leave. But with Alex we would lay there for hours after we had sex and talk about anything.

Finally after about a maybe an hour I fell asleep and woke up the next morning at about 9 and went to go check in on Alex. She was sleeping on the bed curled up in my blankets…she looked like a sleeping angel…I decided to go get us some breakfast from McDonald's, I still worked there but not as much. I didn't let Emma know though that most of the money I was making I was putting into a bank account that was for the baby. If she ever found out I would never hear the end of it…it would be more bitching for more hours and I just couldn't take that.

(Alex's Point of View)

I thought I heard screaming but then I figured I was probably just dreaming. Suddenly the covers were yanked off me and I laid there in a pair of pajama pants that didn't feel like mine and a baggy t-shirt that also didn't feel like mine. I opened my eyes and before me stood a very angry Emma. Where the hell was I? Oh shit…all the events from last night came rushing back to me.

"What the hell do you think your doing in my boyfriends bed?" I rubbed my eyes and tried to remember the exact words that Jay used last night when he told me to stay over. It was all a little fuzzy but I basically remembered it.

"Fuck off Emma" I grabbed the blankets out of her hand and curled back up on the bed. I knew that this could go on for a long time and I just wasn't in the mood for it. It's bad enough to wake me up but its even worse to take away my blankets.

"Alex you better start talking before I kick your ass." This chick really needed to get the clue that its not a good idea to bug me in the morning…especially if it's before noon. "Get your ass out of my boyfriends bed and take his fucking clothes off. Get the hell out of here" I decided I wasn't going to let this work me up, I think it would be fun to mess with her.

"I know you probably want to see me take Jay's clothes off but I think I'm good. You can leave but I'm pretty comfortable" I heard her start to huff and puff but it just made this even more entertaining to me. "okay now if you're done with your little hissy fit then I'm going back to sleep." Where the hell was Jay at? If I had known that this was what he had in mind when he asked me to stay over I would have rather frozen to death.

"Move your slutty ass and get the hell out of here. No one wants to see your fat ass naked anyway" I heard the door close from downstairs and I figured that Jay must have left for a little while. "I hope when your bastard baby is born it fucking dies." Okay now I'm pissed. No one, and I mean no one, is going to say shit about my baby. Jay appeared in the door way, I looked at him and shook my head.

"what's up?" he looked like he had no idea what was going on but I knew that he had to have. I completely ignored his question and looked straight at Emma.

"first of all bitch my baby isn't a bastard, second of all don't you ever, ever say anything about her, and thirdly who the fuck do you think you are? You think you're so much better than me? Well you need to get it through your thick head: No one gives two shits about you, You're nothing more than a stuck up, rich bitch." Jay's eyes looked wide and I remembered that I had something to say to him too. "Fuck you Jay. I would have rather frozen to death last night outside then have to put up with your bitch. I'm out of here" I grabbed my clothes off the floor and walked out the door. I was half way down the stairs when I heard someone call me.

"Alex wait!" I turned around and Jay was standing outside of his door. "I'm sorry okay? I didn't know that she was going to come here. Alex please…" I kept walking and left his house. And here I was...walking back to a house where I wasn't wanted in my ex-boyfriend pajamas. Now isn't this just dandy…god damn it. I knew Emma was a bitch but to tell me that she hoped my baby died? That was more than harsh…what the hell did my baby ever do to her?

It was then that I realized who I needed to go see. I went to a payphone and called a taxi, I waited for a few minutes and one pulled up to where I was. Quickly I told them the address and we made the ten minute drive. That was possibly one of the most nerve wracking things ever…just sitting there waiting. When we finally pulled up in front of the house I realized that it looked the same. I paid the driver and I walked to the door, I knocked and prayed that he wouldn't be home. It was almost like time was moving in slow motion as I watched the door swing open.

"Mom…" She ran forward and embraced me in a hug. I hadn't seen her in about three months and it felt so good to hug her. I could still smell the same perfume that she used…god I missed having her around…

"Alex you're okay…Chad told me you came home one day and just packed all your stuff and left." That fucking bastard…

"no mom…he told me to leave because he found the pregnancy test."

"What…"


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