Disclaimer : I don't own Hikaru no Go but Obata and Hotta Yumi do.
Chapter 3 : Their Bonds
"Do you mean he split his personalities?" Kouyo questioned.
"What!" Akira cried out.
"Yes, you can say that," Kenji seemed to be thoughtful. " They used to be the same person but then Hikaru became scared."
"Scared? Of what?" Kouyo kept asking. Akira was trembling; he thought he might know what Hikaru has been afraid of.
Kenji glanced at Akira before answering. "Of winning…against you, Touya-kun"
Akira was breathless. His covered his mouth with a shaking hand. He hadn't known about this before. He didn't know that he was not the only one who had suffered from that game, he had only thought about himself. He hadn't known that he'd caused Hikaru such misery.
"What do you mean?" Kouyo didn't know much about their games. All he knew was that there had been a boy who had won against his son. Twice.
"Touya-kun was his first friend in the Go world, he couldn't stand the fact that he has hurt his friend," Kenji clarified.
"So he created Sai," Touya senior concluded.
"Well…I'd rather say that they split, or separated, into two personas: Sai and Hikaru," Kenji took a breath before he continued again. "Sai got all the talent while Hikaru was left with none. So, Hikaru had to learn everything from zero. They both loved Go-especially together. That's how Sai became Hikaru's teacher. You played with him as the third board during a school tournament, right?" he asked Akira.
"Y-yes," Akira woke up from his thoughts. He couldn't believe this. He had never heard about any of this before.
"Didn't you wonder why he played so poorly in the second half of the game?"
"Actually, I've been wondering all the time," Akira admitted.
"You played with both of them: Hikaru knew that you wanted to play with Sai so he let Sai play. But when you were getting close to losing, he couldn't help himself; he didn't want to hurt you again. So Hikaru asked Sai to back off and played against you by himself," Kenji revealed.
"That's why he started playing badly," Akira whispered to himself.
"That's right."
"Can I ask you something?" Kouya interrupted. "I've read an article about double personalities once. They said that a patient who got this...condition," the ex-Meijin wasn't sure what to call it, "A patient would become entirely different person when one of his personalities gained control. They wouldn't be able to remember what the other had done. There for, not only that Hikaru and Sai shouldn't be able to talk to each other but Hikaru shouldn't even realize that Sai exists."
"Well…usually, it's just like you said. But for their case, it's different," Kenji answered.
"How so?" asked Akira, although he didn't quite follow their conversation but he wanted to know everything about Shindou…or Hikaru….or Sai. Right now, he wasn't even sure how to call the boy who changed his life.
"As I said, Hikaru didn't created Sai, he divided into two personas: Hikaru and Sai. Can't you see the difference? Creating means you make something new. Dividing means you separate something into pieces. When you cut a cake, the pieces of it are still one cake. They are still the same thing. Do you understand?" Kenji wasn't sure if Akira could catch on the explanation.
" I..I guess so." Akira nodded. Then Kenji went on.
"So, they were one person before. Then they separated but they're still a part of each other, something tying them together. They have their own thoughts, their own personalities but they share their souls and their memories too," Kenji told them.
"I don't understand," Akira was lost again.
"I don't expect you to understand. It's very complicated."
"Please, we need to know," Akira begged.
"Well…If you're talking with Hikaru, Sai's there too but he remains silent. They are awake at the same time," Kenji tried his best to explain.
"So, there is two of Shindou-kun. The one we're talking to is Hikaru, while Sai just watches us?" Kouyo summarized.
"You're right. Sai is Hikaru's ghost, a shadow."
A/N : My friend suggests me that I should try many various type, so I'll know which type I like the most. At first, I intended to write a romantic story but it didn't work. I'm not a romantic person.
Special Thank: rebecca-chan, who betaed this chapther
Ice-Ari : In fact,the name of this fic is a Huge spoiler.
CPAnthoni : Yes, you're right. I'm not a native English speaker. Plus, I really hate grammar class. That's why I have a lot of grammar problems :(
siodhn01 : Glad you enjoy it
