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Chapter 5 : His Departure
"Hikaru was the one who set up the game between you and Sai, wasn't he?" Kenji asked Kouyo even though he already knew. But Akira hadn't heard of this before. His father had kept silent all these years, he told nobody. Not even him, his own son.
"Yes, he came to visit me at the hospital when I had a heart attack. He told me that his friend wanted to play a game with me but he could only play on the net," Kouyo told his side of the story.
"He just wanted to find Sai a challenging rival. Then you lost and retired."
"That is correct."
"Hikaru blamed himself. He didn't want you to retire. He admired you a lot. And...it happened again." Kenji exhaled despondently.
…Kenji's Flashback…
"I did it again! Now with Touya-sensei! It's my fault! My fault!" Hikaru exploded; he was out of control again.
"It's not your fault! Hikaru, calm down!" Kenji said sternly and grabbed Hikaru's elbows tightly, trying to get him to listen.
"I knew that Sai would win. I foresaw it! But I still set the game! And now Touya-sensei will retire!" It was just like that day when Sai was born, like a bad déjà vu: Hikaru's eyes were haunted and he was sitting on his bed, hugging his knees desperately. He kept rocking forward and back, forward and back…
"NO. Hikaru! Look at me. Look at me! Listen to me!" Kenji didn't want it to happen again. He had sworn that he would never ever let it happen again. But there was nothing he could do. Then Hikaru collapsed and the story repeated itself all over again.
…End of Flashback…
Now it was Kouyo's turn to be frozen in shock. As his son, he hadn't known that he'd such a great impact to the boy's life. All he had thought of was Sai, always Sai. Who Sai was? How to play with Sai again? How to win against Sai? Sai…Sai…Sai. Not in the tiniest corner of his mind had he ever thought of the boy who brought him his lifetime rival.
"When Hikaru woke up, Sai disappeared. He had decided to sleep and to not wake up ever again." Kenji returned to the story.
"Why?" Akira was the one who asked because now his dad seemed to be in his own world.
…Kenji's Flashback…
"Doctor Takamiya, I'll go now. Please take care of him and look after him for me," Sai said sadly. Kenji was shocked by this and the way Sai looked. Sai was usually a very emotionless guy, but this time his expression was heartbreaking.
"What do you mean? Where are you going?"
"I'm going to sleep and never wake up again," answered Sai painfully.
"What! Why?"
"I'm only harm for Hikaru. I should be the one to protect him, but instead I keep hurting him."
"What are you talking about? You're always protecting him! No one loves him more than you! You've never hurt him!" Kenji was bewildered by Sai's word.
"And what about what just happened now? If I hadn't won against the Meijin, Hikaru wouldn't be so upset."
"It's not your fault either! Damn it! Don't you guys get it! It's no one's fault! Touya-sensei decided that by himself! Why can't you two understand?!" Kenji yelled angrily.
"He's always thinking of me. I've told him many times to do as he wants but he never listens. He wants us to be happy together. He tries very hard to do everything for me while I can't do anything for him. I'm always being his burden," Sai told him.
"That's not true! He's never thought of you that way! And he will never do!"
"Yes, he has a good heart, doesn't he? That's why I love him so much," Sai smiled forlornly. "But I do nothing, except hold him back. That's the reason I should go."
"You can't go! Who's going to teach him the game? Who will play with him!" Kenji tried to reason with Sai.
"He's getting better every single day. He doesn't want me anymore. He can walk to the Hand of God alone without me."
"Forget about that damn Hand of God! What about Hikaru himself? Don't you care how he would feel? How much he will be hurt? If you love him, you must stay here and protect him yourself, instead of asking me to do it for you!" Kenji was not going to let Sai go. Hikaru had been suffering too much through these years.
"Time will heal him. He'll forget me soon," Sai said with an air of finality. "Promise me to take care of him and to protect him…" Then Sai was gone and Hikaru woke up.
"I can't hear Sai. That's weird. Do you think he's sleeping?" Hikaru asked Kenji naïvely.
…End of Flashback…
A/N : As you can see, I'm not a big fan of The Touyas. I tried to write a fic about Ogata but I didn't know much about him. That's why Finding Seiji is only 2 shots..but I like it a lot.
Special Thank: rebecca, my faithful reader and my beta
Legit : The ring 2? Hahaha, that's good one! if I write a horror, I'll put your name in the Thank list :)
kathystgqvk : Yeah, I got a plot for the new fic. My friend likes a romantic comedy so I decide to write her one but I don't know why..it turn out be a suspense. What's wrong with me? By the way, Good luck for your exam :D
