The next morning he was sat out in his car looking up at the grotty building. He was going to go last night but he couldn't go through with it then. She wouldn't want to see him when he was drunk. He got out of the car and walks upto the tall building. He looked at the bells on the side and tried looking for one with May's name on it but he couldn't find one. He pressed the first buzzar he came to.
"Hi i was looking for May Taylor but her name..." he started.
He looked up as the door opend. A small woman with dark short hair and a displeased expression on her face opend the door.
"Sorry to bother you, i was looking for May Taylor but her name wasn't on any of the bells" he told her
"Doubt she's answer it if it was" The woman mumbled as if she was still half asleep.
Randy walked into the building and looked around. The wallpaper was hanging off the walls, the carpets were stained and the place smelt of cigarette smoke. He couldn't imagine May in a place like this.
"Which room is it?" he asked
"Just follow the screaming" the woman said grumpily as she walked back into her room and slammed the door closed.
Randy heard the sound of a baby crying and made his way up the narrow staircase. About two floors up he came to a door where the crying seemed loudest. He knocked on the door.
"He's teething!" came a familiar voice "i can't help it if he's crying"
He knocked again and waited as he heard footsteps coming across the room. A few moments later the door opend and a blonde woman appeared at the door with a hard cold expression on her face.
"Look I..." she started and then gasped as she recognised Randy"Oh my god"
She stood frozen in the doorway so Randy walked past her and went into the tiny room. He could see a tiny bathroom as the door was slightly open on the other side of the room. There were only two rooms in the whole appartment. He looked about the room he was stood in. There was a couch that folded out into a bed set out in the middle of the small crowded room. A tiny Carrycot stood next to the bed, and a kitchen was in the corner of the room with no walla to seperate the rooms. Clothes were lying about all over the place. Baby bottles were lined up in the kitchen and the sink was full of dishes and glasses still waiting to be washed. He then and turned to look at May. He couldn't believe it was actually her. Her hair was was now a dull dirty blonde looking like a birds nest. She was wearing an oversized tee-shirt. Her eyes that had once been so bright were now cold, dull and lifeless.
May had pulled herself together as Randy looked around her appartment and stared at her.
"What the hell do you want?" she demanded with her hands on her hips.
"I thought i saw you last night and i saw you pushing a pushchair i came to see if you were..."he started
"Came to what, see if i was ok?" she asked "Well i'm fine so you can go home to your big posh house and your perfect little wife"
"We split awhile ago..."he told her quietly.
Randy walked across to the carrycot and looked inside. A tiny baby was lying wrapped tightly in a blanket. He was red in the face from crying. All that was visible apart from his face was a tuft of brown hair sticking out.
"Shouldn't you see to him?" he asked turning to face May again.
May narrowed her eyes at Randy.
"Look don't you think you can come in here and start telling me how to run my life" she warned him but she picked up the baby anyway.
Randy pushed some clothes from the bed and sat down.
"Why did you leave?" he asked
"Leave where?" May asked
"You know what i'm talking about May" He told her.
May sighed as she put the baby back into the carrycot.
"Does it really matter why?" she asked "I did leave but that was a long time ago"
"Yes it does matter" he told her
"Why does it?" she asked
"Because i missed " he told her quietly.
May raised an eyebrow and laughed
"Yeah of course the big superstar missed his maid" she taunted
"May you're my best friend" he corrected her
"Oh really so we're best friends!" she yelled "Yeah we were real close weren't we Randy, got to know each other very well on your birthday and we were that close that you ignored me ever since"
"It was arkward" he explained
"How the hell do you think i felt?" she asked angrily.
"I know...i do love you May but i was with Lucy and i wanted things to work with her" he replied
May burst out laughing.
"What's so funny?" asked Randy feeling slightly annoyed.
"You wanted things to work out...no you didn't" she told him. "You hated her and once you told her about us she hated you too"
"That's not true" he exclaimed
"Oh yes it is Randy" May laughed. "I could see it in both your eyes that day you came back and i could tell by the way she looked at me. Neither of you was happy, infact the only reason you would have stayed together is so she could take every last penny you own"
"We were happy back then..."he started
"You know what you might now go about lying to everyone like i do but you lie to yourself and it's pathetic" she told him.
"Why are you so angry at me?" he asked
"Because all of this" she said looking about the room "Is your fault!"
"No it isn't!" he said defending himself
"If you hadn't got me pregnant everything would have been ok" she yelled
Randy's mouth dropped open and he looked down at the baby who was now fast asleep. He stroked his tiny hand and looked at May.
"He's mine?" he asked
May bit her bottem lip. She hadn't meant to tell him. She had promised herself Randy would never find out.
"Look just go and forget us" she told him
"What happend to you May, why didn't you tell me?" he asked
May thought for a moment about telling him. All of the secrets she had been hiding for so long were slowly torturing her, maybe if she told him then she'd feel better about it all. She sighed and then turned to face him.
"It all started back when we met again. I knew you and Lucy weren't right for each other so i tried to split you up. I'm the one who ruined her hair and her dress i did all of that. The sleeping with you wasn't planned, that's the one thing i didn't mean to do. Well after that i started feeling guilty and i hated it. I've never felt guilty about anything i've done in my life and i'll admit i've done alot of bad things. I geuss i'm like my mom that way, she didn't care about anyone either, my dad was the same. When i found out i was pregnant i moved away and i came here still believeing that i could be an actress and live my dreams. But it didn't happen, you won't even believe what i do now, i'm a cheap stripper and i live here, do you honestly think i would want you to see me like this, of course i wasn't going to tell you. There isn't much point in lying anymore you've found me again" she told him.
"But May i could have helped you out, i would have helped raise him and you should never have done what you did" he told her firmly.
May gave a dry laugh" Yeah then me you and Lucy could have all played happy families"
"Well let me help now then" he said
"I don't need your help, he's going up for adoption" she told him
"But you can't just..."he started
"What kind of life is he going to have with me, just look at me now Randy. I'm not meant to be a mother because i don't care about other people." she told him gently "He's just lucky i care enough to give him a chance in life"
"Couldn't you try...you can come and live with me again" Randy pleaded
"It's too late for trying again" May said shaking her head
"Well then let me take him" Randy suggested" Just for awhile you might feel differently."
May hesitated for a moment and looked down at her tiny baby boy. She softly stroked his brown hair out of his face. She bit her lip nervously and then turned back to Randy.
"I geuss you could take him..."she said slowly "But don't expect me to feel any different, take him with you know, leave me the address of your hotel and i'll drop the rest of his things round"
