a/n- thanks for all of my reviews...oh last chapter probs a big let down for this one and the last chapter but i'm still new at storyline...i know im full of excuses. please review.
May collected all of the baby clothes and bottles together and dumped them all down on the bed. She pulled out a black bag and started to pack the things away. She ran her hand over each piece of clothing. Randy would never know that she had chosen all of these things with love and care. He would never know that she would bring their baby into her bed each night and just watch him. She smiled slightly. The baby looked so much like Randy but he had May's eyes. She shook her head and quickly packed the rest of the things as the tears were slowly forming in her eyes. She quickly left and headed for Randy's hotel.

Later in the evening Randy was sat in his hotel room with Joy, John and Stacy playing with the baby.

"He's so beautiful!" Joy and Stacy squeeled together making a huge fuss over him.

Randy and John rolled their eyes and laughed

"Girls.."the said together.

"I can't believe all that stuff with May" John said softly "I remember when she was back at your house, she always seemed so happy and friendly, i wouldn't think she was capable of..well all the stuff she's done"

"She's just evil!" Stacy exclaimed

Joy shook her head slightly.

"I don't think she is, she's been through alot of tough times and we don't even know what happend to her when she was back in St Louis or what's happend to her since she moved here" she told them

"She became a stripper..."Stacy said

"Yeah but there's gotta be more to it than that, from what Randy's told us May was quite an actress mayve she just told what she thought she had to" Joy said

Randy looked up as there was a knock at the door. He smiled brightly

"That'll be her, i can't wait for you girls to meet her!" he exclaimed jumping up and running to the door.

His smile faded as he saw a man at the door holding a bag and a letter.

"Can i help you?" asked Randy

"These came for you, a young lady dropped them off" The man said

"Thanks..."Randy said as he took them and shut the door.

"She didn't stay?" asked Stacy and Randy shook his head.

He opend the bag and found it was full of baby clothes and bottles.

He opend the note and began to read.

Dear Randy

Well surprise surprise i'm leaving again. I geuss you might want to know you're babies name..his name is Eric. I know you'll take good care of him. I said alot of horrible things today and i'm not going to take any of them back because i meant all of it you can be a pathetic loser but i still love you. I'm not coming back again i can't take being a mom and i hate the life i'm leading now. I know you're probably really dissapointed in me for what i've done in the past and it kills me knowing that i've sunk so low. I want to get my life sorted out, i'm only twenty two years old and i'm not going to live in hell, i want to get things back together and get another chance at life. I'll be alright and Eric will be great without me. All i've ever wanted is for you and me together but i geuss none of that's possible anymore..not now. I'm really sorry about the way you saw me today. Give Eric a kiss from me and tell him mommy loves him.. I wish things could have been different but you can't turn back the clock. Oh and i'm sorry for being horrible about you being famous geuss i'm jealous because you got your dream and i never got mine. Who'd have thought it May Taylor a woman full of regrets and guilt. I really hate my new caring attitude... You should both forget about me but believe me i will always remember you Randy and the good times we had together before i got so messed up. You'll always be my childhood sweetheart

love May xxx

Randy put down the letter unsure of what to do. He had been left alone to bring up a baby...his baby. It was funny how much he loved his son already. But May was gone again.

"What is it?" asked John

"She's gone again" he replied with no emotion in his voice.

Joy looked up from reading the letter and put an arm around Randy.

"You found her twice and she left maybe it'll be thrid time lucky" she said reassuringly.

Randy smiled down at his son.

"Mommy loves you Eric even if she is gone...but don't worry we'll find her again and things will be different" He told him.

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