Disclaimer: I do not in any way own Dragonballz, so don't sue me.



Ok I'm in a good mood today so......I think I'm gonna make this chapter a song-fic and EXTRA LONG. It goes nicely with this chapter, I think. I used a great song too, by Jennifer lopez its called Alive. If you haven't heard it, listen to it now! You gotta sorta hear it to read the chapter.

And on another note. Have you ever read a story and think, I wonder what the authors like or looks like? I do all the time! So I'm thinking here, how can I get my readers to become my friend and feel like they know me? So I've fiqured something out.

If your wondering what I look like or wanna know, I made a web page and put my pic on there. I have a digital camera so the pics arn't all that good, either am I in them! *LOL* If you wanna see the web page e-mail me and i'll send you the link, peace!



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Answer to Ch:34 question: A. Chicago, USA.

That question was hard! Some of you didn't answer right, I don't blame you. This question is a little hard also, just look at it this way. If you don't know, you'll find out.

Now here's the question for Ch:35...

Q: What is Einstein's theory of relativity



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Pan: 19
Trunks: 27
Goten: 26
Bra: 18




~*~I'll be there~*~

Chapter: 35 Alive.




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**Last time**



Then at the moment I looked forward it seemed like my life stopped and kicked in slow motion. It was the spot, my spot in the waterfall forest. I made up the name waterfall forest for this place because there was a waterfall inside the forest. The trees had grown together with the rock and through out the years they got taller and taller, now the only way sunlight gets through is from a small whole in the trees canopy.

It's truly beautiful here, a place where your calm and rested. I started walking closer to the pool when my body froze, there was someone sitting on the rock. From the newly rising sun the light began filling the forest and I could see the identity of the person.

"Trunks.....?"



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Now on to the story.......try to still like this story when it's done. *LOL*



~*~Time....goes.....slowly now, in my life. ~*~
~*~Fear, no more......of what I'm, not sure. ~*~



"Trunks.....?" I choked out. He was taken by surprise when he turned to me, he would at least felt my ki by now? He must have been deep in thought if he didn't feel me. Oh Kami wonder if he's thinking about the kiss......well the almost kiss.

He got up from the rock and smiled at me, I smiled back in sorta a weird silence. I didn't like the tension between us, if this is how it was gonna be if we almost kissed maybe its better to just stay friends?

"Panny what are you doing here? It's freezing look what your wearing, here take my jacket." He said. He offered his jacket to me? I didn't answer him, didn't have time too he had already put it around my shoulders.

"Thanks..." I said quietly, he just nodded and looked at the ground.

"You wanna sit down on the rock?" He asked suddenly. I smiled a little and nodded.

I knew what was gonna happen, I knew what I was walking into. But seriously I didn't care, I finally didn't care! All my life I've been in love with this man, and that's all its been about. My life has revolved around this man for too long, its gotten to the point where I'm totally confused. No, I'm not scared anymore. I might have gotten butterflies in my stomach when I seen him but I'm changing that now.

I sat down on the rock and scooted over, the rock was pretty small so me and Trunks were shoulder to shoulder.

"So......whatcha doing here?" I asked.

He was looking at the waterfall with a blank face, watching the waves fall.

"Thinking...I guess." He said. Ok now I started getting scared, I was never the person to hide but when it came to my personal feelings they seriously scared the shit out of me!

"Oh........" I said.


~*~Searching to feel your soul, the strength to stand alone. ~*~
~*~ The power of not knowing, and letting go. ~*~


"Pan remember four years ago, when all of you took that vacation to my house?" He asked, I nodded. "Remember when we were on the beach and you told me the important thing to look at in a person is there heart?"

"Yeah I remember, why are you thinking all the way back then?"


"Cause I wanna know how to read someone's heart. I took your advice and tried so hard to find my special girl, I was almost positive when I found Madison. She wasn't meant for me either, that's why I want to ask you for help." He said. I was taken back a bit, he wanted my help?

"Trunks I am no one to give advice to anyone-" I said but he cut me off.

"But you gave me advice four years ago and it all sounded so right! Pan you have the answers, please tell me. Teach me how to read hearts, you seem to do it so well...."


"Trunks I don't know how to do that, well I sorta do but it's almost impossible to put into words. It's just one of those things you know?" I said. He nodded but I knew he wasn't gonna take no for an answer.

"Please Pan, just try...." He said. His eyes were pleading with me and I couldn't say no.

"All right Trunks........... sit down on the ground. I'll tell you everything I know." I said. It was a long shot but it was worth it. Maybe we would both learn something from this?

He took his position on the ground and I sat next to him, slowly I got into a comfortable spot.


~*~ I guess I've found my way, it's simple when you try.~*~
~*~Feeling lucky just to be here tonight, and happy just to be me...and be alive.~*~


I didn't want to do it but I knew giving Trunks the best advice I could would help him in the long run.


"Reading someone's heart takes time and patience, you can't do it in just one day. When you finally do it, its the most wonderful feeling. You work so hard and wait so long, it can be depressing when you fail but what do you do when you fail at things? You try again. In your case your looking for that special person."

I talked with him for hours, about almost everything. He would ask me questions and things like that, we seemed to forget all about the kiss me and him almost shared. I told him everything I knew, or thought I knew. He followed me on almost everything, he might just start understanding.


"And just watch them, you know? The best way to find out how a person works is too observe them. Look at the way she does things, the little things like the way she drinks or how she looks when she gets up in the morning. when the little things you love start to stick out you know your in love."

"So that's all there is too it huh?" He asked. Somehow as we were talking, I seemed to get into a very comfortable position. Trunks was sitting up against the rock kinda laying yet still propped up, I was laying on my left side with my head on his stomach cuddled up to him.


"Yup that's pretty much all there is too it. Oh and one more thing, this is the most important thing. You gotta like being with them, around them, by them. It's like just being with them makes you happy..............Trunks?" I asked looking up at him. He looked down at me and smiled.

"Yea?"

"Why did you wanna know all this stuff.....?" I asked. There had to be a reason he wanted to know everything. I mean I knew he wanted to know so he'd be able to really understand, but there was more.


~*~Love, in and out.....of my.....my heart.~*~
~*~And though life can be strange I can't be afriad.~*~


"Why did I want to know all this stuff?" He asked repeating my previous statement. I nodded telling him to go on, he looked up for a few seconds them back at me.


"I wanted to learn how to read hearts and find my perfect girl, the one I'm supposed to get married too. I'm not getting any younger, plus I have my eye on someone and I wanted to be able to tell if she's the one for me..." He said. He has another girl? Everything I just told him is going be the benefit of some women, how lucky she is.

"Oh......you like her?" I asked, trying to sound mildly interested. His smile got real big and turned into a grin.

"To tell you the truth Pan, I'm don't know. I love being around her, she's funny, smart, beautiful and so perfect in almost everyway...."

"Sounds really special, also like you really like that person." I said. It felt like someone took a long piece of glass and jabbed it in my chest. Trunks was just to handsome, women flocked around him where ever he went!


"I guess I do, I've never really noticed till now." He said. I was helping Trunks find love, what the hell is wrong with me! I can't just forget about him, it's impossible. Maybe I'll just live the rest of my life obsessing over him and be the lady with the black cape that follows him every where?

"That's great Trunks, you go find your mate." I said. It hurt me to say it but I knew it was true. Trunks was looking into someone, I was just gonna be Pan Son, girl who almost kissed him and women who 's desperately in love with him.


~*~Searching to feel your soul, the strength to stand alone. ~*~
~*~ The power of not knowing, and letting go. ~*~


"Your fine with it?" He said. I shot up and looked at him, what did he mean? "I mean your cool with.......with.....with you know giving me advice and stuff." He said unsteady.

"Yeah why wouldn't I Trunks?" I said.

"I don't know...."

I laughed and got up from laying on his stomach, I was so stiff. His eyes followed me as I sat up, just watching me I seen it out the corner of my eye.

"I have no idea what time it is but I'm pretty sure I need to get going." I said. He nodded and sat up also, that made us extremely close. I smelt the cologne on his shirt I was so close.

We just stared at each other in an awkward silence, I was falling into his crystal eyes again. No, I gotta just get up and leave its the best thing. I brought my eyes down to the ground and cleared my throat.

"I'm gonna just get going." I said. I looked back up at him.


~*~ I guess I've found my way, it's simple when you try.~*~
~*~Feeling lucky just to be here tonight, and happy just to be me...and be alive.~*~


"Ok..." He said. I got up off the ground and dusted off.

"I'll see you later then?" I asked. It had seemed like this whole talk had made us relieve the tension we had. I was glad, I wouldn't be able to stand it if we were weird with each other.

"Yeah, I'll call you. Maybe you wanna spar later?"

"Yeah, give me a call. Wait, your jacket." I said. I went to take it off but he got up and stopped me.

"No keep it, it's gonna be cold when you fly back. You can always give it to me later." He said.

"All right, bye." I said giving him a hug. He squeezed firmly and lifted me off the ground.

"Yeah see ya." He said letting me go. Without a final word I took off and left the forest from the small hole in the canopy.


~*~ I guess I've found my way, it's simple when you try.~*~
~*~Feeling lucky just to be here tonight, and happy just to be me...and be alive.~*~


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This is way to confusing for me now, I don't know what way to go. That talk with Pan was something I've never experienced before. How did she get to learn all that? It was like talking to Kami himself. She's special, there's nobody out there like her.

That's what makes it hard. Even when she was young she was smart, she gave me a twenty-three year old man advice! She's like nothing out there.

Wait! Why am I even thinking of Pan like this, Panny! Ever since Bra told me she loved me I can't stop thinking of her, what's wrong with me. Whenever I see her I get a funny feeling, like I'm suddenly happy. Pan can do that, she can walk into a room and light it up.

I guess I'll just have to wait and see how everything sets out, that way I'll have more time to do some heavy thinking.


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When I got home it was five fifteen in the morning. There was no way I was gonna go spar with Trunks, I'm tired. Since I had came through my bedroom window I fell on my bed and tried to go to sleep. After laying there for a half an hour I declared I had Trunks on the mind.

The only thing I could think of was him. The way he smiles, the way his perfect lavender hair is always parted at his forehead. Kami why do you do this? You make me fall completely in love with him when there's no hope, cruel bastard!

I buried my head in the pillow and screamed. I can't even sit in my room alone without badgering myself, it's horrible. I thought being in love meant happiness? In my case it means torture.

Just go to sleep Pan, knowing Trunks he'll want to spar early. What am I talking about it is early! I was caught by surprise when the phone started ringing loudly. I just off my bed and grabbed it quickly, my dads gonna flip if he heard it.

"Hello?" I asked, thinking it was a rang call or something.

"Hey Pan."

"Trunks what the hell are you calling me at this time, you know my dad hates it!" I yelled.

"Sorry."

"What do you want, I just got home from seeing you?"

"Yeah I know, I just got home also. I can't sleep.....so I wanted to know if you wanna spar?"

"At five fifteen?"

"Uh....yeah, please?

"I guess, but your gonna let me nap there I'm tired."

"Ok, great. I'll see you later, bye."

"Yeah, bye." I put the phone back on the mount and sat on my bed. And he does it again!



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Sorry I had to end this chappy on a weird note, I hope you liked the sonfic. Congrads to Starlight who got Ch:34's question right! You go girl! Thanks for reviewing everybody, I love ya all!! Princess of light, you my girl! See everyone next chapter, I hope.

Next chapter: Whats gonna go on when sparring starts?


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T/P

R: PG-13


My world, my life.
By: blonde-e


After an incident with Trunks, Pan gets pregnent. afraid of what people will say she runs for 12 years. Three chapters, I really liked this fic. It's original and common, yet still very good. Take a look and see what ya'll think.

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