Kagome woke up to the sound of rain splashing on her windowpane. – How long have I been out? – she thought. She pulled her headphones and looked down at her CD player. The batteries had died just like her heart. – The irony. – she thought, - I'm screwing up everything.-
As she was walking down the stairs to get fresh batteries, the smell of breakfast hit her nose sending her stomach into a tailspin. The crying had really taken it out of her.
After only nibbling at her breakfast, she returned upstairs with new batteries. When at her desk she started her English project, writing what she thought about each song. Without thinking, she poured her thoughts about what had happened onto the page. She ended it with ' I found out I loved him but love shouldn't hurt like this. I can't go back, but, dear god, what have I done?'
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A week later
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Inuyasha finally decided that it was time to come out of the well. He had kept vigil for numerous days and came to the conculsion that he had lost his Kagome for good. He had barely eaten the past days, ignoring the food Miroku brought daily, and had wallowed in his sorrow to the point of exhaustion. His skin had gone pale. His cheeks were gaunt, two prominent points on his face. His dog ears drooped. His shinning hair had gone dull with the dirt, a reflection of what he felt inside.
He jumped into the nearest tree, coincidentally, it what the god tree. He began to think of the good times he had once had with Kagome. One being a memory of listening to a song from Kagome's time. It had been in English and Inuyasha could hear it threw her head phones even though he was 5 yards away. Courisity got the best of him and he had asked what the man in the song had been saying. After hearing the transliation he was surprised. How could a man become so obsessed over a women? Now he knew. He was having those thoughts now. He was having those thoughts then as well. He ran away from Kagome hoping that these thoughts would disappear, but they had become stronger with her absence. He was obsessing over a women, but silently he said, over and over like a mantra, "I won't let this build up inside of me." He knew he would loose it if he couldn't see Kagome soon. He didn't know what he would do. – More then likely, I will die. – he thought.
She
seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame,
All the
torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me.
I'd
do anything have her to myself,
Just to have her for myself.
Now
I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do
When she makes
me sad.
She
is everything to me,
The unrequited dream,
The song that no one
sings,
The unattainable.
She's a myth that I have to believe
in,
All I need to make it real is one more reason.
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Ironically, Kagome was listening to this very song. – I've heard this before. I was listening to it in the feudal era. I got it on a CD from Eri. She loves American music. I was listening to it at night and … Inuyasha said he could hear it. He wanted to know what it was saying. After I explained it, (thankfully Eri included printed translations for me) Inuyasha's face became funny. He asked me why the man was so obsessed with the women. I told him it was because she had become his world, but did Inuyasha hear me? He jumped away before I could answer… Why did he run away from me? –
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I
don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do when she makes me
sad.
But
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up
inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't
let this build up inside of me.
A
catch in my throat, choke,
Torn into pieces, I won't. No.
I
don't want to be this but
I won't let this build up inside of me
(won't let this build up inside of me) x4
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"I won't let this build up inside of me. I won't let this build up inside of me. I won't let this build up inside of me. I won't let this build up inside of me." Inuyasha was whispering.
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She
isn't real.
I can't make her real.
She isn't real.
I can't
make her real.
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"Please come back to me."
