Title: Together For The First Time.
Author: Kristina Q.
Disclaimer: None of these characters belong to me sigh but if they did I sure as hell wouldn't complain giggles
Distribution: Anywhere you want as long as you ask me.
Spoiler: AU. I guess.
Warning: This fic contains profanity and male/male situations.
Rating: R. edited version

Deja vu.

That was how Jesse felt like right now. Like this had already happened before. And it had. Not many days ago, Jesse had walked the same path.

Head lowered, Jesse glared down at the Bordeaux carpeted floor. The color seemed so much brighter at the moment. Jesse knew it wasn't. It was probably because he was a little nervous. He was nearing the door to Chris' room. Nearing the door to his happiness.

To be quite honest then Jesse had no idea of what was going to happen tonight. All he knew was that Chris was waiting for him. He was waiting for no one else than him. It was almost too good to be true. Surreal. Like a dream.

If it was a dream then Jesse wished he would never wake up again.

Many memories of the last time he was on his way to Chris popped up in his mind. The same strange feeling. Like a huge tight knot tying inside his stomach. The light tingling sensation making it almost impossible to concentrate. The thoughts coursing through his mind when no one opened the door.

But also when the door suddenly opened! He had felt so hurt and lost, but at the moment the door opened all that had vanished like a wave had washed over him. The warm gentle touch against his skin. Chris' lightly quivering fingertips had brushed over his hand, sending a strangely comforting feeling throughout his entire body.

And of course that kiss. Abruptly and longing. Yet it felt so right. For that moment everything had felt right.

At this very moment Jesse felt almost happy just by thinking of these things.

With every step Jesse came closer and closer to Chris. With every breath his body tensed more and more.

Finally.

He was there. All he had to do now was knock on the wooden door.

He knocked and the door was carefully opened. He sucked in a shaky breath when he saw Chris. Standing there in front of him. Never had he looked more beautiful than he did now. He looked almost like an angel to Jesse.

He was wearing those tight PVC trousers that seemed to fit perfectly to his gorgeous body. But what caught Jesse's attention was the smile on Chris' beautiful face. His perfect lips curled upwards. Jesse could feel himself blushing. He was speechless. Couldn't even think coherent.

"Hi..." Jesse finally managed to say. Chris only looked at him, still with that beautiful smile. Jesse felt as if he was about to faint.

Amused by the affect he had on Jesse, Chris gently took his hand and led him inside. The feel of his hand in his made Jesse swallow hard. It felt so good. So natural. Like it had been missing in his entire life. And it was finally here. And he was determined to never let go of it again, no matter what happened!

Before even getting the chance to speak another word Jesse felt moist lips press against his and Chris had him moaning within a second. He faintly heard the door shut behind him. Tangling his fingers in Chris' golden silky locks, he deepened the kiss; a desperate groan escaped his throat when he felt Chris' tongue against his.

A wave of arousal shot throughout him when he suddenly felt warm fingers travel up under his shirt. The touch was gentle, almost curious. Everything seemed to be perfect! Tasting those addictive lips. Feeling those curious fingertips trailing across the mountains and valleys of his ribs.

Lips met with a curve of his neck, sucking hard enough to leave a red mark while fingers slowly drifted further up to explore his chest.

Suddenly Jesse broke the kiss, gasping for air. He looked into Chris' eyes. He seemed a bit confused. "You ok?" Chris carefully questioned, "Is it going too fast?" his eyes were glaring straight into Jesse's. "No, it's just…" he sighed, "Are you sure this is what you really want?"

A light laughter escaped his lips before he stole a quick kiss from Jesse, "I've never been so sure in my life!" he said before claiming his lips in a passionate kiss.

He then moved away from Jesse despite the little protesting whimper that slipped past Jesse's lips as he did so.

Sitting down on the springy mattress, Chris send an inviting smile to Jesse and it didn't take long for Jesse to understand the hint! He was quick to emerge in front of Chris, kneeled down and kissed his lips. When he trailed his lips down to kiss his jaw and neck he heard a faint whisper in his ear. "I love you…"

Jesse's lips slowly curled upwards and he withdrew only to look into the bright eyes of the younger man in front of him. Chris looked so happy. A perfect reflection of his own face, he was sure of. "I love you too…" he replied cautiously. Jesse memorized Chris' face before slowly moving in to taste his sweet lips again.

Eyes shut; Chris could hear the sound of Jesse's bare feet padding out to the bathroom. He returned moments later after cleaning himself and crawled onto the mattress again.

Chris sighed. He could hear a low purr emitting from Jesse before he was once again by his side. A kiss was placed on his forehead before Jesse snuggled closer to him, draping the covers over their still sweaty bodies.

Wrapping his arms around Chris' body, Jesse was now lying with Chris' back pressed against his chest. He kissed his shoulder quickly, Chris shifting a little when he felt the stubble tickle his sensitive skin.

Within a few minutes Chris' breathing had begun to even out. Slow deep breaths. His chest heaving at a comforting pace. Jesse felt the need to hold him. He would never let go again.

A wave of tiredness washed over him and he closed his eyes, tightening his grip around the man lying with him. A weary smile appeared on his lips, before he whispered "I love you, babe…"

The End