Hanging By A Moment
Noah and Kit were still wrapped up in each other's arms when Hayley came home. Kit made an abrupt and apologetic departure and Noah felt embarrassed but happy at the same time. Hayley smiled at him and asked him if she could get him anything but he declined.
desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer to where I started
chasing after you
Hayley sat down on the sofa opposite him and began to talk to him about events of the day and he told her about his walk with Kit. Even though it hurt him to say it he managed to tell his ex girlfriend about Kim and Kit. Hayley was surprised.
"I thought things were beginning to work out between you. When I saw her coming out of the hospital she looked concerned and I could tell she was really worried about you."
Noah nodded. "Yeah, but I stuffed things up between us completley." He paused and took a long painful breath. "The doctors gave me some drugs and they made me drowsy when I woke up. The affects were described as being like weak amnesia until you get used to your surroundings. As I came round Kit was sitting by my bedside, she'd been there all day one of the nurses said and I thought she was you and she was really upset. I told her that I didn't know anyone called Kit but then once I came round and realised who she was I really did the damage.
He stopped and looked Hayley who had been staring at him with interest and concern. Noah took another deep breath before continuing. This was going to be the hardest part to relive.
"She said that I had told her that I had something to say to her and then I remembered what it was and I felt so bad. Kit had been sat their all day bored out of her mind and then I hadn't even recognised her and then what Isaid next must have been why she ran toKim for confort. I don't blame her, I would have done the same. "
Hayley reacked out and sympathetically took Noah's hand but he refused to hold it. "It's okay Noah. You can tell me, go on."
"I,I told her that we could only ever be friends nothing more. I think she thought I had been leading her on all of this time just because I needed her. It's so ironic Hayley, everything is such a mess and now I've lost her forever."
Noah fought hard not to break down he'd already done it once before. He couldn't do it again, not in front of Hayley anyway.
"You haven't lost her honey.She came to your party, she offered to stay the night, she took you for a walk and she gave you a hug just now. I think she still cares just as much as you do."
Noah smiled a little. "Thanks.But I'm still not convinced. Do you mind if I spend a little bit of time on my own?"
Hayley understood and left. Noah felt bad more making her go but he didn't want her sympathy at that moment. He needed to think, alone.
I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Kit walked along the beach, her small backpack slung over one shoulder and her flip flops in one hand. She enjoyed the feeling of the sand between her toes, it gave her something else to focus on. She jumped suddenly and violently as someone creeped up behind her. It was Kim, someone she really didn't want to see right now.
"Hey." He smiled and turned her face to kiss her. "How's Noah doing? He looks better."
"He's fine." Kit answered trying to keep any edge out her voice.
"Are you okay?" Kim asked and Kit felt guilty. She couldn't lie to him but she didn't know what to say to him either. Instead she just nodded. Kim wasn't convinced but he let it go all the same.
"Do you want to hang out later? Maybe we could go to Yabbie Creek and see a movie?" he offered.
Kit considered the offer but declined.
"I'm sorry Kim but I promised Tasha that I'd stay in and watch a movie that's on TV." Kit replied.
"Oh ok." Kim didn't seem to pleased. "Kit..." he began but left the sentence hanging. Kim turned and began to walk away, Kit watched him go, she was angry at herself for pushing him away but she needed some time to herself to clear her head.
forgetting all I'm lacking
completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
you take all of me now
Hayley left the Palace and made her way to the Diner for a cup of coffee but instead she decided to take a walk along the beach. She slipped her shoes off and stepped forward putting her bare foot on to the warm sand. She listened to the calming sound of the waves lapping. She looked around her and saw that Kit was also on the beach. Hayley noticed that she didn't look very happy either, it looked like she had been crying. Kit crying? Hayley knew something must be wrong. The first thought that entered her mind was Noah. Hayley wondered whether she should go over or not. She knew from Dani that Kit liked her own space but she also knew that she couldn't just leave her like that. She walked towards Kit and sat down a little way away from her and to tried to begin a conversation which wasn't easy to do.
"How are you doing?" Hayley asked gently not prepared for what was to come.
"Fine just fine!" Kit burst out. "Why can't everyone just leave me alone?" she stood up and began to walk away but Hayley jumped up and grabbed her by the shoulder.
"It's okay to be upset Kit. I know this is difficult for you, it's hard on everyone especially you. Noah cares about you okay. When will you realise it?" Hayley asked, she knew she was verging onto dangerous territory now.
Kit was genuinely surprised by what Hayley was saying.
"No he doesn't." she said trying to block whichever emotion that was trying to take over her. "I'm just the stupid kid who drinks away her sorrows and it's my fault he got into this situation in the first place. He must hate me."
It was Hayley's turn to be shocked.
"Hate you? Kit do you always walk around with your eyes closed? He's in love with you!"
Kit laughed out loud this time.
"No Hayley, don't you see he still loves you? Except for Anna and Amber he hasn't been with anyone else since your break up like two years ago now."
Hayley did her best to stay calm. Noah had told her whilst he was in hospital that the past was too painful for them to re write and that was happy just having a friend in her. It was at that moment that Hayley realised who Noah was really in love with and probably always would be. Now she had the problem of making Kit understand and that wasn't going to happen overnight.
I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Keeping her voice steady Hayley answered.
"No Kit, but if I can't make you see the truth when it's staring you in the face only Noah can."
"Sure." Kit retorted but it didn;t sound as certain out loud as it did in her head. "If you want to know the truth I'll go and see for myself Hayley okay?"
Hayley didn't answer but just let Kit go. It was something she had to find out for herself. The two of them deserved to be happy, they hadn't had an easy ride so far but she hoped that being together would make them stronger. Hayley hoped that things would work out, her words may have had no affect on Kit but maybe Noah's would.
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
and I don't know what I'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you
Noah sat staring into space wondering about whether he had done the right thing in pushing both Kit and Hayley away from him. He loved them both in completley different ways and didn't want to lose either of them. After the disasterous break up with Hayley their friendship had grown and now he couldn't think of her in any other way except being a best friend.
Kit, on the other hand, he felt a totally different kind of love towards. After everything they had been through from the counselling to the kiss at the dance to the motorbike accident, their relationship had taken many changes and ups and downs. He wished he hadn't rejected her so many times especially that cruel day at the hospital. He wished he could erase that moment. There was a knock at the door which brought him back to his senses.
"Come in!" he called. "Who is it?"
Kit pushed open the Palace door. "It's me"
Noah hadn't expected to see Kit back so quickly.
"Hey,"he said quietly. Kit came and sat down next to him.
"How are you?" she asked.
"I'm okay. I'm more worried about you." Noah stated.
Kit shrugged away the comment and tried to ignore Hayley's voice in her head.
"No seriously Noah, how is uh...everything?" she asked again.
Before he could stop himself he said :
"Better for seeing you again." he stopped. "Sorry Kit, it's just...it's just..."
"What?" Kit asked laying her hand lightly over his.
"Nothing..." Noah sighed He didn't want to hurt her, her hand was still resting on his.
"Go on." Kit prompted. "Tell me."
"Okay." Noah took a deep breath and prepared himself to take the plunge.
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer to where I started
Chasing after you
"I love you Kit." he said and waited for the damage that was to come/
Kit just smiled. " I love you too."
I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Noah was surprised that Kit said what she did. He knew that she had felt that way once but he thought that she was over that now and that Kim was his replacement in her affections.
"Really?" Noah asked not veiling his surprise very well.
"Hell yeah!" Kit laughed. Noah leant towards her and kissed her gently. Kit gave in trying to ignore her guilt over Kim. She had waited for so long to hear Noah say that he loved her that she refused to let the moment go.
