Two Much:Words Gone Unspoken

"I'm just now realizing that I shouldn't have said that."

"Ya think?"

Hayate ignored his urge to leave and continued. "It's because I'm angry at you-"

"For what?!"

"It's not your fault now can you stop interrupting?!" Kai closed her mouth while Hayate sat at her desk chair. "That island where you lived, a long time ago, I lived there too." Kai looked at him oddly but resisted the urge to interrupt in fear of his violent outburst. "You wouldn't have known, because I wasn't allowed to talk to you or your brother. Not that you didn't know I was there. But I'm-…your brother."

"…"

"Well, half brother."

"Okaay…what?"

"I said-!"

"You can't be my…brother…you look nothing like me."

"I said half! Listen!"

"…"

"The reason I hate…ed…you so much was because a long time ago when you were probably three at the most? Our…your…father chose you, your mother, and brother, over my mother and I. He denied being with my mother and disowned me. Even though it was obvious that I would be an even greater warrior than your brother, he didn't care. Instead of becoming the heir to his head position, he banished my mother and I from the clan and island because affairs were frowned upon by the elders."

"…"

"I remembered seeing you before we left. You look so different, but in a way…exactly the same. You just smiled and waved at me. You didn't even know what was going on but it still made me hate you." Hayate sighed and made an attempt to move his bangs from his face. He looked at Kai with those fierce deep blue eyes of his.

You…look just like him.

"However, I know now that I'm hating the wrong person for the wrong reasons and I'm sorry. I'm over it now. After I left that island I came into realization of my own power passed on to me by the diminished Knight of Wind. And I became the Knight of Wind. When we run completely out of lefae we can't reincarnate. Instead the Knight in astro form chooses whom to take his place."

"So…you're…my…half-brother?"

"Are you not listening?" Hayate sighed and slumped back into the chair.

"I am! Really. It's just weird."

"Yeah, well, that's just how it is alright?"

"Okay, but…I'm not going to listen to you. You may be my brother, but you're not my dad."

"I'm not asking you to," Hayate responded, walking toward the door.

"I'm not going to be any nicer to you either."

"Again, I'm not asking you to." Hayate opened the door but felt Kai hug him from behind. "What the-"

"Thanks…"

Kai squeezed her hands tighter around his waist, or at least as far as they'd go. Hayate didn't really expect something like that, especially from her. He patted her on the head. "No problem," he stated with an odd smile.

Kai looked up at him and quickly let go. "I never really wanted a brother. They're nothing but trouble and too much of it. I wanted an older sister. So when you and Himeno get married I can have one," Kai said walking down the hall.

"…Wait, what?!" Hayate shouted after her. He followed close behind.

"I was just saying. I mean you're always together and always touching each other like no one else notices. It's sickening."

Hayate blushed from embarrassment. "Whatever…" I swear. One minute she hates me and the next? Weird. But…Hayate glanced down at her now cheerful face. She looks so happy now. "You still hungry?"

"Nah, I've gone a while without food before. It's no biggie now."

"Your father didn't feed you?"

Kai noticed how he kept from saying our father or just plain father, but she didn't say anything about it. "Yeah, I ate at home…but…you know what happens when you get in trouble right," Kai said with a bit of a laugh.

"How much trouble," Hayate asked glaring at her from the corners of his eyes. Don't tell me…

"Oh no! Nothing serious," Kai lied. "Just when I wouldn't do so well in the arts."

"Oh…" For a second there I thought she meant they put he down…there. Then again, that would explain why she's so afraid of the dark. Not many people come back up from there. Hayate dismissed his thoughts and began asking her things he always wanted to but couldn't. "So, why were you practicing the arts. Was your brother not good enough?"

"Pff! No! If that baby would have did it than I wouldn't have had to. Father didn't take any…extreme measures with him because that was his only son." Kai purposely neglected to state Hayate as his son since she didn't think he'd like it very much.

"Only son?"

"Yeah. After him he kept having girls. It was so sad. My mother would cry every time she had another girl because he knew father would kill it. I had to convince him that I'd teach Mao under the sword just so he would off her too."

"…Oh."

"Ah, Don't be so sad about it."

"What?"

"Yeah, I mean, I know it's sad and everything but we're all going to die eventually. Sooner or later is just a matter of how long you feel like waiting."

"Well that's a bad way to look at it-"

"But I'm right. Back at home, the ones that feared for their lives so much died first."

"So you're not afraid of death?"

"What's there to be afraid of? You die, you're gone. At peace for the rest of forever."

"So you want to die."

"O don't be crazy now! Of course not! It's just a matter of acknowledging the truth. And the truth is, we're all going to die."

Hayate was confused. On the outside, she seemed like such a lively person. But on the inside she held onto such dismal beliefs. "You shouldn't worry about death at such a young age."

"Are you serious? Coming from where I, we lived? Death is like an every day, week at the most, thing. I'm sure you know what its like to see them. Or do you just kill creatures?"

Hayate ignored her question. "So you were a soldier?"

Kai looked sad for about a moment, ignoring his question. Hayate sensed she didn't want to talk about it so he dropped the question.

"So, one more thing I wanted to ask?"

"Yeah," she asked, her eyes lighting up again.

"I know, the clan didn't leave that island. They wouldn't. So what happened?"

"Well if I don't tell you, you'll probably go and check it out yourself won't you?" Hayate nodded his head slightly in agree. "They're all dead," she said just as monotonously as her first statement.

"E-everyone?"

"Every…last…one," Kai said emphasizing each word.

There was an awkward silence for a while. "The other Knights are probably outside. We should go before they, Sasame, get all worried." Kai laughed and followed him down the stairs.