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A/N: Sadly I don't own 7th Heaven but the story is original and is mine and I also own everyone else except for the following—Annie, Eric, Mary, Sarah, Matt, Kevin, Carlos, Simon, Ruthie, David & Sam, Sergeant Michaels, Ben, Patty-Mary, Carlos & Mary's first child (I do own the name though), Kevin's Mom & Step Dad's name and anyone else I forgot.

He plopped himself on the loveseat and started to think of everything that had happened within the past few years. Lucy and he hadn't been married for almost two years when she found out that they were having a baby. He was shocked just like she was but they were both happy in the end that they could start their family sooner than they had originally planned. He laughed thinking about how crazy she had gotten during her pregnancy…there was nothing wrong with Lucy Camden…except when her hormones were out of whack…which pretty much was almost every single day.

He thought back to June 24th of 2005 when Lucy was 8 months pregnant. Her pregnancy was going along smoothly when they decided they wanted to know what the sex of the baby was. Initially they didn't want to know but Lucy was practically begging Dr. Harrison to tell her. Kevin didn't want to know but since Lucy did he just went a long with it. The day they got to the doctors was a day that Kevin knew he never could forget.

~*~*~Flashback Begins~*~*~

            June 24th was just like any normal day that a couple like Kevin and Lucy could have. Except on this day they both had something that was exciting happening to them. They were going to Lucy's second 8 month check up and this time they were going to find out the sex of their baby. Even though most couples find out the sex of their babies during the beginning of their fourth months Lucy opted not to…only because she wanted to be surprised. Except after she was thrown three baby showers and gotten mostly pale yellow, green and white as baby clothing she desperately wanted to add different colors to the poor kids wardrobe before he or she was born. When she told Kevin that she wanted to know the sex of the baby the next time she had an appointment he just laughed…it was always like Lucy to want something after the opportunity had passed. Kevin had taken a half a day off from work and met Lucy at Dr. Harrison's office. She walked in there nervously because there was a question she needed to ask the doctor…something she hadn't told Kevin before…because she didn't want him to worry. They didn't have to wait that long until they were called and placed into a separate room waiting for the doctor to show. That's when Lucy really started to get cold feet…she knew she should have told Kevin before but now she knew she needed to tell him.

"Kev?" she said softly hoping to get his attention because he was flipping the pages of an old edition of Sports Illustrated Magazine.

"What's wrong Luce?" he asked noticing the worried expression that was on his wife's face at the moment.

"I…I have something that I need to tell you" she stammered out lout.

"What?" he asked standing up and sitting on the table with her.

"Well…I need to tell you some…" before Lucy could say anything else Dr. Harrison came in and Kevin returned to his chair.

"Hello Lucy…Kevin" Dr. Harrison said as he entered the room and sat down in his chair and faced both Lucy and Kevin. "How are both of my patients this afternoon?" Dr. Harrison questioned after a few minutes of silence.

"I…we…are good" Lucy replied as she cleared her throat. Dr. Harrison looked at Lucy who looked really nervous when he realized that his patient wanted to tell him something…but she didn't want to tell her husband.

"Kevin…I think Joanne and Jessi left a letter in Lucy's file saying that they needed more insurance information from you" Dr. Harrison told Kevin who looked at Lucy and shrugged his shoulders and left the room.

"Alright Lucy…what's the matter?" Dr. Harrison asked as soon as her husband was out of the room.

"Well…I…I think something is wrong and I really haven't told Kevin" she replied as some tears started to drip down her face in shame.

"Lucy…what makes you think that there is something wrong?" Dr. Harrison asked as he handed her a box of Kleenex that she promptly took three and wiped her eyes.

"Well…Kevin and I have been reading TONS of books on how the baby develops and everything and I was reading a couple of days ago how the baby should be moving and stuff like that…except I haven't felt him or her move at all since last month" she replied sadly hoping that what she was feeling last minute mother jitters and not the truth.

 "Well Lucy I can see where you are coming from…and if it makes you feel better we can do an ultrasound and see if there is anything wrong with the baby…and since Joanne tells me that you want to know the sex of your baby we can do that was well…would you like me to call Kevin back in?" he asked getting the transducer ready to do the ultrasound. Lucy sat on the table and thought about if for a few minutes…she did want Kevin to come and sit with her because she was scared of what the doctor might find.

"Yeah…could you please? I think I'll need him here" she told the doctor getting off the table and sitting on the examination table and placed her feet on the stirrups. Dr. Harrison gave Lucy a quick smile and step out into the hallway to find Kevin leaving Lucy all alone in the room.

"Why am I so worried?" she thought to herself when Kevin suddenly appeared.

"Luce…why didn't you tell me you were worried about the baby?" he said softly walking over to her and sitting on the extra chair that was next to the examination table.

"Because…because if you thought something was wrong…then you would want to rush to the doctors…I'm hoping it's just a pre-mother jitter I'm having" she whimpered letting all of her tears spill out that she had been holding back.

"Oh Luce…" Kevin muttered softly stroking the back of her hair. "You know that you can tell me anything…and it doesn't matter how un-important or how important it is" he told her kissing her on the top of the forehead before Dr. Harrison came back into the room.

"Are you two kids ready?" he asked while putting the latex gloves on his hands before he touched the jelly that would be placed on Lucy's bulging stomach. A few minutes later Dr. Harrison was moving the transducer along on Lucy's stomach when he came to the sonogram of their baby.

           

"Well kids would you like to know what you are having?" Dr. Harrison asked as he looked at the scared mother-to-be and the calm father-to-be. Both of them nodded their head not wanting to spoil the moment and waited for the doctor to speak. "Well you two it looks like you guys are having a baby girl…congratulations" he told them giving a huge smile before it quickly faded and a concerned face had come over him. Dr. Harrison quickly turned the screen away from both Lucy and Kevin and started to press buttons on the machine. From where Kevin was sitting he could tell something wasn't right but he didn't want to worry Lucy.

"What's wrong? She asked starting to panic when she saw Dr. Harrison turn the screen away from them. Finally after what seemed forever to both Lucy and Kevin Dr. Harrison stood up and motioned for Kevin to come out into the hall way with him.

"Don't worry Lucy…everything is fine…why don't you go ahead and put your clothes on and wipe the jelly off your stomach while I talk to Kevin for a few moments" Dr. Harrison said plastering a fake smile on his face as he handed her a wet washcloth.

Kevin followed the doctor into the hallway and immediately asked "What's wrong?" as soon as Lucy's examination room door was closed. Dr. Harrison sighed and looked straight into the eyes of Kevin.

"Kevin…I don't know how to tell you this but somehow we managed to overlook a hole in your baby's heart…the only thing we can do now is have Lucy deliver early and try and do heart surgery as soon as your daughter is born" he told him honestly not exactly sure how Kevin would react.

 "A hole in her heart?" he repeated not believing what the doctor was telling him.

"I'm sorry Kevin…I don't understand how we could have missed this…all the signs were pointing right to it and somehow we completely disregarded it…When I noticed it today I started to look at her charts and that's when it occurred to me" he replied leaning against the wall.

"How am I going to tell Lucy that what she thought was her pre-mother jitters was coming true?" he asked the doctor bluntly.

"I'm not sure Kevin…I would rather do it myself but seeing as you are her husband…if you feel like you should tell her please do" Dr. Harrison replied looking tense.

Kevin took a deep sigh and shook his head "I'll go in a tell her that when we go home she needs to get her over night bag together and that we are checking in today…as soon as possible" he told Dr. Harrison as he moved his hand towards the door handle.

"I'll be in my office scheduling her C-Section for tomorrow morning…the faster we get your daughter out the more of a chance she has to live" he replied walking towards his office as Kevin opened the door and entered Lucy's examination room.

"Kevin…what's wrong? What's going on?" a frantic Lucy wanted to know.

"Luce…honey…please you need to sit down…I have to tell you something" he replied pushing her gently into the chair that was closest to the door. "Lucy…Dr. Harrison told me that something's wrong with the baby…she has a hole in her heart and the faster that they fix it the more of a chance she has to live…as we speak Dr. Harrison is in the process of scheduling a C-Section for tomorrow morning…he is giving us enough time to go and pack an over night bag and check into the hospital" he told her gently waiting for her reaction but what he got was something that was very un Lucy like.

"Oh…well I guess we better get going then" she replied struggling to get out of the chair. He took her arm and helped her up when all of a sudden she flung herself at him sobbing as hard as she could. " I don't understand Kevin...why is god doing this to us? I have been so perfect in this pregnancy...why do we deserve to have something this horrible and terrible to happen?" she sobbed into his chest. He wrapped his arms around her and rocked her for a few minutes before he kissed the top of her head.

"Come on Luce…lets get home and call your folks…and then we will meet Dr. Harrison back at the hospital" he told her grabbing her purse that was on the floor and walked out of the room with his arm wrapped around her waist trying to support her weight. A few hours later after Lucy called Annie and Eric and told them what was going on Kevin and she arrived at the hospital to check Lucy in. While Lucy was talking to Leanne her nurse for the entire delivery Kevin excused himself and made a call to Captain Michaels and explained to him everything that was happening with Lucy and the baby he asked to take a few weeks off.  After hanging up the phone with his boss he called his mom and when he got the answering machine he left a message telling her to call his cell phone as soon as she could. He knew that she was probably out with George…his mom's husband of almost 3 years.

He slammed the pay phone receiver down angrily and looked up towards the ceiling and just muttered the words "why lord of all people why us?" he asked over and over again as he headed towards Lucy's hospital room. Dr. Harrison was able to get Lucy a private room and had an extra bed placed into the room so Kevin could sleep in the room with her in case anything should happen. Kevin approached the room and as soon as he opened the door he saw Lucy sleeping already…she had been tired these last few months and he knew it must have had something to do with the baby. He slipped nosily into the hospital room and got into the extra bed quietly and fell into a restless sleep…he knew he had to be strong for Lucy's sake once their daughter was born.

He woke up the next morning feeling like he hadn't gotten any sleep at all. With all of the monitors that were hooked up to Lucy that kept going off in the middle of the night. Finally at about 3am he finally said screw it and got up and walked around the Maternity Ward and checked out all the babies that were sleeping peacefully. He watched them for a few moments before he decided to head down towards the cafeteria and grab some coffee…he knew that today would be a very long day and he didn't want to miss any of it. Almost two hours later he walked back towards Lucy's room when he noticed a team of doctors and nurses racing towards her room. He threw the rest of his coffee into the trashcan and ran after them. When he got towards the door he was shocked at what he saw…there were almost 15 people in her room and he could barely see Lucy. He pushed his way into the room and saw Lucy's scared face.

"Luce? What's wrong?" he asked her finally getting to her bedside.

"I don't know" she hiccupped "I was sleeping and all of a sudden one of these stupid monitors started to go off and a nurse raced in here and took one looked and race back out and when she came in with a bunch of other people" she sobbed harder as she squeezed the hand he offered her.

"Excuse me sir? We need you to leave" a nurse told Kevin when she noticed that he was standing next to Lucy.

"Please…he is my husband…let him stay…I need him here" Lucy pleaded hoping that someone would let Kevin stay. The nurse just glared at him and turned back towards Lucy's monitor when they all heard the door open and Dr. Harrison made an appearance.

"I need everyone out of here now!" he barked angrily as everyone scurried out of Lucy's hospital room leaving only her, Kevin and the doctor. "Lucy, Kevin I apologize for my staff…they were under strict orders to call me as soon as something went off…and I'm afraid that they forgot and well I'm here now" he told the couple who looked very awake. "Lucy in about 5 minutes one of my nurses will come in and give you an epidural shot and then we are going to wheel you into prep room #2 and we will deliver your daughter there...and then we will bring you back here and we will start to operate on your daughter as soon as we can" he told them answering all their questions without them even having to ask them and with that he walked out of the room to get scrubbed up and suited up for the longest day that he was about to have.

 Almost three hours later after Lucy was induced and given an epidural they had a beautiful baby girl weigh in at 5 pounds 6 ounces and almost 19 inches long. Dr. Harrison showed them their little girl and quickly whisked her away to perform the heart surgery. The nurses wheeled Lucy back into her hospital room who dozed most of the day. Kevin called Annie and Eric, his mom, Ben, Patty Mary and even Matt, Sarah, Mary and Carlos. He was in such a good mood that when he walked into Lucy's room he kissed her long and hard which woke her up.

 "Good morning Lucy Goosey" he called her kissing her again softer on the lips this time.

"Wha…what time is it?" she asked groggily since she was still heavily medicated. "It's time for the new mother to wake up" he teased her handing her a bright pink bear that said Baby Girl on the front of its stomach.

"Oh Kev…thanks" Lucy exclaimed looking up towards her husband as she kissed him passionately on the mouth when they were interrupted by a soft knock at the door. "Come in" she exclaimed holding Kevin's hand when her face fell as Dr. Harrison came into her room looking serious.

"Lucy…Kevin…I'm afraid I have some bad news" he told them sitting on the side of the other bed. Lucy squeezed Kevin's hand so hard that he jumped up a little surprised but quickly turned his attention back towards the doctor.

"How is our daughter?" Kevin asked giving Lucy a reassuring pat on the arm before he took her hand again.

           

"I'm afraid that the hole was bigger than what we anticipated" Dr. Harrison began "We tried the best we could do to close it but I'm afraid that it was to late" he told them. "There is just way to much damage so we stopped and closed her up and put her on a respirator so you two could say your last good byes" he told them as they just stared at him in shock.

It was Lucy who spoke up first "No…I'm sorry you have to talking about the wrong baby…our daughter had a very small…small..." And she wasn't able to finish before sobs overtook her body and she cried out in sadness. Kevin reached over and gathered his wife into his arms and let her cry. He wanted to do the same thing but he knew that he had to be strong for the both of then. Dr. Harrison left the room leaving strict orders with the nurses not to bother the young couple in room 214 and to page him immediately if one of them needed to speak to him. For almost an hour Kevin held Lucy in his arms as she sobbed and sobbed.

She finally looked up at him and started to speak "Kev…we need to give her a name…she can't be buried with just Baby Kinkirk…she deserves to have a real name" she told him wiping her tears on his shirt tail.

"I know baby I know" he replied still holding her in his arms "Why don't you pick out a name…anything that you choose is fine with me" he continued.

"Well we did have three girls names picked out" she replied reaching over towards the drawer and pulled out a pad of paper.

"What were the names sweetie?" he asked her hoping he wasn't pushing her to hard.

"Well we wrote down Sarah Danielle, Madison Marie and Leah Renee" she told him as she just tossed the pad of paper over to the side. He sat there for a minute to think of names when he turned and looked at his wife.

"I think I like the name Leah Renee" they said unison with each other. After they had made their decision Kevin got up and went to the nurse's station and they paged Dr. Harrison.

After Kevin and Lucy said good bye to the daughter that they hardly known for less than 48 hours she was taken off the respirator and pronounced dead on June 25th, 2005 at 2:45 pm. Lucy cried so hard that day there was no way Kevin knew what to do but let her cry her anger and sadness out.

He thought that they had been through the hardest part of their life…losing their first born child but what came after that turned out to be the hardest of them all. Lucy had lost all interest in anything that she use to do. She stopped going to school, she stopped going to church, she stopped visiting Mary who had just given birth a month later to her second child because every where she went it reminded her of the child she had lost. Kevin had almost given up after three months of Lucy being depressed. She wasn't the same Lucy he had met back in Buffalo, she wasn't the same Lucy who he had married and she sure in hell wasn't the same Lucy who found out she was going to be a mom.

 He had almost given up when one day Lucy came downstairs one Sunday morning in her church clothes and told Kevin that they were going to church. He couldn't believe it and neither could the rest of her family when they got to church. Later that night after Lucy and Kevin came from her parent's house she confessed that while she was looking at the photos of Leah she felt some sort of peace with the death of their daughter and somehow it made her not as angry anymore. He looked at her in disbelief and hugged her as soon as she started to cry. His wife, his best friend and his soul mate had finally come back to him he didn't have to worry about ever losing her again.

~*~*~Flashback Ends~*~*~

Kevin woke up in a cold sweat…he couldn't remember where he was for a moment until the room finally came into view. He was still downstairs in the family room and he was still holding onto Leah's baby picture. He got off the couch and replaced the picture back onto the table and looked at the grandfather clock that his mom had given to them on their wedding day. It was only eleven o'clock and he turned the light off in the family room and walked up the stairs to check on his wife. When he got to their bedroom he opened the door and saw that she was still sleeping but she had managed to get underneath the covers and was cuddled around his pillow as usual. He smiled when he saw that and climbed into bed putting his arm around her and she moved to be closer with him. The only thing he though before he went to bed was how lucky he was that god was giving them both second chance before he drifted off to sleep.

A/N: Sorry that this chapter was a little bit long…I promise the next chapter will have more of Katelyn and her family in it!

A/N: I'm in no way a doctor or a nurse so don't believe anything I say when it comes to having babies or even the terminology.